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Would you feel happy when someone said you're special?

I'm sure I would.

Being one of a kind, being special, it's something that some people long for. But being that means we are different from the rest. We are not the same and hence we are special. So we stand out amongst the rest of us?

But then again, in this world, there aren't just one or two who'd like to be different. There are hundreds of them. So if most everyone would like to be different, to be special, one of a kind, does that mean we're not special anymore? See cause there would be too many people with their own specialties, that we couldn't really distinct them from the rest anymore. They are all beautiful and special in their own way. That they don't stand out anymore from the rest. But we'll have to look at each individual them to try and find out what's setting them apart from the rest... So does that mean their "specialness" has diminished in a way?



I guess I'm one of those who'd like to be different from the rest. If people usually goes to that one way, I'd try the other way, just to see what it's like and maybe for the fun of it. Is that count as one of a kind?

But again, if we're looking at some other stuffs. Like love and kindness and lalalala. Most people, in their right mind, would want all that is nice and wise. So in that sense, we are not different anymore then? So many people with their own beliefs and ways are trying to be that person who are nice and wise and pleasing and loving and caring and succesful and whatever that is positive. To say that I don't want those stuffs because so many wants them already is foolish. But then again, I won't be one of a kind anymore would I?

Oh yeah, added with the thrill and excitement you feel when you found that there's actually another person who felt the same way as you... I guess I'm not THAT "one of a kind" after all? Lol.

So, one of a kind, would you like to be one? And how do you propose to achieve it???

Between having the whole theatre just for the three of us, and coming out of the theatre feeling like having come back from another world, strange feeling of seeing someone else in the vicinity and making the park attendance wait for our car (the only one on that highest floor), I must say, I came out with quite a disapointment.

In one way, the movie's telling about life - don't fear to live, don't throw away your life and kill yourself because life is precious. And it is precisely because we know we're gonna die anyway in the end that life is precious yare yare yara... Very good message indeed. But it's being delivered in such complicated storyline. Basically I think it's the only message that the movie's trying to deliver. It's cool really, the way they said it, but yeah... It brought confusions on the way...

The scenery's not as lively and beautiful as Hayao's. If you've watched Spirited Away - it's far from that. In SA, the buildings look sooo real, it's like almost 3D. But in GS, it's truly like a paint - not a detailed one but more like a rough one where you can just make it - oh that's the sea, that must be the beach and stuffs. Really, the details aren't that great. The people, I must say looks way more realistic for most. Well, they still have that one or two char that have those unbelievably big eyes. And the tears are still way too big for their face - though it's kinda better in a way, at least not "bloppy" but still, not much detail in the artworks, in the way they move and such and such.

And even though it's quite different from Hayao's works, it still brought on some familiar theme. Such as how the witch conceal himself (I thought the witch was a she, apparently he's a he.) with magic so that he looked way younger than what he truly is (just like the bad witch in Howl's Moving Castle). And the true name of each things (like Sen's real name in Spirited Away which was Chihiro. The difference was only she was introduced by her real name and then given a false name. In here, it was the other way around. He was introduced with a given name then later on we found out his true name).



Ah, and there's lack of explanation in the beginning. We were given nothing at all (plus the sub was really fast that I couldn't make out anything except "Created by EA" Lol... Crazy...) so I was truly clueless on what the story's about. Kinda frustrating.

And the plot's kinda slow as well. It's like we have to walk in the dark without any lights whatsoever. Only by watching it till the end would we know what's what. And even then, we don't really know the whole story. I'm still wondering about a few stuffs in the movie. Aih2.. Too complicated...

And I was surprised to see in the poster that it's one of the Box office movie in Jap the first week it came out. My bro guessed that it's because there are so many suicidal cases in Jap that the movie just hit it off.

But for us, I guess it's kinda irrelevant. It's just another reminder that life's important but since we know that, so that's just it.

Anyway, despite all that, I like the song "Teru no Uta". Though I think it's ridiculous that they have the whole song sang in the movie. Like really sang by the girl. So throughout the songs we just watch her sang, looking at the "amazing" scenery and the boy who suddenly cried. Then somehow (they were not in good terms before) they ended up together and the boy telling the girl his story... Weird...

Ah, the interesting thing in the movie is that the boy was filled with fear that his body was taken over by darkness (or so they said) and it left the light behind - which apparently eventually became his shadow that follows him around, trying to get his body back. That one is pretty cool in a way.

But overall, the character building was not that much. Basically it only focuses on the boy and there's not much story other than his to tell... Oh yeah, and the fact that the boy's sposed to be 17 years old... I think he doesn't look like one. More like younger. But then again, I didn't look like one myself. So I guess I can't complaint bout that. Lolz...

Wow, I've been rambling about the movie...

Anyway, I guess it's a pretty interesting movie overall, but yeah... I have to admit I feel kinda disappointed at the end of it, esp since I've been craving to watch Ghibli's artwork. Too much things that goes unexplained.... And I guess I've watched too much Hayao's handywork that presents great details that I've come to really appreciate them very much. Lol...

Ah well.. I'm out...

"Do you believe in Love at first sight??"

I'm sure all of us has come across this question so many times already. So, what do you usually answer?

I know I usually answers: Humm.. Maybe???

The thought that came to mind usually around something romantic, something spontaneous. Sure, love could caught you off guard anywhere, anytime. So why not? There could be a chance of me falling in love at first sight. No?? I imagine it might feel 'liberating' to be caught by love. (And we're not even talking about the perfect love here. Just the normal kind of love. Lol.)



But then again a thought occured to me. Can you love some strangers that you don't even know? Can you say that you love someone when you don't even know who that certain someone is? Coz afterall, isn't love a willingness to share and think and caring about that person's wellbeing - so would you care if you don't know the person?

