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Gara2 blognya Vie, jadi pingin dengerin lagunya MJ, gara2 dengerin lagunya MJ jadi pingin write something bout him. Lol.


I listened to his 'You're not alone' song... So nice... Dipikir2, suaranya dia tuh keren jg loh. I mean, he can sing such calming songs - suaranya kan bnr2 bikin kaya terbuai gitu. But image dia di mind gw tuh always a person who's so flashy - with all the bling2 clothes and his moonwalk, and his sunglasses, and his hat and tongkat.... Hahaha... Padahal ga semua lagunya begitu ya??

Then I listened to his 'Black or White' song. It's kinda ironic don't you think? He sang about it doesn't matter if it's black or white, yet he himself desperately trying so hard to be a 'white'. Which I think he's really succesful in doing that (I didn't know he was black until I was in high school or something... And saw his old picture). I thought he's just some really famous guy (almost, or already is? a legend) with a realllyy, out-of-the-worldly white skin and quite long, wavy black hair... So ironic...

I never really know his life/follow the news around him or anything. But listening to his songs, it's really nice and calming (kalo lagunya yg kalem2 ya... Hahahaha...) So he can sing such a serene song and he can be really cool if he want to and he's still a guy who cares bout the environment and the world (kalo dari lagunya seh)... Cool...

Rest in peace MJ...




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Ahhh.. Jadi pingin dengerin lagu2 lama dehhh.. MJ's, Phil Collins, Celine Dion (yesterday I saw her concerts - in a big screen - when I was waiting for Transformer. Cool.. She looks quite old now. Hahaha.. Still nice though =) And supposedly she sang with Frank Sinatra. I was 'wow-ed' when she mentioned him. I thought he's gonna be there in person and sang with her. Apparently it's only his voice. Lol. And pictures of him.... Yaaa.. Sayang sekaliii...)

Remember that old song that we used to listena and sung together??? (Well, not much... But...)

So it happens my random iTunes played the song again

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Saat kujumpa dirinya di satu suasana
Terasa getaran dalam dada
Lalu aku mendekatinya, kutatap dirinya
Oh dia sungguh mempesona

*Ingin aku menyapanya, menyapa dirinya
Bercanda tawa dengan dirinya
Namun apa yang kurasa, aku tak kuasa
Aku tak tahu harus berkata apa

**Inikah namanya cinta? Inikah cinta?
Cinta pada jumpa pertama
Inikah rasanya cinta? Inikah cinta?
Terasa bahagia saat jumpa dengan dirinya

Kujumpa dia berikutnya
Suasana yang berbeda
Getaran itu masih ada
Aku dekati dirinya, kutatap wajahnya
Oh, dia tetap mempesona

Back to *, **

Diriku terasa, di kala diri ini pingin jumpa
Ingin selalu bersama (dalam segala suasana)

Back to ** till end

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Then I remembered my entry bout Love at First Sight...

So is that what love is? To feel 'getaran dalam dada', 'terasa bahagia saat jumpa' and 'ingin selalu bersama dalam segala suasana'?

Lol...

I guess that's not exactly it, no? It's an attraction, a 'passion' maybe? But not love?

Haha.. Just a thought... ^_~

I just realized, I have a very kind bro...

And people I met usually is very kind to me too. Hahahaha... I'm so blessed ^^

Like there are times when I think my parents got angry with my brother but actually the mistakes mine, or I'm part of what triggers what happened next. So actually I'm supposed to be the one who got 'scolded'. But he never blamed me. Not for the big, real stuffs anyway. He just receives all those pressures from my parents (and we're talking about my parents here... They're really good at putting pressures.. Yeah.. v) and didn't blame me... (Laporan seh iya... Tapi kaga nyalahin.. Haha...)

Salut...

Is that the power of oldest siblings? They can withstand more pressure, endure more 'hardships' than the younger ones? At least that's what I feel. Hahaha...

Now I see him in a kinda 'new' light.

Well, I know he's reliable and all, and I can trust him. But you know, I always felt bad whenever something bad happened to him and it's because of me. But I think I don't have to feel THAT bad... I mean... You know, it's not like he can't deal with it or anything. He's strong enough that I can rely on him. Or something like that. And that those pressures from our parents... Well, they still love him no matter what (even though I think sometimes they're being unfair... But apparently it's their way to show that they still care.. Wow... A hard one... To receive so much care...) Well, I'm not saying that it's right to let him being the only one got all the pressures but, you know... Well, I guess my point is that now I realized he's stronger than what I thought.

