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Lol... I'm wishing you guys a happy and cheerful year ahead!!! Huahahahaaha....

You know, this year our family doesn't plan anything, we didn't go anywhere, nor did we go to any restaurant to enjoy New Year's eve together... So, you could understand why I have actually let go of any hope of seeing any fireworks display... So as we wait for new year's at home, I suddenly heard bom-bom-bom sound outside beginning since 10.30pm probably? Didn't really notice it... At around 11pm, I actually went out of my room to look outside our balcony and there it was, fireworks being set off right outside our house. But then again it wasn't really that grand or anything. Just normal fireworks... And only occasional ones... (I was actually puzzled coz it was still 11pm right? So it's either they're practicing/preparing for the real thing in 1 hour times or I got my watch wrong - which is kinda impossible. Lol.) And so I went back to my room, browsing the net as usual and watching the TV (actually found KBS channel showing the usual Korean show with the glasses wearing ojiisan with that comedian who gathers inside some kind of steam room... You know, the funny show? I forgot the name. Lol.) So I actually watched that while waiting for 00.00 lol. (it was pretty funny... lol... so at least it lifted my mood a bit. Hahaha.)

Then at around 10 min before 12 (my room's clock), my dad suddenly opened the door and kinda told me to go out. So I went out, back to the balcony on our 2nd floor and there it was!!! Gorgeous displays of fireworks all around our house... Right across our house, from beside our house, at the far back left, at the far right, basically everywhere we look, there were fireworks! Huahahahaha... And the most beautiful ones are the one right across our house (dasar orang kaya, susah. hahaha.).. My bro came with a vid camera with no battery. Lol. so we couldn't actually taped them. And mom finally came out and she was the most excited out of all us (she actually shouted "hahaha" and clapped her hands. Lol. Even my bro said she's acting like a kid. Lol!) And so we stood there for 10 min or more probably? Watching the fireworks together....

Sigh... You know, it wasn't really a given that I have to watch fireworks during new years... But somehow I always get to watch them every year I guess, no matter where I am, there were always fireworks... So, today's actually a special one for me. Because I didn't expect it but it's like He's saying happy new year to me and that it's my present =) That's the second time He did it for me... With fireworks I mean. Lol. Sooo happy....

And with this, it opens up a new chapter, a new beginning... A whole new year is waiting ahead. And I believe, whatever out there waiting, we'll be able to conquer them! Because He'll never leave us alone. Amin! Lol....

I trully look forward to the year ahead...

PS: My mom said someone said that 2010 is a year of hope. I guess that's true ne? Lol. At least for me.... Really excited! Hahaha....

Kyowa, Rin-sama wa... Rin-sama... He got angry at mee.. Booohhhoooohhhooooo.... I left him on for 3 hours straight (I thought I was gonna leave him for just a bit, that he could handle it... Huhuhu...)

I admit, I haven't been good to him this past month... I let him up while I fell asleep, forcing him to hibernate each time... And so today... He got really, really hot... And when I woke him up, he just freezeedddd.... Bohohohoho.... I don't know what to dooo... And so I did what I usually did to Ba-chan... Goooommmeeeennnaaaasssaaaiiiiiiiiii.... T_T

Has any of yours freezed like that before? Or is it just... Rin-sama's way of protesting to me?? T_T Gooomeeennnn... Huhuhu...

Checklist:

1. Sit: Ok.
2. Stand: Ok.
3. Walk: Ok.
4. Bow: Barely ok.
5. Trying to sit: Painful.
6. Trying to stand: Painful.
7. Trying to walk: Not as much painful anymore.
8. Trying to do anything else (moving to certain position): Too painful!

Boohooo...

I spent most of it at home, watching youtube.... Browsing old movies... BGT, Gaki no tsukai (I know, sounds pathetic ^^") and somehow came across star king ep. 120. So cool! I wonder how he did that? The hand flute thingy... Hummm... Lupin 3 OST is sooo cool in here... Lol..



The wish upon a star song's also sooo sweeettttt... :P

Cute!

I can't open up my own blog page (even if I can blog in it ^^") as well as the others. It says that "Safari can’t find the server". Weird!

Finally! After, I don't know how long it was anymore, all the busy-ness and the arguments and the craziness and the crowds! It's alllll done... Woohooo.. Well, not all. Never all. Lol. But at least the really big stuffs yesterday has passed. Now, I can get my family, my house, my room(s) all back to me and me alone. Lol. No more intruders, no more weird funky language going on around the house, no more annoying acts (hang on, the annoying part.. humm.. I don't think that'll EVER go away... Lol.), no more SMOKES! (how I dislike the smokes! Sigh...), no more being forced to follow orders from someone who I think unkindly of. More importantly, no more unkindly thoughts! (Wait, wait, wait... At least it's lesser now... ^^") Ahhh... My burdens felt lifted out... A bit... ^^" Now I can focus on my own things.. Or can I? =p

Hahahahahaha... I just wanna laugh out loud right now. Hahahahaha... You know, my bro doesn't want any "religious" music to be in his computer. But he got Lifehouse in there. And now I'm pretty sure that Lifehouse songs are about our great and mighty JC. Lolz!!!

I just found out Apple's ads line... The one with "Hello, I am a Mac." and usually continued with "And I am a PC." Lolz.. Funny, funny ads... Lol. They make PC guy to be really really childish with all these fancy stuffs (like cheerleaders and podium stands for speech and bla bla bla) while Mac just stood there with his hands in his pockets. Lol. And everytime, it ended up backfired on PC and Mac got praised instead. Lol... Clever ads....

My time has stood still...

By this time, I'm starting to miss the old good days in Sydney. Can't wait to get out there and start doing my own thing, by my own timing and my own efforts. To do what I wanna do instead of doing what I don't wanna do every single day. And the one time I wanna do my own thing? Yeah, people start commenting. Like I ask it every single day.

Back to choices...

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

(Inspired by recent events and certain blog style)

So I was fb-ng at around 12.45am when I heard a knock on my door...

2nd bro: What're u doing?
Me: What are U doing?
(Then we stood there on my door... I went out to his room. He followed.)
Me: So, what are you doing?
2nd bro: ... (forgot what he said)
(He went to our parent's room, the lights were still on and I could still see the TV's lights in mom's side of the room)
Me: What's dad doing?
2nd bro: Walking around (pacing around the room)
Me: What's mom doing?
2nd bro: Sleeping... Wait (he looked back and check the TV light), watching TV?
(I went to 1st bro door and tried the door knob, which was locked. 2nd bro right behind me)
Me: What's he doing?
2nd bro: Sleeping.
Me: Hum...
(Walked back to my room. Heard footsteps on my older bro's room and the door opened)
1st bro: What?
Me: What are you doing?
1st bro: I was sleeping.
Me: Hum...
(All three stood inside my room and stood beside the door)
(2nd bro started to rub his belly - a habit that he picked up since his belly started to show, and also 1st bro's round belly - since his belly has grown really round lately... I followed his example - and rub THEIR bellies. Wakakaka...)
...
(A few seconds of standing, doing nothing beside my door)
Me: What are you guys doing??? Go back to your own room! XD
(All went back to their own room and closed the door at the same time while smiling)


Really weird... It's like a comedy episode or something. That wasn't an everyday thing mind you... Though the "what are you doing" phrase has become quite a habit lately, not unlike Joey's "how u doin?" phrase. Lol. I guess me and my bro watched too many Friends. (There were time when I re-watched Friends in my room, and 2nd bro saw, and in the end, he re-watched Friends as well. So that time the memory were still fresh in our mind and we'd laugh them off together.) So I think the "what're u doin"s started at that time. And lately it's becoming an everyday thing... It's like a greeting... Everytime we visited each other's room... Opening his/my door and it's "What are you doing?" Though usually I'd prefer not to answer the question. Lol.

So, What are you doing?