Well, facing that question, of course I'd say right away: Of course not. After all, we don't know the guy. We don't want to like the guy from what he appears to be rite? But from who he really is. His personality, him who we know and fell in love with.

But then again, isn't falling in love at first sight saying exactly just that? It's the first time you see the guy and yet you fall in love already. You don't even know the guy... Hum.. Tricky...


So, do you believe in love at first sight?

Seriously people, what's with this "if you don't eat/go on a diet, then I won't eat/go on a diet as well"

Aiyah... If u're hungry, just go eat something. And if the other person with you doesn't want to eat, then it doesn't matter, just eat anyway, since it's you who's hungry, not the other person. So don't force them to eat with you by cancelling your eating thingy just because the other person doesn't wanna eat at that particular time...

That being said, I do appreciate those "lazy to eat feeling if the other guy doesn't wanna eat with me". But if u're trully hungry (like hungry for hours already), you still have to eat.

Everyone has their own body tolerance. Not everyone's like me, who has no heart problem, no diabetic problem, no trouble sleeping on empty stomach, no stomach problem (maagh), etc2. So I can go the whole day without eating if I want to. But regardless I still eat if I feel hungry (yeah, looking at my room that got snacks for my rumbling stomachs and shakes... Of course I'll never go on empty stomachs for long. Lol...)

So EATT!!!!

Sigh...

What's the deal with eating alone? Maybe it's lonely, but it won't kill you.... Hux...

I don't know, maybe when people has stick together for years and used to do things together, they just naturally follow the other person, hence no eating unless you eat with me thingy...

It'd be interesting to see what my pov when I already have that other someone with me for years doing things together, maybe this will change (hahaha.. and it'll be funny reading this entry). But I don't think I'll change that much. You think? Lol.

Hum... I was planning to make this one unpersonalized. But what the heck, let's just go with it...

So, it's a bit weird today.

Mom woke me up at 5am (great..) to have our morning walk. (Why the sudden urge to have morning walk I wonder? Apparently she can't slept. So she decided to woke me up and drag me in a morning walk...)

So we went along...

Whew..

Do you hear the bird's singing? And the cicadas playing? As the sun peeked through the vast sky? I did. It was quite nice actually. And if I closed I eyes, I could just easily imagine we're walking through a forest, or a field full of grasses, and maybe flowers... Beautiful...

Though of course when the sun had fully risen and people started their activities, it's not as enchanting anymore. So we went back home after an hour, took our bath then I went back straight to sleep. Zzzzzz......


I think I dreamt of strange dreams again. Which after I woke up, made me feel kinda strange too. Sort of a 'lonely' feeling? So I decided to go play in my bro's room. After 3 hours straight, mom and dad decided to go and have their lunch. Which I refused because I feel like I want to stay at home.

Which I do. Hence now I'm writting this.

But the mood's still strange.

And I think this is a perfect time to study but yeah...

Gotta shake off that operation images first.. (I played that Surgeon thingy for 3 hours straight, the last operation being failed for 5 times straight? Frustrating I know, but malah bikin penasaran. Grrr.. Tapi males jg seh, tangan gw pegel maennya.. Hux..)

So yeah, I think I'm recovering, and gonna study soon...

Aih... Me, feeling lonely. Imagine after I come back from Oz later, it must have been worst than this... Ngeh..

Ah, btw... Happy Easter everyone. Almost forgot. Lol.. XD

Ciao.. I'm out..

Just like the title.. Suki.. Atashi no suki o, suki desu. Lol. Does that even make any sense?? Let's try in another way... Wo xihuan na ge CLAMP de Suki. Lol... I think I made some grammar mistakes there... Err...

So, I've just re-read that book titled Suki by CLAMP. (Oh, apparently in Indo's publishion? publishing... Argghh.. Ok, apparently in Indo, it's published as "Coz I Love You" - Look at that, a few months in Indo.. My English sucks, my Jap's never that good anyway, my Mandarin hasn't improve much and my Indo's kinda weird as well... Swell...)

So, what do I like from this book? I don't know actually. Maybe it's that great visual art? drawings.. You know CLAMP. They do marvelous things. But then again, the story's actually not that great. Humm... More like a bit on the boring side I guess (or maybe because I've known the story plot?) with not much 'action' or 'sparks'. Half of the story is just telling about that cute, innocent, truly clueless girl and how she starts to find thing that she loves....

Maybe it's the cute graphics?? Or the cute innocents *bikin gemes*. And to have another pictured story inside the manga??? (Kawaiii.. XD) Maybe it's the second one? I found out I'm quite attracted to the so-called innocents. Truly, I think sometimes to have those innocents is a bliss. With no suspicion of other people's motives, no ill feelings toward others, no jelaousy and such and such. Just honesty and plenty (and I mean pleennntttyyyyyyyy) of love... You know, where everything is just fun and nice, and every people you met is just nice and kind. And to accept each day joyfully. Peacefully... That is sooo nice...

What a peaceful and fun and joyful world it would be =)

Maybe that's what heaven's like??? With so much love and innocents of the people, where there will be no tears nor fear nor sickness nor anything evil. Wow...
If only our world is like that right now??? Hehehe...

(Which at the end, it reminds me, I think the story's kinda leaning on the phedophil side... She must be around 15 or so, and the guy is 32. So that would make a difference of at least 17 years.. Lalalala... Well, the last wedding I attended, the bride's around 25 and the groom 46.. 21 years difference.. Crazy, crazy... Sigh... It's worst.. So does that mean that the groom's phedophil as well??? I think lately I've found couples with such a gap witin their age that it seems kinda normal. Scary...)