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Big mistakee!!! 

Now feels even hotter.

Damn. 

Still got a pille of work to do. 

Sigh. 

It was quite nice tho. 

Taste like thick dark choco with alcohol in it. Interesting taste. Tho I could do without the alcohol. Just the thick dark choco already is nice. 

Is not like I'm unloved. Just that I feel she love him more than she love me.
Is not like I hate him. Just that I dislike the way he did stuffs or say things and how it made me act.
Is not like I don't wanna care. Or do I?

I feel like I am bound to do one thing, yet I want another thing.
But then sometimes I don't even know what I want, but one for sure I don't want the one I have now.
Wow, that sounds familiar?

How laughable.

It takes courage to change what you have been doing. But it takes strength to continue.
Sometimes is not just courage, but you're just being rash.

I'm not saying I regret my decisions so far. No. I am glad I made them.

I just need a little bit of help from here on out but I feel like no guiding hands can help me.
I feel so lost, even though I know I shouldn't be.
I feel like a teenager in their rebelling period all over again. Going back to puberty (I don't even remember going through puberty. What was I like before, I wonder?)

I look around me, and all I see is just tired people, lost in their own problems.
If the people around me are so lost and tired, how could I look to them to help me?
We all need help.

How laughable.

Or is it?