So, if I look back, starting with the huge 7,8 ritcher earthquake that hits Indonesia (largest ever in Jakarta in my whole life probably?), to the flood in the desert area that makes a dry land looks like a vast, huge lake and event caused accidents in the mountain area that ultimately canceled our 4-wheelers trip to the oasis on the mountain area because it's too dangerous (apparently the last update I've heard was that around 14 people found dead and more than 30 people were still missing. So the whole area was blocked. And apparently, there hasn't been as much rain for the past, what... 70-80 years??? Then we came, and it suddenly rained the whole night, non-stop, and flooding the area... Ckckckck... I heard that usually it rained there hard, like storm rain that we had back in GC but usually it's only 30 min to 1 hour and then it stopped and usually it's very rare... Usually...), to the worst dDesert storm that covered south-east Australia (I heard that it hasn't happened since 1940s too, at least it doesn't reach populated areas), to the second earthquake in Indonesia that wrecked Padang city.... And who knows what else is happening out there at this very moment.. (I think Samoa in US was strucked with tsunami as well recently and NZ... NZ was hit with tsunami too, just hours ago... If I'm not mistaken...)

Wow.... What's happening to our mother earth? It's like nature's finally took action and starts 'revenging' on how humans behave for the past couple hundreds of years, neglecting the well-being of nature itself.

As for me, I'm just thankful that I still live as usual, happily healthy (enough)... Without any major crisis going on. So much blessings and protections in my whole life... What bout those people who are affected then? How I wished that nothing bad would happen... Which is kinda impossible hey? Haha... Which in turn, is kinda scary in itself. I think no one could go through life so "safely" like I did... I mean, something must have been there, stored for me, waiting for the right moment and timing to come through bursting on my door... Waiting to see, how I'll react to the sudden devastating circumstances... Right?

Well, whatever happen, will happen.. And so far I still believe I'll be alright, because I know that I have a great "backing up" who'll always be with me, (us,) no matter what... So... Fingers-crossed...

Okay... So I was in Southern Europe and Northern Africa...

Now, I'm in Dubai, in one of the most luxurious hotel in the world... So they said... But I have to agree... We've basically got a apartment just for ourselves (without kitchen of course, but we can order... Hohoho...) With 24 hours butler waiting outside and personalized reception desk and Hermes grooming kit (lotions, perfume), our own jacuzzi, business area (with laptop, fax-printer-scanner, HP laptop, iPod deck, working space, free internet - wifi in the whole building) and yeah.. Those doorbell with cameras and speaker so you can look at your guest on the TV (Oh yeah, did I mention that you can open the door with the TV remote controls and basically any phone you got that's closest to you... so you don't have to personally come to the door yourself).

(Oooo.. And the butlers came with new water bottles and fruits and food and changed the ice cubes, and offering us sparkling juice? did he say sparkling juice? humm.. I wonder if we have to pay for this? Didn't ask. Hahahaha.. Should ask later...)

They've got underwater restaurant with all the fishes and restaurant above with the view overlooking the whole Dubai city and the sea... They've got indoor swimming pool and spas and saloon, and even ones that's private for women only. They got shops nearby that we can just go to with a Caddy (those golf-carts), they've got some sort of water boom that I won't get to play with (leaving tomorow morning so I'm planning to go to the indoor women swimming pool.. Now actually...)

Whatelse? The interiors sure are very luxurious...

(Ooo.. The snacks are delicious! Oh yeah, they've got 40% Indians here. So, they've got lots of, everything I guess?, great Indian food... I just had one myself. And I have to say, that was the best Indian food so far (you know I don't really prefer Indian food.. But to say that I enjoyed that one, then it must be something, no? Hehe..))

So, okay... Stop boasting... Oh, I heard before the recessions the rooms here are always full. They booked it for a month at least.. No wonder. For those too-rich-people, this is really comfy... I guess.. At least it's kinda too much for me. Haha.. (Beda kelas nih... Ketauan deh. Hahaha..)

Muahaha... Huahaha... oink.. oink... Thunder Piggy.. Strikes Again...

(Note: The last previous line was made by my brother while I was away, enjoying the swimming pool facility..)

Anyway, so it was great! (Oh on this whole trip, I swam twice! Woohooo.. It's been a reaallll long time... At least on my three years in Oz, I don't think I've ever swim? Lol.) What else can I say? This place is wayyyy beyong my reach... At least for now... Haha. I guess I'm really lucky that the economy actually is in recession (the price is wayyy cheaper now compared to before) so I can actually try staying a night in a 7 star hotel...) Might be a once in a lifetime experience...

(Jadi begini toh rasanya jadi orang kaya... Ckckckckck... I really could get used to this...) I took lots of pics and record lots of vids... Though illegally sometimes. Haha. (Too expensive not to try recording..) Anw, yeah... Sepertinya gw lumayan norak.. Huahahahha.... (Keliatan bgt nih org kampung nyasar.. Lol.) Even the butlers and the employees are way cooler (clothing and behaviour) compared to us (esp. me I guess? Lol...)

Anw, 1.21am.. Got to wake up in less than 4 hours =( Boooo....
Well, I guess a night is enough.. Too long's no good.. Hahaha... Nyasar ke dunia yg berbeda sehari gpp lah ya... Kalo kelamaan, tar bisa stuck di alam mimpi, mending jangan. Hahahaha...

Well, the rest of the trip will be updated later...


~ Signing off from another world

It's here! It's here! Well, not quite here, here... But it's coming!! Soon!! Like soon, soon!!! ~~Wooohoooo...

Can't wait to get my hands on it.. So excited. Hahaha...

So.. October... Come here soon! Yay! v(^0^)v

>(^-^)v Let's do some happy dancing ^^

<(^-^<)(>^-^)> <(^-^<)Yippey yipeey yayy..
(>^-^)> <(^-^<)(>^-^)> Yippey yippey Horray...

(>^0^<) Aahh.. Feeling so content...