Oh and I found out... (Mom said it herself) She doesn't really care for me like she did with my older siblings. You know, she used to call my brother (or at least second one) and talked to him quite a lot in the phone.... (Almost everyday maybe, and quite a while too - though sometimes just a quick call to see what he was doing). Anw, she never really talked to me so long in the phone and to talked bout lots of stuffs like she did with my bro. Well, sometimes, but not as frequent - I think. With me, she kinda let me loose... Lol....

I don't know.. I love it... Though sometimes I envy my brother... But I love that freedom. Hahaha... Maybe I'm being too 'free'? Lol.

Oh yeah, she said I'm not close to her... Apparently my brothers kinda 'report' to her and I never tell her anything. She said...

Well, she didn't ask... Lol...

I thought we're just fine the way we are. But apparently I'm not that close hey?

Thinking back, maybe it's because everytime I tried to tell her stuffs, she never really listen to me, or she responded in a way that doesn't really accomodate my needs, or it back fired to me. So, I got tired trying to tell her and since she never really asked, that's fine by me too.... And I learnt to keep stuffs for myself. Or just to talk it out with some friends instead... Or maybe my brother.

But I thought I talked to her more lately???

I guess not....

Lol...

Ahhh.. Anyway... The point is... Lately I realized that although my family's kinda strange and weird and harsh, they're really kind people.. Lol. (What kinda of realization is this? Lol...)

Oh yeah, dad... One day I was driving with my dad. And he commented bout my friend and I didn't like it. So I told him "hush... stop. Jgn ngmg sembarangan!" with kinda a loud voice. Then I shut myself (afterall, it's not polite to shout to your parents no?) And then after a while, he said something along the line of "papa orangnya emang kasar, dari dulu ngomongnya kasar. Soalnya udah biasa. Mau rubah juga susah. Tapi sebenernya bae" (hahaha.. gw jd senyum2 dengernya.. nih org muji diri sendiri.. Lol!). And I said "iya tau". And he continued, "jadi kalo papa ngomongnya sembarangan kadang papa ga sadar. Soalnya udah biasa". And I said, "ya pelan2 lah. Memang susah." then he said, "iya, jadi ya kalo emang ngomongnya sembarangan harus dikasih tau. Jadi papa bisa inget dan berenti ngomong"

!!!!!

That's improvement!!!! Lol... I still remembered one scene where he trully mencela this one employee.... The choice of words that he used were trully top notch... Even I was really feeling apologetic towards the girl. And I had to tell him to stop and he'd still defend himself and doesn't really get it until I explained to him (then he'd just being silent). Well, then afterwards he kinda changed his way of talking and tone... So...

Now, he's saying it himself without me having to elaborate and explain "long and wide". Lol...

So, yeah... I guess I kinda got to know my family better.... Hahaha... Lalalala...
(I don't know whether all the revelation's good or bad... Like the one I finally understood why I was so 'free' it was because - quoting my mom here - she doesn't care for me as much... Lalalalala...) Well, I think her bestest child would be my 2nd bro... She's closest to him afterall... And rely on him a lot. Even my dad too. My only best point in being their child is because I'm a girl. Lol. Who's quite flexible and just alright with whatever they say (I'm a good girl, no? Lol...) -- Kinda changing lately though.... So I guess my best point is only because I'm a girl.. (Yay.. Thank God for making me a girl. Lol.)

Oh well... I love my family nevertheless. Even though they're weird. And unique... Antik... Hahahaha... Lalalalala.... (Jarang2 gw bisa ngmg gini. Liat bsk kalo dah ketemu nyokap/bokap n dengerin celotehannya mrk... Dijadiin maenan koko gw. Plus dijadiin 'asisten serba guna' and 'supir'. Puas deh gw. Hahahaha...)

Okay... So I'm not a Phelgmatic - Sanguine person anymore. Lol.
The last time I do the test (which is a few days ago... Last week? Hehe.) I got the results of Phlegmatic - Melancholic....

