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I just realized something...

A few months before, when I was still wondering what I should do next, whether to continue in another city in China or go study abroad at another country or just simply go back, I was really considering to go to Japan.

And really, Daddy has been taking really good care of me.

Can you imagine if mom didn't object?

I would have been seriously preparing for Japan. And prolly by Feb/March this year, already am in japan.
Anddd... I would have experienced the huge earthquake, the tsunami, the no electricity... Freezing with rationed food prolly?
Wow... I'm... "Glad"?

But... It kinda made me wonder. What would my life be like, if since the beginning I chose Japan over China?
Maybe, just maybe... It'll be the other way around. i'll stay a year in Japan and then I'll be in China now. Coz obviously I don't think mom will object over me going to China at all. Even if I only take language as my course.
And maybe... Just maybe.. I'll be hating China even more than before, when I first tried to settle there.
Haha. And would be very concern for my 'friends' in Japan. But at least I would have been able to stay in my 'admired' country.
After all, out of all, except Indo and China... Or even compared to those, Japan has been the one country that has left a lot of impact in my life. What with all the comics and dramas and music and whatever else I've been exposed to since I was a kid. Lol.

The point is? I think most of the decisions I made is, once again, related to "what I really want" and "what would have been useful". "Practicality" over "Passion?". I think... If I have to make decisions again in the future for my self. The topic won't be too far away from that. Andd... I'll be wondering again...

Which one is more important? Something that "will be useful in the future but you don't really like" or something that "you really like but might not be as useful"? Can somebody tell me the answer to that?



On another note, I realized something else. I posted this entry on the wrong blog before. Lol. Ah well...