Taking a reaallllyy deep breath....



~~~Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!



Taking another deep breath....

(Note: Random outburst because suddenly a shinning light seems to shine so brightly ahead but as time passes, the shine seems to diminish little by little...)

It's almost dark again now... But still crossing-fingers... Hoping... Praying...
(At least I'm feeling a bit better now. Huhuhu...)

So here I am, in the midst of all confusions, laid-back-ness, full-support, lazyness, totally in my comfort zone with nothing to worry about (well, almost nothing).

I think even in this place I dreaded and feared so long ago, I found myself to be 'living'. Yes, maybe (just maybe) I was more positive (always surrounded by positive thinking people, thank God) but being surrounded in a negative environment (really hard at first, really heart-breaking, not to mention mental-state and mind breaking. Lol.) I learnt little by little, to grasp what "little" hope and positiveness I had left. I noticed I start to think more in a positive way lately. Always trying to see things in a different light. Even if someone said something that take hopes away (nooo.. don't left me!!!). Sometimes it does get really tiring and so tempting to just go "whatever..." but I refused to do so! *clinging to that lil-bit ray of hope* So I guess hard-headedness is good in that way? Lol.

I think my response to those around me is still not good. But starting with my own mind, it's a start isn't it?

Hoping my progress won't stop here... Fingers-crossed.

Another work from Ghibli's studio Hayao Miyazaki.

I read the back cover of the DVD before watching it and assumed it may be somekind of Mermaid thingy, Hayao's version. I watched it. Surprisingly, it is! It is a mermaid story, Hayao Miyazaki's version. Lol. And the theme of the movie is still Hayao's "normal" theme: magical, sweet, full-of-hope, with you can achieve anything, even those beyond your wildest dreams. =)

And apparently, from Wiki, his inspiration was really "The Little Mermaid" from Christian Hans Anderson. Lol. And he did most of the waves thingy himself, manually (hand-drawn). And he received quite a lot of awards for the movie.

So, I think, I'd agree with those who said "Not Miyazaki's best film" but still enjoyable to watch. The scenary is back to old times. Comparing to Spirited Away with all the great details and 3D buildings - really... Too beautiful for animation, Ponyo's more like old animation - with round edges on buildings and cliffs and roads that moved up and down, and of course, exaggeration of the waves. (Hayao never failed to exaggerate on things does he? Either it's a tear drop, fire, or waves).

The ending of the story's really abrupt and it's like "What? Is that it? Really?" I think through out the movie I'm more like, "hum... ok... humm.. then? humm... what's that? humm.. who's that sposed to be? oooo.. that's cute! huh? is that all?" And at the end there's nothing much to talk about (well, I was speechless for sure. Haha...)

So... Should I go for a second watch on the movie??? Humm... Certainly would like to watch it again... Someday... Hahaha... Maybe I'd appreciate it more then?

Ooo.. The soundtrack's certainly catchy - stuck in my head for a while after watching it. Lol.

Wooohhhhooooooo.... I just did my last test for the current mandarin lessons. It's all done, finished, 完成的 (wan cheng de), 完成した (kansei shita), selesai, voir finish, c'est fini, finitto, 완성된 (whatever this is. lol), ausgespielt, מחוסל , bitmiş, etc etc.. (You got the idea... Lol..)

Hahhh... Lega... (Well, still have to practice regularly or else I'd forget everything I've learnt so far -_-" (They even have an idiom for this in Chinese. I forgot what though. Something along the line of Hanzi zhen bu qing (Meaning: Chinese characters doesn't know how to repay kindness - tidak tahu budi) or something like that. They seem to have idioms for every single thing -_-. It'd be nice to know (quite cool actually) but... Begitulah...

Next???

HSK Level 6! Amin... (I don't know how hard it's gonna be but I bet it's gonna be quite hard, especially with one month or so to go and I still have not gotten any textbook materials to study for it -_-. Zhen caogao! (Sangat gawat! - Inggrisnya apa ya? Hummm..) - I just know that I can't get HSK lvl 6 cause I'm still in the basic level... Apparently level 6 is intermediate... Sigh... Ah well...

S2 @ China??? -_- Well, kalo bisa masuk BeiDa sih bagus, gw mau2 aja. Kalo ga? Huhuhu... S2 mending di tmpt lain kali?? =/


~ Walking towards the future one step at a time ~

Lately there's this one old song from good old school days that came back... I just realized how fun (and easy!) it is to play the guitar. No wonder they always played this song at schoool that time. Hahahaha! (The meaning's funny too. Lol...)

I wanna download this... Do you know how?
http://images.tombeo.multiply.com/movie/8/39.swf/kan_guo_lai.swf?enctoken=U2FsdGVkX19epwolo1CitKmlUeRs.tk5A.jrs1VINIw=

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Dui Mian De Nu Hai Kan Guo Lai (Girl at the opposite, look over here)
Kan Guo Lai, Kan Guo Lai (Look over here, look over here)
Zhi Li De Biao Yian Hen Jing Cai (The performance over here is very wonderful)
Qing Bu Yao Jia Zhuang Bu Li Bu Cai (Please don't pretend, don't ignore)

Dui Mian De Nu Hai Kan Guo Lai (Girl at the opposite, look over here)
Kan Guo Lai, Kan Guo Lai (Look over here, look over here)
Bu Yao Bei Wo De Yang Zi Xia Huai (Please don't be frightened by my appearance)
Qi Shi Wo Hen Ke Ai (Really, I'm very cute!)

Ji Mo Nan Hai De Bei Ai (The sorrow of a lonely boy)
Shuo Chu Lai, Shei Ming Bai (Say it aloud, who'll understand?)
Qiu Qiu Ni Pao Ge Mei Yan Guo Lai (Please send over a charming glance)
Hong Hong Wo Dou Wo Le Kai Huai (Humor me, flirt until my heart is ecstatic)

(He..He..he, Mei Li Wo, heh!) (Hehehe, won't respond to me, hey!)

Chorus:

C G Em Am
Wo Zuo Kan You Kan, Shang Kan Xia Kan (I look left, look right, look up, look down)
F G
Yuan Lai Mei Ge Nu Hai Dou Bu Jian Dan (Actually every girl is very complex)
C G Em Am
Wo Xiang Le You Xiang, Wo Cai Le You Cai (I think and think, I guess and guess)
F G
Nu Hai Men De Xin Shi Hai Zhen Qi Guai (Girls' hearts are very strange!)

Ji Mo Nan Hai De Cang Ying Pai (Lonely boy's flyswatter)
Zuo Pai Pai, You Pai Pai (Swat swat left, swat swat right)
Wei Shen Me Hai Shi Mei Ren Lai Ai (Why no one has come to love me?)
Wu Ren Wen Jin Ah, Zhen Wu Nai (No one shows interest, how boring!)

Dui Mian De Nu Hai Kan Guo Lai (The girl at the opposite look over here)
Kan Guo Lai, Kan Guo Lai (Look over here, look over here)
Ji Mo Nan Hai Qing Dou Chu Kai (Lonely boy's heart is opening)
Xu Yao Ni Gei Wo Yi Dian Ai Hi Hi (Need you to give me a little love)

Wo Zuo Kan You Kan, Shang Kan Xia Kan (I look left, look right, look up, look down)
Yuan Lai Mei Ge Nu Hai Dou Bu Jian Dan (Actually every girl is very complex)
Wo Xiang Le You Xiang, Wo Cai Le You Cai (I think and think, I guess and guess)
Nu Hai Men De Xin Shi Hai Zhen Qi Guai (Girls' hearts are very strange!)

Hai Zhen Qi Quai Lai lai lai ... (Hai! Really strange! Come, come, come...)

Fade Out

(Ah.. Suan Le, Hui Jia Ba) (*Sigh* Forget it, let's go home...)

Somehow today, with all of its own excitement and worries and whatever, I ended up feeling happy and content at the end of the day. There is no particular reason to why I'm feeling happy and content, it's just that I am happy and content. Hahaha.

I think the atmosphere of where you are helps though. Somewhere that makes you feel secure and content and can freely be who you are trully maybe? All of your crazyness, lazyness, whatever badness and goodness you have, the place where you can pull all of them out at once. As for me, that's my room! Hohoho.. Cozy and comfortable. I guess it's my comfortable zone (though too much inside it isn't good too).

My room's like my hiding place, a place where I can come back to and release whatever worries and stresses I have outside of it. A home isn't My home if it doesn't have My room. A place to be able to calm yourself, be alone and just look back and take your own time to analyze things or just forget your worries for the moment. Lol.

I guess everyone has different things that represent that 'comfy place'. Some might refer it as their spouses, some other maybe their 'workshop/garage' or maybe their reading room or in their activities or in other people's acknowledgements.

What's yours?

I may not be a perfect person.
I may not be the best there is.
I may not even wholly like what I see (in me).
But I realized...
I am the only one.

Even if I am not perfect,
Even if I am not as good as you want me to be,
Even if I am still lacking in most areas (if not all)
But still...
If I am not me, then there is no point of my being.
There is no point of my existence.

I am here,
I exists,
Because I am me.

Maybe I won't satisfy you by being me.
Maybe I would be a disappointment by being me.
(There's still a long way to go afterall)
But I am here because I am me.
I am with you, because I am me.
I am remembered as me.

So let me be...
Let me be me.
The me who I am.
The me who I treasured.
The me who I cherished.

Maybe the me in the next few years won't be the same as the me I am now.
But for the time being, let me just be me like the me now.
And let me slowly enjoy the changes that is, that will, soon occur.
Let me learn things and grow through my own set of pace...

Let me be myself as I am..

Let's treasure each stages and moments in our life =)

Dalam semangat kemerdekaan... "HUT RI Dirgahayu ke 64"



Gw baru tau Indonesia Raya itu ada bait 2nya.. Hahahaha....

