Back to Basic

The girl who always says yes

Wants to scream no

Takes over everyone's stress

And ignores her own

The life and soul of the party

But loves to stay home

She say's she's not broken-hearted

But she cries on her own

Playing pretend

I shouldn't hide it

It isn't right

Being a liar

I'm crossing the line

Dancing with fire,

When I'm not fine

Should I deny it?

Cause I'm going crazy when I'm not okay,

I keep praying that the cracks don't show my pain,

Cause even when I'm falling, I say my life is like a dream,

But I'm fighting through a nightmare,

Cause I'm not really being me,

See you don't really know me

The girl who starts all the jokes

Just make her laugh,

Preaches the do's and the don't's

But loves to be bad,

Smiles when they guess who she's loving

What they say makes her mad

She says "I'm fine, I need nothing"

But she hopes for your hand

Playing pretend

I shouldn't hide it

It isn't right

Being a liar

I'm crossing the line

Dancing with fire,

When I'm not fine

Should I deny it?

Cause I'm going crazy when I'm not okay,

I keep praying that the cracks don't show my pain,

Cause even when I'm falling, I say my life is like a dream,

But I'm fighting through a nightmare,

Cause I'm not really being me,

See you don't really know me, baby, oh no

You don't really know me, no no,

You don't really know me,

How can you know me?

You don't really know me,

You don't really know me,

Cause I'm going crazy when I'm not okay,

I keep praying that the cracks don't show my pain,

Cause even when I'm falling, I say my life is like a dream,

But I'm fighting through a nightmare,

Cause I'm not really being me,

See you don't really know me, baby, oh no,

How can you know me? me, me, me, ooh, mhhm

You're gonna get to know me

______________________________________________________________________________

Thinking while listening to this song.

What if the girl's defence mechanism is actually to try to ignore everything and forgets everything? Trying to believe whole heartedly that everything is fine. That it's all gonna be fine and everything's gonna be ok? And that eventually it really is gonna be ok? Does that mean that she lies too? Is she a liar? When she's not fine, should she not deny it? Believe that she's fine until she really is fine?

Even when everything feels like it fell apart, and nothing's going right, I still say my life is blessed. Is that a lie? If you do that your whole life, does that mean that you're not being yourself? 

Then who are you, truly?