Omg... Makin parah ajeee... I'm a true introvert now. Wakakakakaka... (See, I'm a very calm and not so outspoken person. Aku kan alim dan diamm.. ^^ Huahahaha...)

Anw, turns out most of my bad habbits come from the Phlegmatic side of me. And I've got some positive sides of cholerics... And a mix of both from Melan. Interesting. Lol.

But still, those are too vague to describe me... No? Lol... I'm more complicated than a Phleg-Melan person. Lol.... XD

I guess there's something good in being Phleg-Melan (though sometimes I don't really fancy being one)... So, let's see what the future holds for this 'new' me...

(Wondering what makes me really change to that side? Is it really because of being back in Indo? That's pretty scary no? To be able to change 'me' so much... Aih2...)

Okay, I just found the whole randomness in a whole new level.

It's one thing when you were talking bout relationships with someone who just randomly pops the ''big'' question of ''will u marry me?''/''pls be my gf.'' At least you guys were talking in that area rite?

But it's a whole different thing when you go online, find an offline message from some quite random, half unknown person saying things like ''I love you'', ''Do you have a bf yet?'' and ''Will you marry me??'' all in one go (and note that it's an offline msg. Or at least when read, the guy was off already).

When something like that does happen, doesn't it just give the creeps out of you? (Is that even a correct term?'' lol.

I can't... It doesn't make any sense for me. No sense at all. Crazy... Crazy... The world's going crazier each day. I wonder what's happening to the world???

Yesterday (was it yesterday? No, it was the day before. Hahaha..) I saw a book in Gramedia by chance. It's supposed to be an old Japan's literature that's really famous by Natsume Soseki.

It's about a naughty Botchan who was not loved in his own family except by his undertaker? caregiver? old maid? and finally when his parents died, his older brother sold their house and they went on their separate way. So far I've read like 3/4 of it and maybe there's not much of the plot (mostly it's only telling the everyday life of him as a young, new teacher in a rural area with his "edo-pride" and integrity and closely held self-value and belief and honesty, etc, etc)

But it is interesting... Because as the novel is written in the first-pov, we read it knowing what he's thinking about (almost feels like a diary and sometimes I wonder if it's kinda the writter's own experiences put in writtings?) and we can see that although his values and believes are right (with honesty and integrity at the top of the list) but his way of doing things is in a way too extreme.

This novel reminds me that sometimes, even though the values held is good, but sometimes the way we do things aren't as good. We made some mistakes through the way we see things. And not all people view things the same way. So we still need to consider the situations and the people around us. To think outside the box.

Well, I believe we know this through our own experience but the way the author put it in the book is also interesting to read. (Though if you're looking for those full of adventures/romance/ups and downs, this book is not really for you) ^^

Gw menobatkan Star Trek as my movie of this month. ^^

Even though at the beginning I wasn't that interested in watching it, but I ended up watching it anyway. Lol. And when the movie starts, the first comment I made was "Hah? Masa awal2 dah mati? Film apaan neh???" Lol... (And I was starting to like the guy too. So was kinda, what the??? Why's he dead so early???)

But as the movie progress, I must say I like the movie, with its lil funny acts along the plot. (Kinda a bummer that I sat besides a person who've watched it already so her reactions' not that... shown...? -- I realized I like to see how people react to a certain scenes in the movie, whether they enjoy it or not. Lol.) And when the movie's done, I just can't stop smilling (felt like an idiot... Lol. But anw...)

My bro haven't watched it, and I ended up getting stuck with him for the whole day and so I accompanied him - and his girlfriend, and a bunch of his friends and their girlfriends - to watch it at EX's Premier (which means sleeping position and a blanket and food... Lol. Well, we didn't get any food coz we ate just before. So..)

And except for the non-stop calls at the beginning from mom and dad and the other bro - which I rejected and ended up they calling my bro... Hahahahaha... -, it's superb. Khekhekhe... And my bro laughed too (somehow happy to see him laughing. lol...) And I got to catch the parts where I'd miss the first time I watched it. So now I know what's happening better. Lol. It's still fun to watch ^^

Even though I don't exactly know what's happening in all other Star Trek movies (doesn't know the story, doesn't bother to try to remember what it's all about, and only remember glimpses of scenes of previous movies and still don't know what it's all about - basically no clue whatsoever what Star Trek series is all about except that it's just bout life in the outer space... Lol...) but I can still enjoy this one. And it made me smile at the end of the movie. So I like it. Lol. ^^ Highly recommendable - especially if you watch it with the 'right' people. Huehehehehe....