Yesterday I have this sudden urge of listening to Chris Tomlin's songs. And so I went to youtube and found his song "I Will Rise" and also found out that he just released a new album on September last year (meaning it's like almost a year ago?) lol... Yeah, but I only found out recently (I used to search for it but couldn't find his latest album... So...)

Yappari, I still love his songs ^^

I've listened to the whole thing (kinda) and I love it ^^

Kinda typical of his songs I guess but some songs are kinda different. One of which is the one titled "Love" cause it's a collaboration with Watoto Children choir.. ^^ So it's really beautiful... Khekhekhekhe....

The story behind it was funny too. Cause when he first created it, he showed it to this guy and he said he likes it but he wanted to try something different and so they tampered with the songs and add some 'African' style into it. And he was saying, "how cool it is to have the Watoto children choir" cause you know, of course he'd met them at Hillsong conference. Khekhekhe.... Then like somehow someone mentioned that the Watoto choir's actually there for some national competition or something? And they're free on Thursday for their schedule, and you know what? They were recording this song "Love" on Thursday too... So finally they called and the Watoto children agreed to record together (and Chris still didn't believe it until their bus is actually parked across the streets and the children crossed it and entered the studio...) Huehehehe... Praise the Lord... ^^ Very interesting... Of course nothing's a coincident right? Hehehehe..

Ahhh..... It's been a while...

Anyway, he got some really good worship songs too... I think Exalted (Yahweh) is a nice song for personal worship time? But of course the song's too short. Hehehehe... Ah well...

Gonna enjoy his songs for the rest of the day... Yay...

There's a peace I've come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There's an anchor for my soul
I can say, "It is well"

Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise
When He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

There's a day that's drawing near
When this darkness breaks to light
And the shadows disappear
And my faith shall be my eyes

Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise
When He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

And I hear the voice of many angels sing
Worthy is the Lamb
And I hear the cry of every longing heart
Worthy is the Lamb
(You are worthy)

"But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint." ~ Isaiah 40:31

It was pass 09.00am, the alarm had went off once (and a snooze or two... three? can't remember..) when suddenly a knock came. Didn't bother to open the door, just continued lying on the bed, enjoying the cold, cold temperature, I looked at my phone again and check the time.

What? It's still early....

Hustles bustles, people talking outside the room. Heard mom's voice though didn't know what she was talking about... A few minutes before 09.30am... Another knock came...

"Whatt???????" Lazily shoutted to ask why they're so noisy out there. No answer. Just another knock on the door.
"Kenapaaa????" Heard the voice of my two brothers outside the room.
"Bomb."
"What bomb????" Then one of them knock harder on the door...

So I forced myself to wake up and opened the door, where I was suddenly yanked to walk to our parent's room...

There it was, on TV.... A place so familiar to eyes being shown on TV...
Ooooo.. There was another bomb! So glad I mostly refused to go there, though it ended me up in Senayan/Sudirman most of the time.

"Tuh Da... Bomb Da, bomb... Satu keluarga bangun, masa lo kaga bangun???"
"What? It's another one at J.W. Marriot?" Eyes widen...
"Yep."
"Iseng banget seh orang2..."

Then my brother went back to his computer to check the stock price, which not surprisingly all goes redddddddd.... Whooohooooooo.....

And we continued our daily life. I've got a mandarin lesson waiting downstairs...

Well, well... There goes my few minutes of sleeping time.. It succeeded to woke me up completely though...

Sigh...

What a stupidity... What's the point of setting another bomb? So useless... They're not builing our country to a better place but just ruining it.

Sigh... What would this beloved country become? Isn't hundreds of disappointment and stupidity enough already? How long are they gonna keep this up? -__-

As time passes, parents worry bout our so-called 'soul-mate' even more. Sometimes they just speak out 'ridiculous' ideas to get us 'moving'.

Well, that's not really the point I wanted to bring up here. Lol...

Anw, as I got involved with more activities with other people (which somehow involved too many boys with too little girls -__-), I'm exposed more to the dillemmas and problems related to those kind of activities...

Well, more specifically is - cash problem and transport problem...

Of course this is an on-going issue that each of us surely has commonly dealt with in the past. (Heck, I've always called people up and asked them - cassually and a bit 'non-characteristically' or what we know as 'dengan ga sopannya' Lol... - to pick me up... And of course bring me back home (we agree it's a set no? Lol...)

And in the western communities, it is a common occurence for all of us to just hop on to the bus and go together (yeah, of course.. it's usually our main transportation gt loh. Lol...) and just pay by ourselves...

But what about in asian communities? Is it so wrong for woman to drive alone? (well, yes it was past mid-nite... But...) So do we have to made those who live just the exact opposite direction from our house to pick us up and bring us back??? (The travelling time going to the destination place to home is the same for him and for us... Meaning doubling his travelling distance... Plus the destination's not just 15 min drive... It's moorrreeee... Esp in the crowd of the traffic jam in big cities like Jkt. Lol... Yesss.. Manthap!)

And what about the issue of "Of course the man has to pay for the girl! He's the man afterall..."

Sigh... What's wrong with paying by ourselves?

Sure I appreciate the gesture of man paying for woman, but not all the time, no?

So confusing...

So if there's no one to pick us up (paying is another matter... I believe we could just safely assume right now it's not as big an issue), can't we go?

Should we just be a good girl and stay at home???

So confusing!!! >_<

....

"Deg-deg..."

...

"Deg-deg..."

...

"Deg-deg..."

Blub-blub-blub...

-- Tenggelammm... Makin lama makin dalammm.... --

Haruskah aku berbahagia? (^-^)v
Menggila? (^_^>)> <(^_^)> <(<^_^) v(^0~)v
Atau khawatir? (-__-")

(Sometimes I just wonder, whether he's just pushing it biar jadi berirama or is it really a symbolic thingy? Well, either way, this is one his catchies song..)

So go ahead and ask her
For happy ever after
'Cause nobody knows what's coming
So why not take a chance on loving
Come on, pour the glass and tempt me
Either half-full or half-empty
'cause if it all comes down to flavor
The glass is tipping in my favor

Life gave me lemonade and I can't imagine why
Born on a sunny day, beneath a tangerine sky
I live life without pretending
I'm a sucker for happy endings
Thanks for the lemonade
Thanks for the lemonade!

Now take your time to answer me
For the beauty of romancing
Is to calm you trembling hand with mine
While begging love to fill your eyes
I can hardly breathe while waiting
To find out
What your heart is saying
And as we're swirling in this flavor
The world is tilting in our favor

CHORUS

I've got it made
Rest in the shade
And hold my love
While God above
Stirs with a spoon
We share the moon
Smile at the bees
More sugar please
He really loves us after all
We're gonna need another straw!
We're gonna need another straw!

CHORUS

(Just in case you're curious of how the song goes)

The first thought through my sleepy head
When I fell out of my bed
Is "I hope the sky is gray,
I'm gonna write a sad song today."
So I make up my mind, slip on my shoes
I'm gonna pick up a paper and read the news
'Cause I'm sure to find plenty 'nuff blues
To write my sad song
But the only blues to hit my eyes
Are those beautiful blues in the clear blue sky!

So much for my sad song
So much for my sorry attitude
Let's make this a love song instead
'Cause I'm so in love with you
C'mon let's go out and play
Save the sad song for another day
No time for tears, I'm wearin' a smile
So much for my sad song

So I pick up the news like I said I would
Drop my jaw right where I stood
'Cause the headline reads: "All The News Is Good,
Because Love Is On The Way!"
And love floods the world right before my eyes
Everybody is dancin' and slappin' high fives
And such beautiful music fills the skies
And we all sing along
And now I snap out of my daydream
And I can't believe how real it seems
But I keep on dancin' anyway
'Cause it's turning out to be a marvelous day!

CHORUS

Sometimes I measure my day
By how many things go my way
And when things go wrong I usually get mad
But this time I'm glad that my song didn't turn out sad

Well, well, well... It's 2pm or so and we're waiting for our movie at 10 min before 5pm. What should we do???

While we're walking through the mall, our eyes fell into the store "Pondok Pujian". Hummm.. I don't feel like buying anything, I'm not looking for anything and I'm hungry. Should we just go for our late lunch? Or should we go in? Humm.. I don't know what to eat.. Ah well... Let's just browse for a bit. Maybe we'll be out in 10-15 min then we can fuss about where to eat.

We went in. Looking around. Humm.. Hillsongs got lots of albums. Franky Sihombing. Chris Rice? Interesting. A few days ago there's somekind of a "Rice Song" in that quiz I made in FB. Is that this Rice? No, I don't think so.... Oh well.. Let's look around first...

