Sunday, October 23, 2011
I think too much and too little at the same time.
I am confused...
I always envy those with personality,
those with visions,
those who knew for sure what they want, even if it's only for temporary.
I envy those who can held their head up high and walk forward with confidence and certainty.
Who are not fearless but had the courage to face what's ahead
I... Envy.... Those beautiful and strong people, women.
Who are empowering others through their words and actions.
Through their weaknesses and struggles...
I envy...
I am one complicated being.
Confused... and tricky. Mean yet trying to be compassionate. (Lol)
I am but being tossed around in the waves of the oceans... Neither here nor there....
Yet, I am unique and one of a kind.
Beautiful in my own way I guess? Or at least I would love to think that.
(See... I am confused... I hate me yet I would love to think I am beautiful. Lol.)
Sometimes I think I am wearing a mask, living a life that is not me.
Yet what is me?
I am a wreck. I am a mess.
Yet sometimes we found diamonds inside the tangle of mess.
I am waiting... Looking.. For that diamond.
Maybe I have found it but it hasn't looked beautiful yet because it hasn't been shaped?
Maybe I haven't found it at all?
We'll see...
10 years, 20 years, 30 years....
Will that diamond ever shine?
1 comments:
ah then again people changes all the time and what they think they know they dont know and what they dont know they think they know.. everyone is as lost as you are babe. keep hanging. how's stuff?
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