Back to Basic

Terlantar without desk nor computer. Can't do job properly. Feeling so confused and left out and overwhelmed with the stuffs that I supposed to do.

Yesterday I was overwhelmed with all the contracts that I have to read. Bah, even when my mom handed me her contracts, I was only half reading it. And yesterday they want me to look at contracts on 6 huge huge folders???

Surprisingly, I did it.... ^^"

And today, I'm supposed to use the computer to tidy up all the datas that I have. Apparently I couldn't coz they still don't have any space/desk/phone/computer to give to me. So I'm still in my temporary space, trying to find out what else I can do without a computer. While thinking of the prospects of what I should achieve by the end of this project (which was still a dreadful because I'm so clueless still.)

But if I just stop to think about it, actually it's great... Being an MA. I can see all the details that I want and see the overview of how things works in that particular divisions (or more like I have to, that's my job. Lol. To see the overall stuffs and make recommendations to improve/get additional products/whatever they want me to do. Lol.) So after the dread, comes excitement. Maybe I'm getting it, little by little. (Very little...) This is kinda what I wanted before... Just... Before, everything was on my mind. Now it's becoming reality. Wow. Hoping I can finish this project well. (I hope I know what I'm doing... ^^")

A sense of accomplishment after finishing the first, small, unofficial project (tomorrow is the report's due date... So we have to finish up today for that one no matter we like it or not). That little project has made this second week rougher (the reason why I came back soooo late on my first official day working on my first official project - or my second project as of now and also the reason why I slept soooo late for 3 consecutive days while waking up soooo early in the morning. Average sleeping time 4-5 hours. Gonna fix that soon!)

I managed to keep my record of being in the office at 8am, even though I've been going out of the house later and later (each by 20 minutes different). i wonder how that happens? Anyway, even so, I still feel like I've been arriving in the office too early... ^^"

Been separated with my fellow MAs - the one from the same batch as me. Unable to mix well with other colleagues. That's bad of me... ^^" Need to hone my social skills. Ahhh.. This is killing me... I hope I can find new friends that I'm comfy with soon.

Oh, my spv is apparently my bro's friend. A day after we (bro and I) found out - which is today - I found out that she knew too. Funny story. Such a coincidence. Not that it'd change anything. I think... But I think she's been great to me. Like guiding me and stuffs. I wonder if it's because she knew I'm my bro's sister? Hum... But I think she's basically a nice person. Thank God!

Anw, need sleep. Bad. Ciao!

晚安！

Hummm... I really wonder if it's a good choice of work... Despite it was really positive in the beginning (I was kinda excited for the job) but ever since the last two huge scandal that made it through all the papers in Indo, this is kinda questionable. I just read the continuation of the scandals in the paper today and they just denied everything away... (At least they did in the one that I read in) and they still can't solve the cases.. The person I'm supposed to meet tomorrow happened to be quoted in the newspaper too, and I was wondering whether he can still meet up tomorrow, I was expecting they'll cancel it what with all the callings to attend the court and stuffs. And my guess was correct. When i checked my email after i got back, they sent another email saying they're postponing it... Hummm... And my bro said that there's a possibility that they'll take away their right to operate in Indo or something and close the bank down... (I don't know where he got the info). Possibility of me being jobless again? Even before I start doing the job. Lol.

Plus E&Y's work offer/interview with user is still standing too. At least they're going to call back on Monday to set up interview with me... i think... But Monday is my official working day... So.. Humm.... Clash clash... *Kachinggg...*

Ironic... It was supposed to be one of the best job offer that I got... Until the scandals crashed in. I wonder why the great timing? What should I do? Sigh.

Great! Perfect timing! The same week I sign my contract, suddenly my place of employment has been the hot topic in the news - twice! Yeah! And not about good stuffs too. But the bad stuffs... Seriously... How can they choose a very perfect timing like this?

First one is the embezzlement of customers' accounts, worths a min of Rp. 20 billion. Second would the debt collectors who caused customer's death... Third probably is the involvement in money laundry-ing, even though this one is not exactly the bank's fault...

Wow... Huge cases right before I officially starts there. What a great welcoming news...

"Welcome to nightmare" part 2?