And so we ended up staying a while and listening to songs. Some of them are MercyMe, Paul Baloche, Lincoln Brewster and Mark Harris's album. Everythings turns out sounds really great and I'm really interested in buying them all!!! (Thank God it's Indo and it's in Rp and it's cheaper! Lol. So tempted to just download them though. Lol). Anyway, after deciding which one to buy (though decisions) and were just on our way to pay, our eyes fell into that Chris Rice's CD again. "What A Heart Is Beating For". Hummm.... Somehow it's like calling me like, "pick me up, pick me up"... And the album title's catchy too... So curiosity wins... Opening up the CD cover and reading the lyrics of the first song "So Much For My Sad Song". Wow, isn't this supposed to be a 'religious' song??? What's up with that title?

Curiosity increases...

"The first thought through my sleepy head. When I fell out of my bed. Is "I hope the sky is gray. I'm gonna write a sad song today.""

Errrr... Interesting... Kinda sounds like me.... Though not in a writing song kind of way...

"So I make up my mind, slip on my shoes. I'm gonna pick up a paper and read the news. Cause I'm sure to find plenty 'nuff blues. To write my sad songs. But when I open the door and the sun spills through. Takes away my breath and I think of you. And the only blues to hit my eyes. Are those beautiful blues in the clear blue sky!"

Damnit!! I knew it!! I shouldn't check the CD out... I don't have enough cash with me!!! This is a bad sign, badddd sign... I'm really interested in this thing. No good for the health of my wallet... Well... What to dooo?? Should I check out the songs?? Looking at the CD box, the CD's gone. Heh? Gone? Where is it? Ahh.. She's played it already....

I looked at her, she looked at me... Smiling, she just silently put the big headphone in my head. "You're gonna love this" Uh oh.... And I listened to it.

Damnit!!! I'm gonna have to buy this thing. Oh no! After all those time I spent listening to the whole album of the other CDs, am I gonna buy this CD just because of the lyrics of the first song and a min listening to it??? No wayy!!!

I'm buying this CD no matter what. I just have to have it...!!!

Abd so I bought it. And loving it....

Chris Rice's What's a heart beating for...

His songs are catchy. Kinda reminding me of Mraz's style though not as catchy (the songs). And the lyrics are mostly kinda symbolic and really interesting. Ahhh... It's been awhile... Since the last time I fell in love... With a song... Hahaha..


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Oooo.. I just heard the whole album while reading the lyrics. Wow.. I love them all! Not even one I think is weird or you know, I don't really like. That's something isn't it? Plus some of the songs kinda jazzy... Lalalala... But sometimes the lyrics confused me of the meaning. The guy's too symbolic... But they're still nice songs ^^ Banzaaiii...

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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*inhales*

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*exhales*

Ahh... Legaan rasanya. Lol.

Maap, sedang melepas stres dan kekesalan yang ada... Nyahahahahaha...

Gara2 blognya Vie, jadi pingin dengerin lagunya MJ, gara2 dengerin lagunya MJ jadi pingin write something bout him. Lol.


I listened to his 'You're not alone' song... So nice... Dipikir2, suaranya dia tuh keren jg loh. I mean, he can sing such calming songs - suaranya kan bnr2 bikin kaya terbuai gitu. But image dia di mind gw tuh always a person who's so flashy - with all the bling2 clothes and his moonwalk, and his sunglasses, and his hat and tongkat.... Hahaha... Padahal ga semua lagunya begitu ya??

Then I listened to his 'Black or White' song. It's kinda ironic don't you think? He sang about it doesn't matter if it's black or white, yet he himself desperately trying so hard to be a 'white'. Which I think he's really succesful in doing that (I didn't know he was black until I was in high school or something... And saw his old picture). I thought he's just some really famous guy (almost, or already is? a legend) with a realllyy, out-of-the-worldly white skin and quite long, wavy black hair... So ironic...

I never really know his life/follow the news around him or anything. But listening to his songs, it's really nice and calming (kalo lagunya yg kalem2 ya... Hahahaha...) So he can sing such a serene song and he can be really cool if he want to and he's still a guy who cares bout the environment and the world (kalo dari lagunya seh)... Cool...

Rest in peace MJ...




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Ahhh.. Jadi pingin dengerin lagu2 lama dehhh.. MJ's, Phil Collins, Celine Dion (yesterday I saw her concerts - in a big screen - when I was waiting for Transformer. Cool.. She looks quite old now. Hahaha.. Still nice though =) And supposedly she sang with Frank Sinatra. I was 'wow-ed' when she mentioned him. I thought he's gonna be there in person and sang with her. Apparently it's only his voice. Lol. And pictures of him.... Yaaa.. Sayang sekaliii...)

Remember that old song that we used to listena and sung together??? (Well, not much... But...)

So it happens my random iTunes played the song again

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Saat kujumpa dirinya di satu suasana
Terasa getaran dalam dada
Lalu aku mendekatinya, kutatap dirinya
Oh dia sungguh mempesona

*Ingin aku menyapanya, menyapa dirinya
Bercanda tawa dengan dirinya
Namun apa yang kurasa, aku tak kuasa
Aku tak tahu harus berkata apa

**Inikah namanya cinta? Inikah cinta?
Cinta pada jumpa pertama
Inikah rasanya cinta? Inikah cinta?
Terasa bahagia saat jumpa dengan dirinya

Kujumpa dia berikutnya
Suasana yang berbeda
Getaran itu masih ada
Aku dekati dirinya, kutatap wajahnya
Oh, dia tetap mempesona

Back to *, **

Diriku terasa, di kala diri ini pingin jumpa
Ingin selalu bersama (dalam segala suasana)

Back to ** till end

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Then I remembered my entry bout Love at First Sight...

So is that what love is? To feel 'getaran dalam dada', 'terasa bahagia saat jumpa' and 'ingin selalu bersama dalam segala suasana'?

Lol...

I guess that's not exactly it, no? It's an attraction, a 'passion' maybe? But not love?

Haha.. Just a thought... ^_~

I just realized, I have a very kind bro...

And people I met usually is very kind to me too. Hahahaha... I'm so blessed ^^

Like there are times when I think my parents got angry with my brother but actually the mistakes mine, or I'm part of what triggers what happened next. So actually I'm supposed to be the one who got 'scolded'. But he never blamed me. Not for the big, real stuffs anyway. He just receives all those pressures from my parents (and we're talking about my parents here... They're really good at putting pressures.. Yeah.. v) and didn't blame me... (Laporan seh iya... Tapi kaga nyalahin.. Haha...)

Salut...

Is that the power of oldest siblings? They can withstand more pressure, endure more 'hardships' than the younger ones? At least that's what I feel. Hahaha...

Now I see him in a kinda 'new' light.

Well, I know he's reliable and all, and I can trust him. But you know, I always felt bad whenever something bad happened to him and it's because of me. But I think I don't have to feel THAT bad... I mean... You know, it's not like he can't deal with it or anything. He's strong enough that I can rely on him. Or something like that. And that those pressures from our parents... Well, they still love him no matter what (even though I think sometimes they're being unfair... But apparently it's their way to show that they still care.. Wow... A hard one... To receive so much care...) Well, I'm not saying that it's right to let him being the only one got all the pressures but, you know... Well, I guess my point is that now I realized he's stronger than what I thought.

Oh and I found out... (Mom said it herself) She doesn't really care for me like she did with my older siblings. You know, she used to call my brother (or at least second one) and talked to him quite a lot in the phone.... (Almost everyday maybe, and quite a while too - though sometimes just a quick call to see what he was doing). Anw, she never really talked to me so long in the phone and to talked bout lots of stuffs like she did with my bro. Well, sometimes, but not as frequent - I think. With me, she kinda let me loose... Lol....

I don't know.. I love it... Though sometimes I envy my brother... But I love that freedom. Hahaha... Maybe I'm being too 'free'? Lol.

Oh yeah, she said I'm not close to her... Apparently my brothers kinda 'report' to her and I never tell her anything. She said...

Well, she didn't ask... Lol...

I thought we're just fine the way we are. But apparently I'm not that close hey?

Thinking back, maybe it's because everytime I tried to tell her stuffs, she never really listen to me, or she responded in a way that doesn't really accomodate my needs, or it back fired to me. So, I got tired trying to tell her and since she never really asked, that's fine by me too.... And I learnt to keep stuffs for myself. Or just to talk it out with some friends instead... Or maybe my brother.

But I thought I talked to her more lately???

I guess not....

Lol...

Ahhh.. Anyway... The point is... Lately I realized that although my family's kinda strange and weird and harsh, they're really kind people.. Lol. (What kinda of realization is this? Lol...)