Okay... So I finally remembered and take some time to do some research. Lol. (Should have done this since like, months ago? Lol...) And I've got some lists of universities there that has quite good reputations (well, at least 5 at the top is quite well known and some actually made it to the top whatever hundreds of world unis).

1. Beijing Da Xue (Beijing)
2. Tsing Hua Da Xue (Beijing)
3. Shang Hai Jiao Tong Da Xue (Shanghai)
4. Fudan Da Xue (Shanghai)
5. Zhe Jiang Da Xie (Hangzhou)
6. 中国科学技术大学 University of Science and Technology of China (Anhui)
7. Nan Jing Da Xue (Nanjing)
8. Bei Jing Shi Fan Da Xue (BNU - Beijing)

Still unsure where to go... Hux... So far I've just read Beida's web and it's really... Enticing??? Interesting??? I don't know... Made me wanna go there. Lol. But I seem to have problem trying to get to the page for the language short term courses. Hux... They didn't abolish the class right??? =(

Confusing... Hux... And quite scary actually... If you think about it. Coz it'd be a whole diff world. With lesser Indo's (I'm aiming for uni with small number of Indo students... Lol... Afterall, I need way more practice... Hux.. But, but, but... ...) and unknown language (still learning, too many unknown vocab, plus confusing grammar and word usage) and NO ONE!!! I know... None, nadda, zip, nil... At least when I went to UNSW, I still know one person, er... two... eh? three?? Was it more?? Excluding those in the same city but diff uni... Lol... So yeah... Challenging...

On the other hand, it's quite... Exciting??? It's like going for an adventure... Lol... (But of course it's not really as 'fun' prolly? Afterall, I may have to 'cook my brain' trying to memorize those.... Symbols... Characters... Thousands of them.... Aih2... Giving me headache just trying to imagining it...)

Right now, I'm just trying to learn and memorize as much as I can, going by the flow - refusing further thoughts of how many more words i still need to know and memorize and understand... (though I seem to keep on forgetting stuffs T_T). I wish, hope, pray, that everything will go smoothly... Moga2 brain gw doesn't fail me. Lol. I need you brain now, more than ever! (Kalo dipikir2, I must be crazy. I hate memorizing and I'm gonna do stuffs that only memorize stuffs... Omg... That's true!!! I'm going insane!!!!)

Udah ah... I need sleep. I think sleep deprive's making me 'go bananas'. Lol...

I just found out. My name... The last character is qian 倩 (meaning: pretty, handsome)，has the element of qing 青 (meaning: blue or green, black, green grass/young crops, young)。

I wonder if that has something to do with my liking of blue color or me looking really, really young??? (Some people thought I'm either a 14 years old or a high school student... Camen...)

Lalalalalala....

I believe someone had mention this movie before.

I just watched it... Kawaaaiiiiii.... (I mean, it's quite a nice movie to watch though has a bit of sadness in there. And I watched it with screwed subs so it's amazing I can sort of understand the overall story. Lol. So I can't really comment much on the movie. Lol.)

Jang Geun Seok is very handsome in there. Lol. Dunno, he's just charming. Though I admit looking like a lil kid. Lol. (Well, he's supposd to act as a high school kid.. So...) Maybe it's because of the guitar? Lol. Or the nice chara that he's playing. (So interested in reading the novel). He's just look great there. Lol. Not sure in other movies though.

But you know, when I was looking for his infos (can't believe I still do this. Lol. Ah... He's only 1 year older yet 182 cm in height. Crazy ah. Di kasih makan apa tuh orang???) found out some people talking bout the 'hottest' Korean actor. And they posted up some photos (Daniel Henney's included too. Lol... And SiWon and Kim Bum and whoever else...) And I noticed some of them look alike.

Well, remembering their social demand to look good, I'm not really surprised we can find good looking people there. (Though seriously, they all look so similiar.. Ckckckck..) Ah well...

What am I blabbering here about??? Oh yeah, supposed to be about Do Re Mi Fa... Do. Lol.

So anyone knows where I can get my hands on the novel??? Hehehehe...

(Ugh, ugh... I want the songs as well.. T_T)