Back to Basic

Terlantar without desk nor computer. Can't do job properly. Feeling so confused and left out and overwhelmed with the stuffs that I supposed to do.

Yesterday I was overwhelmed with all the contracts that I have to read. Bah, even when my mom handed me her contracts, I was only half reading it. And yesterday they want me to look at contracts on 6 huge huge folders???

Surprisingly, I did it.... ^^"

And today, I'm supposed to use the computer to tidy up all the datas that I have. Apparently I couldn't coz they still don't have any space/desk/phone/computer to give to me. So I'm still in my temporary space, trying to find out what else I can do without a computer. While thinking of the prospects of what I should achieve by the end of this project (which was still a dreadful because I'm so clueless still.)

But if I just stop to think about it, actually it's great... Being an MA. I can see all the details that I want and see the overview of how things works in that particular divisions (or more like I have to, that's my job. Lol. To see the overall stuffs and make recommendations to improve/get additional products/whatever they want me to do. Lol.) So after the dread, comes excitement. Maybe I'm getting it, little by little. (Very little...) This is kinda what I wanted before... Just... Before, everything was on my mind. Now it's becoming reality. Wow. Hoping I can finish this project well. (I hope I know what I'm doing... ^^")

A sense of accomplishment after finishing the first, small, unofficial project (tomorrow is the report's due date... So we have to finish up today for that one no matter we like it or not). That little project has made this second week rougher (the reason why I came back soooo late on my first official day working on my first official project - or my second project as of now and also the reason why I slept soooo late for 3 consecutive days while waking up soooo early in the morning. Average sleeping time 4-5 hours. Gonna fix that soon!)

I managed to keep my record of being in the office at 8am, even though I've been going out of the house later and later (each by 20 minutes different). i wonder how that happens? Anyway, even so, I still feel like I've been arriving in the office too early... ^^"

Been separated with my fellow MAs - the one from the same batch as me. Unable to mix well with other colleagues. That's bad of me... ^^" Need to hone my social skills. Ahhh.. This is killing me... I hope I can find new friends that I'm comfy with soon.

Oh, my spv is apparently my bro's friend. A day after we (bro and I) found out - which is today - I found out that she knew too. Funny story. Such a coincidence. Not that it'd change anything. I think... But I think she's been great to me. Like guiding me and stuffs. I wonder if it's because she knew I'm my bro's sister? Hum... But I think she's basically a nice person. Thank God!

Anw, need sleep. Bad. Ciao!

晚安！