Oh yeah, dad... One day I was driving with my dad. And he commented bout my friend and I didn't like it. So I told him "hush... stop. Jgn ngmg sembarangan!" with kinda a loud voice. Then I shut myself (afterall, it's not polite to shout to your parents no?) And then after a while, he said something along the line of "papa orangnya emang kasar, dari dulu ngomongnya kasar. Soalnya udah biasa. Mau rubah juga susah. Tapi sebenernya bae" (hahaha.. gw jd senyum2 dengernya.. nih org muji diri sendiri.. Lol!). And I said "iya tau". And he continued, "jadi kalo papa ngomongnya sembarangan kadang papa ga sadar. Soalnya udah biasa". And I said, "ya pelan2 lah. Memang susah." then he said, "iya, jadi ya kalo emang ngomongnya sembarangan harus dikasih tau. Jadi papa bisa inget dan berenti ngomong"

!!!!!

That's improvement!!!! Lol... I still remembered one scene where he trully mencela this one employee.... The choice of words that he used were trully top notch... Even I was really feeling apologetic towards the girl. And I had to tell him to stop and he'd still defend himself and doesn't really get it until I explained to him (then he'd just being silent). Well, then afterwards he kinda changed his way of talking and tone... So...

Now, he's saying it himself without me having to elaborate and explain "long and wide". Lol...

So, yeah... I guess I kinda got to know my family better.... Hahaha... Lalalala...
(I don't know whether all the revelation's good or bad... Like the one I finally understood why I was so 'free' it was because - quoting my mom here - she doesn't care for me as much... Lalalalala...) Well, I think her bestest child would be my 2nd bro... She's closest to him afterall... And rely on him a lot. Even my dad too. My only best point in being their child is because I'm a girl. Lol. Who's quite flexible and just alright with whatever they say (I'm a good girl, no? Lol...) -- Kinda changing lately though.... So I guess my best point is only because I'm a girl.. (Yay.. Thank God for making me a girl. Lol.)

Oh well... I love my family nevertheless. Even though they're weird. And unique... Antik... Hahahaha... Lalalalala.... (Jarang2 gw bisa ngmg gini. Liat bsk kalo dah ketemu nyokap/bokap n dengerin celotehannya mrk... Dijadiin maenan koko gw. Plus dijadiin 'asisten serba guna' and 'supir'. Puas deh gw. Hahahaha...)

Okay... So I'm not a Phelgmatic - Sanguine person anymore. Lol.
The last time I do the test (which is a few days ago... Last week? Hehe.) I got the results of Phlegmatic - Melancholic....

Omg... Makin parah ajeee... I'm a true introvert now. Wakakakakaka... (See, I'm a very calm and not so outspoken person. Aku kan alim dan diamm.. ^^ Huahahaha...)

Anw, turns out most of my bad habbits come from the Phlegmatic side of me. And I've got some positive sides of cholerics... And a mix of both from Melan. Interesting. Lol.

But still, those are too vague to describe me... No? Lol... I'm more complicated than a Phleg-Melan person. Lol.... XD

I guess there's something good in being Phleg-Melan (though sometimes I don't really fancy being one)... So, let's see what the future holds for this 'new' me...

(Wondering what makes me really change to that side? Is it really because of being back in Indo? That's pretty scary no? To be able to change 'me' so much... Aih2...)

Okay, I just found the whole randomness in a whole new level.

It's one thing when you were talking bout relationships with someone who just randomly pops the ''big'' question of ''will u marry me?''/''pls be my gf.'' At least you guys were talking in that area rite?

But it's a whole different thing when you go online, find an offline message from some quite random, half unknown person saying things like ''I love you'', ''Do you have a bf yet?'' and ''Will you marry me??'' all in one go (and note that it's an offline msg. Or at least when read, the guy was off already).

When something like that does happen, doesn't it just give the creeps out of you? (Is that even a correct term?'' lol.

I can't... It doesn't make any sense for me. No sense at all. Crazy... Crazy... The world's going crazier each day. I wonder what's happening to the world???

Yesterday (was it yesterday? No, it was the day before. Hahaha..) I saw a book in Gramedia by chance. It's supposed to be an old Japan's literature that's really famous by Natsume Soseki.

It's about a naughty Botchan who was not loved in his own family except by his undertaker? caregiver? old maid? and finally when his parents died, his older brother sold their house and they went on their separate way. So far I've read like 3/4 of it and maybe there's not much of the plot (mostly it's only telling the everyday life of him as a young, new teacher in a rural area with his "edo-pride" and integrity and closely held self-value and belief and honesty, etc, etc)

But it is interesting... Because as the novel is written in the first-pov, we read it knowing what he's thinking about (almost feels like a diary and sometimes I wonder if it's kinda the writter's own experiences put in writtings?) and we can see that although his values and believes are right (with honesty and integrity at the top of the list) but his way of doing things is in a way too extreme.

This novel reminds me that sometimes, even though the values held is good, but sometimes the way we do things aren't as good. We made some mistakes through the way we see things. And not all people view things the same way. So we still need to consider the situations and the people around us. To think outside the box.

Well, I believe we know this through our own experience but the way the author put it in the book is also interesting to read. (Though if you're looking for those full of adventures/romance/ups and downs, this book is not really for you) ^^

Gw menobatkan Star Trek as my movie of this month. ^^

Even though at the beginning I wasn't that interested in watching it, but I ended up watching it anyway. Lol. And when the movie starts, the first comment I made was "Hah? Masa awal2 dah mati? Film apaan neh???" Lol... (And I was starting to like the guy too. So was kinda, what the??? Why's he dead so early???)

But as the movie progress, I must say I like the movie, with its lil funny acts along the plot. (Kinda a bummer that I sat besides a person who've watched it already so her reactions' not that... shown...? -- I realized I like to see how people react to a certain scenes in the movie, whether they enjoy it or not. Lol.) And when the movie's done, I just can't stop smilling (felt like an idiot... Lol. But anw...)

My bro haven't watched it, and I ended up getting stuck with him for the whole day and so I accompanied him - and his girlfriend, and a bunch of his friends and their girlfriends - to watch it at EX's Premier (which means sleeping position and a blanket and food... Lol. Well, we didn't get any food coz we ate just before. So..)

And except for the non-stop calls at the beginning from mom and dad and the other bro - which I rejected and ended up they calling my bro... Hahahahaha... -, it's superb. Khekhekhe... And my bro laughed too (somehow happy to see him laughing. lol...) And I got to catch the parts where I'd miss the first time I watched it. So now I know what's happening better. Lol. It's still fun to watch ^^

Even though I don't exactly know what's happening in all other Star Trek movies (doesn't know the story, doesn't bother to try to remember what it's all about, and only remember glimpses of scenes of previous movies and still don't know what it's all about - basically no clue whatsoever what Star Trek series is all about except that it's just bout life in the outer space... Lol...) but I can still enjoy this one. And it made me smile at the end of the movie. So I like it. Lol. ^^ Highly recommendable - especially if you watch it with the 'right' people. Huehehehehe....

Okay... So I finally remembered and take some time to do some research. Lol. (Should have done this since like, months ago? Lol...) And I've got some lists of universities there that has quite good reputations (well, at least 5 at the top is quite well known and some actually made it to the top whatever hundreds of world unis).

1. Beijing Da Xue (Beijing)
2. Tsing Hua Da Xue (Beijing)
3. Shang Hai Jiao Tong Da Xue (Shanghai)
4. Fudan Da Xue (Shanghai)
5. Zhe Jiang Da Xie (Hangzhou)
6. 中国科学技术大学 University of Science and Technology of China (Anhui)
7. Nan Jing Da Xue (Nanjing)
8. Bei Jing Shi Fan Da Xue (BNU - Beijing)

Still unsure where to go... Hux... So far I've just read Beida's web and it's really... Enticing??? Interesting??? I don't know... Made me wanna go there. Lol. But I seem to have problem trying to get to the page for the language short term courses. Hux... They didn't abolish the class right??? =(

Confusing... Hux... And quite scary actually... If you think about it. Coz it'd be a whole diff world. With lesser Indo's (I'm aiming for uni with small number of Indo students... Lol... Afterall, I need way more practice... Hux.. But, but, but... ...) and unknown language (still learning, too many unknown vocab, plus confusing grammar and word usage) and NO ONE!!! I know... None, nadda, zip, nil... At least when I went to UNSW, I still know one person, er... two... eh? three?? Was it more?? Excluding those in the same city but diff uni... Lol... So yeah... Challenging...

On the other hand, it's quite... Exciting??? It's like going for an adventure... Lol... (But of course it's not really as 'fun' prolly? Afterall, I may have to 'cook my brain' trying to memorize those.... Symbols... Characters... Thousands of them.... Aih2... Giving me headache just trying to imagining it...)

