Back to Basic

I've just finished doing my slides for the coming presentation. I don't feel like it's the best. Like, I might be able to improve on it, but I can't be bothered. Lol. Anw, i've sent the soft copy so nothing else I can do except to wait until tomorrow.

Well... What was I thinking? Oh yeah, suddenly I remembered the lines "Life's been easy on me". I think so too. Hahaha. After all, i've never really felt any such depression that I feel it's hopeless (except uni? Lol. I don't know. Somehow if I think back, probably uni was the hardest moment of my life. China comes second? Lol.)

I was just thinking back to our interviews, when I had to mention that actually, in my second year of uni my grades drop. And then they asked, why? And all I had for my answers was just "I don't know actually. I'm not quite sure why, maybe I was having a lot of pressure at that time. But I bounced back on my third year." Now that I'm thinking about it, probably those were the years that we had issues about ourselves. Our identity. Our confident with our own existence and being. The purpose. And about who we are. I mean, don't get me wrong. I still struggle with those (heck, you can see them through out my whole posts. It always relates to me finding the new me. "Chuckles*) But those moments probably were our moments of crisis, where we were still unsure of everything. Of what we've achieved, of what's haunting us in the past, of the current us at the time, of the upcoming futures that was running fast to catch us, while we're still confused of who we are individually, as a person. What was/is our capabilities? Where are our limits? Or whether we've reached our limits? What are our purpose? Those and yeah, we were on a whole different world from families who normally back us up. We have to face everything "alone". No one to really depends on. (Tho I'm lucky enough to have my friends who are very supporting and encouraging. Yeah!)

Well.. Now, after a few days, suddenly I think, maybe that's why I was so... struggling in my second year of unis. Apparently I have had "real issues" that I had to deal with without me realizing it. Lol. So random. And you know, right now, the moments where we're looking for work. I'm wondering... Usually it's another "great moments" for struggles. Lol. Will I have it easy again? (Tho I sure hope so. :P) Maybe my challenge will come when I've already found one, instead of when I'm looking for one. Humm... Kinda scary.. But hey, "in You I found courage". So whatever there is, let it comes... Let the 'fun' begins! =D