Right now, I'm just trying to learn and memorize as much as I can, going by the flow - refusing further thoughts of how many more words i still need to know and memorize and understand... (though I seem to keep on forgetting stuffs T_T). I wish, hope, pray, that everything will go smoothly... Moga2 brain gw doesn't fail me. Lol. I need you brain now, more than ever! (Kalo dipikir2, I must be crazy. I hate memorizing and I'm gonna do stuffs that only memorize stuffs... Omg... That's true!!! I'm going insane!!!!)

Udah ah... I need sleep. I think sleep deprive's making me 'go bananas'. Lol...

I just found out. My name... The last character is qian 倩 (meaning: pretty, handsome)，has the element of qing 青 (meaning: blue or green, black, green grass/young crops, young)。

I wonder if that has something to do with my liking of blue color or me looking really, really young??? (Some people thought I'm either a 14 years old or a high school student... Camen...)

Lalalalalala....

I believe someone had mention this movie before.

I just watched it... Kawaaaiiiiii.... (I mean, it's quite a nice movie to watch though has a bit of sadness in there. And I watched it with screwed subs so it's amazing I can sort of understand the overall story. Lol. So I can't really comment much on the movie. Lol.)

Jang Geun Seok is very handsome in there. Lol. Dunno, he's just charming. Though I admit looking like a lil kid. Lol. (Well, he's supposd to act as a high school kid.. So...) Maybe it's because of the guitar? Lol. Or the nice chara that he's playing. (So interested in reading the novel). He's just look great there. Lol. Not sure in other movies though.

But you know, when I was looking for his infos (can't believe I still do this. Lol. Ah... He's only 1 year older yet 182 cm in height. Crazy ah. Di kasih makan apa tuh orang???) found out some people talking bout the 'hottest' Korean actor. And they posted up some photos (Daniel Henney's included too. Lol... And SiWon and Kim Bum and whoever else...) And I noticed some of them look alike.

Well, remembering their social demand to look good, I'm not really surprised we can find good looking people there. (Though seriously, they all look so similiar.. Ckckckck..) Ah well...

What am I blabbering here about??? Oh yeah, supposed to be about Do Re Mi Fa... Do. Lol.

So anyone knows where I can get my hands on the novel??? Hehehehe...

(Ugh, ugh... I want the songs as well.. T_T)

Yep, I've found her.. Yayyy... ^^





Now she's happily playing with Sammy.. Khekhekhekhe...

Okay... Praise the Lord that the journey home was smooth and safe.

I met a lot of people - random people - and talk to them for a bit. From the pramugara? who was nice (though gw sempet ticked off coz he was too close and I thought he was kinda doing sexual harassment... Too much touching... Grr... But aside from that he was nice to people), to the guy beside me (om2 yg ngajak ngobrol, though gw lg ga terlau pingin ngobrol plus I don't really wanna talk to om2 ga jelas), to tante2 at the back who suddenly ajak gw ngmg bentar jg pas lgi otw to the toilet (hebat jg bisa tau2 diajak ngobrol...) To the girl at the back who kept talking to the bule beside her who turns out to be one of my (ex?)member of cell in Syd long time ago (she came at such a time that I forgot who she was though her face is kinda familiar.. Yeah, I should have remembered. She was the girl who told me at midnight just before last year PDMKK's b'day that she didn't have the needed dresscode for usher... And I was supposed to be in charge for it too... And I ended up running around borrowing clothes from other people for her that weren't exactly needed anw coz she cama late to the event... So her usher position was changed to someone else... Lalalalalalala...)

Then we went out, have our dinner, and go back home...

Finally, home sweet home...

Excited to see my room...


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It's nice to be reunited with my stuffs from Sydney, but it basically made my room messier than it already was... I have no more space to put my stuffs. My books... Well, I don't know where to put them.. And those bags and printers and speakers just ended up on the floor, taking more than half of my room. Not to mention the additional 2 luggage I brought with me from Syd and Sammy...
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Perfect...
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I really think it's time for me to move out to bigger room. This one doesn't have enough space for all of my belongings...

Bro, go get married soon!!! Move to ur own apartment and lemme have ur room!!!! Lol...

Anw, aside from all the excitement that I finally got back home safely and in one pieace with a few additional kgs and a one month gym membership waiting to be used, the first thing that I did after I reached my room and put down my luggage was to lok for Rei... And I couldn't find her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Seriously... This is getting me upset. Just because of Rei! Missing!!! So frutrated!!! Ahhhhhh!!!!!! And I asked all of them too... One said it's in my parent's room. My parent said that I brought her with me instead. While I remember vividly that I put Rei inside my bro's luggage before they came home so I know for sure I'm not bringing her with me. But then again, dad moved stuffs around before we go... Sooo....

T_T

It's not funny if what happened to Phinny? happened again. And we did check the room and nothing was left behind... So...

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Ahhhh.. So frustrated... I really wanna scream and shout and I don't know what else... T_T

I can't believe it... Reiiiii.... Where are you???????????


I don't know how to deal with this.. (Lebay...)

And I'm tired and super sleepy. =((

Let's take a shower and freshen up... Maybe if I look a bit more, I'll find her somewhere (finger crossed)

Would you feel happy when someone said you're special?

I'm sure I would.

Being one of a kind, being special, it's something that some people long for. But being that means we are different from the rest. We are not the same and hence we are special. So we stand out amongst the rest of us?

But then again, in this world, there aren't just one or two who'd like to be different. There are hundreds of them. So if most everyone would like to be different, to be special, one of a kind, does that mean we're not special anymore? See cause there would be too many people with their own specialties, that we couldn't really distinct them from the rest anymore. They are all beautiful and special in their own way. That they don't stand out anymore from the rest. But we'll have to look at each individual them to try and find out what's setting them apart from the rest... So does that mean their "specialness" has diminished in a way?



I guess I'm one of those who'd like to be different from the rest. If people usually goes to that one way, I'd try the other way, just to see what it's like and maybe for the fun of it. Is that count as one of a kind?

But again, if we're looking at some other stuffs. Like love and kindness and lalalala. Most people, in their right mind, would want all that is nice and wise. So in that sense, we are not different anymore then? So many people with their own beliefs and ways are trying to be that person who are nice and wise and pleasing and loving and caring and succesful and whatever that is positive. To say that I don't want those stuffs because so many wants them already is foolish. But then again, I won't be one of a kind anymore would I?

Oh yeah, added with the thrill and excitement you feel when you found that there's actually another person who felt the same way as you... I guess I'm not THAT "one of a kind" after all? Lol.

So, one of a kind, would you like to be one? And how do you propose to achieve it???

Between having the whole theatre just for the three of us, and coming out of the theatre feeling like having come back from another world, strange feeling of seeing someone else in the vicinity and making the park attendance wait for our car (the only one on that highest floor), I must say, I came out with quite a disapointment.

In one way, the movie's telling about life - don't fear to live, don't throw away your life and kill yourself because life is precious. And it is precisely because we know we're gonna die anyway in the end that life is precious yare yare yara... Very good message indeed. But it's being delivered in such complicated storyline. Basically I think it's the only message that the movie's trying to deliver. It's cool really, the way they said it, but yeah... It brought confusions on the way...

The scenery's not as lively and beautiful as Hayao's. If you've watched Spirited Away - it's far from that. In SA, the buildings look sooo real, it's like almost 3D. But in GS, it's truly like a paint - not a detailed one but more like a rough one where you can just make it - oh that's the sea, that must be the beach and stuffs. Really, the details aren't that great. The people, I must say looks way more realistic for most. Well, they still have that one or two char that have those unbelievably big eyes. And the tears are still way too big for their face - though it's kinda better in a way, at least not "bloppy" but still, not much detail in the artworks, in the way they move and such and such.

And even though it's quite different from Hayao's works, it still brought on some familiar theme. Such as how the witch conceal himself (I thought the witch was a she, apparently he's a he.) with magic so that he looked way younger than what he truly is (just like the bad witch in Howl's Moving Castle). And the true name of each things (like Sen's real name in Spirited Away which was Chihiro. The difference was only she was introduced by her real name and then given a false name. In here, it was the other way around. He was introduced with a given name then later on we found out his true name).



Ah, and there's lack of explanation in the beginning. We were given nothing at all (plus the sub was really fast that I couldn't make out anything except "Created by EA" Lol... Crazy...) so I was truly clueless on what the story's about. Kinda frustrating.

And the plot's kinda slow as well. It's like we have to walk in the dark without any lights whatsoever. Only by watching it till the end would we know what's what. And even then, we don't really know the whole story. I'm still wondering about a few stuffs in the movie. Aih2.. Too complicated...

And I was surprised to see in the poster that it's one of the Box office movie in Jap the first week it came out. My bro guessed that it's because there are so many suicidal cases in Jap that the movie just hit it off.

But for us, I guess it's kinda irrelevant. It's just another reminder that life's important but since we know that, so that's just it.

Anyway, despite all that, I like the song "Teru no Uta". Though I think it's ridiculous that they have the whole song sang in the movie. Like really sang by the girl. So throughout the songs we just watch her sang, looking at the "amazing" scenery and the boy who suddenly cried. Then somehow (they were not in good terms before) they ended up together and the boy telling the girl his story... Weird...

Ah, the interesting thing in the movie is that the boy was filled with fear that his body was taken over by darkness (or so they said) and it left the light behind - which apparently eventually became his shadow that follows him around, trying to get his body back. That one is pretty cool in a way.

But overall, the character building was not that much. Basically it only focuses on the boy and there's not much story other than his to tell... Oh yeah, and the fact that the boy's sposed to be 17 years old... I think he doesn't look like one. More like younger. But then again, I didn't look like one myself. So I guess I can't complaint bout that. Lolz...

Wow, I've been rambling about the movie...

Anyway, I guess it's a pretty interesting movie overall, but yeah... I have to admit I feel kinda disappointed at the end of it, esp since I've been craving to watch Ghibli's artwork. Too much things that goes unexplained.... And I guess I've watched too much Hayao's handywork that presents great details that I've come to really appreciate them very much. Lol...

Ah well.. I'm out...

"Do you believe in Love at first sight??"

I'm sure all of us has come across this question so many times already. So, what do you usually answer?

I know I usually answers: Humm.. Maybe???

The thought that came to mind usually around something romantic, something spontaneous. Sure, love could caught you off guard anywhere, anytime. So why not? There could be a chance of me falling in love at first sight. No?? I imagine it might feel 'liberating' to be caught by love. (And we're not even talking about the perfect love here. Just the normal kind of love. Lol.)



But then again a thought occured to me. Can you love some strangers that you don't even know? Can you say that you love someone when you don't even know who that certain someone is? Coz afterall, isn't love a willingness to share and think and caring about that person's wellbeing - so would you care if you don't know the person?

Well, facing that question, of course I'd say right away: Of course not. After all, we don't know the guy. We don't want to like the guy from what he appears to be rite? But from who he really is. His personality, him who we know and fell in love with.

But then again, isn't falling in love at first sight saying exactly just that? It's the first time you see the guy and yet you fall in love already. You don't even know the guy... Hum.. Tricky...


So, do you believe in love at first sight?

Seriously people, what's with this "if you don't eat/go on a diet, then I won't eat/go on a diet as well"

Aiyah... If u're hungry, just go eat something. And if the other person with you doesn't want to eat, then it doesn't matter, just eat anyway, since it's you who's hungry, not the other person. So don't force them to eat with you by cancelling your eating thingy just because the other person doesn't wanna eat at that particular time...

That being said, I do appreciate those "lazy to eat feeling if the other guy doesn't wanna eat with me". But if u're trully hungry (like hungry for hours already), you still have to eat.

Everyone has their own body tolerance. Not everyone's like me, who has no heart problem, no diabetic problem, no trouble sleeping on empty stomach, no stomach problem (maagh), etc2. So I can go the whole day without eating if I want to. But regardless I still eat if I feel hungry (yeah, looking at my room that got snacks for my rumbling stomachs and shakes... Of course I'll never go on empty stomachs for long. Lol...)

So EATT!!!!

Sigh...

What's the deal with eating alone? Maybe it's lonely, but it won't kill you.... Hux...

I don't know, maybe when people has stick together for years and used to do things together, they just naturally follow the other person, hence no eating unless you eat with me thingy...

It'd be interesting to see what my pov when I already have that other someone with me for years doing things together, maybe this will change (hahaha.. and it'll be funny reading this entry). But I don't think I'll change that much. You think? Lol.

Hum... I was planning to make this one unpersonalized. But what the heck, let's just go with it...

So, it's a bit weird today.

Mom woke me up at 5am (great..) to have our morning walk. (Why the sudden urge to have morning walk I wonder? Apparently she can't slept. So she decided to woke me up and drag me in a morning walk...)

So we went along...

Whew..

Do you hear the bird's singing? And the cicadas playing? As the sun peeked through the vast sky? I did. It was quite nice actually. And if I closed I eyes, I could just easily imagine we're walking through a forest, or a field full of grasses, and maybe flowers... Beautiful...

Though of course when the sun had fully risen and people started their activities, it's not as enchanting anymore. So we went back home after an hour, took our bath then I went back straight to sleep. Zzzzzz......


I think I dreamt of strange dreams again. Which after I woke up, made me feel kinda strange too. Sort of a 'lonely' feeling? So I decided to go play in my bro's room. After 3 hours straight, mom and dad decided to go and have their lunch. Which I refused because I feel like I want to stay at home.

Which I do. Hence now I'm writting this.

But the mood's still strange.

And I think this is a perfect time to study but yeah...

Gotta shake off that operation images first.. (I played that Surgeon thingy for 3 hours straight, the last operation being failed for 5 times straight? Frustrating I know, but malah bikin penasaran. Grrr.. Tapi males jg seh, tangan gw pegel maennya.. Hux..)

So yeah, I think I'm recovering, and gonna study soon...

Aih... Me, feeling lonely. Imagine after I come back from Oz later, it must have been worst than this... Ngeh..

Ah, btw... Happy Easter everyone. Almost forgot. Lol.. XD

Ciao.. I'm out..

Just like the title.. Suki.. Atashi no suki o, suki desu. Lol. Does that even make any sense?? Let's try in another way... Wo xihuan na ge CLAMP de Suki. Lol... I think I made some grammar mistakes there... Err...

So, I've just re-read that book titled Suki by CLAMP. (Oh, apparently in Indo's publishion? publishing... Argghh.. Ok, apparently in Indo, it's published as "Coz I Love You" - Look at that, a few months in Indo.. My English sucks, my Jap's never that good anyway, my Mandarin hasn't improve much and my Indo's kinda weird as well... Swell...)

So, what do I like from this book? I don't know actually. Maybe it's that great visual art? drawings.. You know CLAMP. They do marvelous things. But then again, the story's actually not that great. Humm... More like a bit on the boring side I guess (or maybe because I've known the story plot?) with not much 'action' or 'sparks'. Half of the story is just telling about that cute, innocent, truly clueless girl and how she starts to find thing that she loves....

Maybe it's the cute graphics?? Or the cute innocents *bikin gemes*. And to have another pictured story inside the manga??? (Kawaiii.. XD) Maybe it's the second one? I found out I'm quite attracted to the so-called innocents. Truly, I think sometimes to have those innocents is a bliss. With no suspicion of other people's motives, no ill feelings toward others, no jelaousy and such and such. Just honesty and plenty (and I mean pleennntttyyyyyyyy) of love... You know, where everything is just fun and nice, and every people you met is just nice and kind. And to accept each day joyfully. Peacefully... That is sooo nice...

What a peaceful and fun and joyful world it would be =)

Maybe that's what heaven's like??? With so much love and innocents of the people, where there will be no tears nor fear nor sickness nor anything evil. Wow...
If only our world is like that right now??? Hehehe...

(Which at the end, it reminds me, I think the story's kinda leaning on the phedophil side... She must be around 15 or so, and the guy is 32. So that would make a difference of at least 17 years.. Lalalala... Well, the last wedding I attended, the bride's around 25 and the groom 46.. 21 years difference.. Crazy, crazy... Sigh... It's worst.. So does that mean that the groom's phedophil as well??? I think lately I've found couples with such a gap witin their age that it seems kinda normal. Scary...)