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Hikakin x Seikin

2012-01-30T08:19:00.000-08:00

ASAWAPAN HIRUWADON YORUWAMEN AH ARIGATO
ASAWAPAN HIRUWADON YORUWAMEN AH OYASUMI
ASAWAPAN HIRUWADON YORUWAMEN MATA ASHITANE

Apparently, the translations:
In the morning is bread.
At noon is pork.
At night is noodles.
Thanks.

Lol. I don't know why I found it hilarious.... Made me smile :D

I Won't Give Up - Jason Mraz

2012-01-09T07:14:00.000-08:00

Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmm ...

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

The sweetest things

2012-01-08T16:51:00.001-08:00

1. When a guy say to a girl: the day i will go on knees to another girl... is the day when I tie the shoelace for our daughter
2. When you're actually married for a long time, and you still have those moments where you just see each other's eyes and then suddenly you can't help but laughing heartily for no apparent reasons that your children thought both of you have become lunatics and could only shake their head in confusions
3. When your head are full of white hairs already but the guy still open the doors for the girl
4. When theey both still walk hand in hand
5. When they know each other so well that they don't have to say anything but the girl understands enough to serve the guy his favorite snacks and drinks in the afternoon
6. When they can finish each other's sentences
7. When they pray together for directions in troubled times

I guess the simple things are what makes it all worths the while...

Happy New Year 2012!!!

2012-01-01T02:05:00.000-08:00

If last Christmas, I spent it in Beijing, eating at some spanish restaurant in the Village and spent new year splendidly at Marriot apartment, playing FO games, taking pictures, videoing, baking cookies, watching movies and waking up in a roomm full of people...

Well, this year unexpectedly I had another memorable events... Bali...
(Oh, Christmas sucks though. Ended up having Christmas eve dinner with some other family and stayed at home during Christmas. Hahaha. But then Bandung was a blast!)

I went without knowing anything and didn't expect anything (considering some of my friends are married with babies). But turns out it's super awesome!

Well... It was uneventful for the first 2 days. A bit disappointing. Then a random idea that somehow becomes reality. Lol. Awesome people I'm hanging out with.

So, there goes our 31st December 2011. Off to Padang Ba'I. With just a change of clothes for the beginners, and a whole luggage full of equipments for th experts/licensed, we reached there at 1pm as promised. Then turns out the DM(dive master) that's supposed to bring us had another guests who were late. So we had to wait for 2 hours. (Painfully long, but definitely worths the wait. Even later when we told our parents, they casually said "it's better to come back home then", one of my friend hastily replied "no way!" Lol. Love! Haha.)

So Dive Master finally came back, we choose our suits, googles, gloves (mine is only half coz the DM wife couldn't find the other half. And it had a hole too. -_- but better than nothing. Haha.) Then off we go to the fishermen boat.

It was raining. And the wave was quite big. So we had to relocate. Then after a 15 min crash course of how to put on your googles (you have to clean it with ypour own spit - yes, spit - then clean it again with sea water), how to breathe under water (never ever forget how to breathe and don't panic!), how to do equalizing (get the pressure out of your ear), how to clear the water if it goes into your mask, how to give signals underwater, etc. Then off we go... Into the water. (Seriously... It was so fast, I didn't even know that we were starting the dive. I thought we were still practicing or something. Lol)

So... Down we went... Corals. Fish. Nemo. Electric Blue fish. Down. Down. Down. Submarines. (Yep, actual submarines diving down. We saw it when we were still above water. Apparently they also dive around the same time as us. Lol.) Changed course. More fish and corals. Fisherman ship wreck, buddhist statues, weird stuffs. Then up, up, up, up we went. Back to the surface. It took us 30 minutes and 19m deep. Apparently with Open Water Licensed (beginner diver) the limit is 18m deep. Well. We don't have it. At least I don't. And another one of my friend. (Apparently I had really good buoyancy and breathes well too. Didn't used up too much oxygen. The gauge says I still had 1500ml of O2 left while another friend was only 1000ml).

I thought that was it (a bit disappointed. So fast >.<) And then apparently we changed location. And second dive begins after 1 hour resting (awesomeee!!!! Ooo. But I was badly dehydrated. Lol. My lungs felt like on fire. Apparently that happens because the O2 we were using is a dfry, compressed one. Hence...)

Second dive... We saw a wall of corals. Up to bottom, all we could see on our right is corals. Blue sea to the left. Lots of weird fishes. Long ones, colorful ones, ikan pari, garden fish that looks like worms, flounder fish that looks exactly like the sand, white-ish plants that opens up and goes red when touched, tubelike plants that closed up when touched... Awesomee... It's a whole different world in there. Amazing... God created one earth, but inside there are multiple worlds than what we know.

Night time, for the first time we bought fireworks and actualy litting it up. Not much, but still beautiful. :)

1st of Jan 2012. Went to the cathedral in the morning. Beautifully made with lots of carvings. They had statues of angels in balinese outfit. Haha! Who knew that angels actually wore kemben? Loll!

After lunch, half heartedly I go for rafting (because it was supposed to be 11 people, then it was down to 7. And I thought we were gooing to a place I've been to before). Smooth drive to the place, quick preparation - life jacket, helmet and an oar in hand. Down we go. Down, down, down to the river. First reaction? Omg, it's brownnn!!! Wth... I'm not touching that water! (Well, it's rafting... So... Lol.)

Again, a crash course on how to raft and off we go. Not a few minutes, suddenly "Mundur! Mundur! Mundur! Stop!" Everyone was confused. Why are we stopping? Then we saw it. A raft supposedly with the most people on it, suddenly empty... People were overboard all over the river. "What? We were just beginning! What happened?"

All three rafts stopped side by side, some containing more people than it should coz of the rescued people. The fourth raft only has 2 people on it. A lady and the local guide. There were only three in our raft, 4 with the guide. So they add one more people from the other raft to balance it out. Oh, there were Russians too. And their knees were bleading. Scrapped by the rocks I assume. Another one had the inside of the mouth injured. Presumably from biting his own mouth due to the shock of falling.

The mom (lady who managed to stay on board) were moved over to our raft. She was still shocked. But after a (long) while she finally calms down and managed to smile and laugh with us. The rest of the journey was "quite" uneventful. (We just had to pass by strong currents with rocks... And do a manuever involving ropes. Lol. Very cool indeed). Oh, another friend fell over because he felt sleepy... ^^" Whatever. Lol.

Anyway... From the past two days, I find myself having trouble with steps (indeed diving and rafting were tirings. But from the rafting, I think it's more from the steps to and from the river to our bus. Lol.)

Anw, off to dinner with kids. Either at Wahaha (sounds like mineral water brand in China that usually has Wang Lee Hom on it) or Potato Head. Whichever.

Man, kids driving me crazy. Running round and round and round.

Anw... Lalalala.

Awesome, Awesome way to end 2011 and start the new year.

Friends

2011-12-23T19:45:00.000-08:00

Kindergarten - went to a far far away school, late everyday, met with this teacher's kid who's very naughty, got picked up by grandparents from dad's side everyday, moved to a closer school, meet up with this really flirty guy on the first day (kindergarten? seriously??? Ckckckck...)

Elementary - Not much I remember except for playing kids games every single day, buying kids magazines and "pets" that always either died or ran away, buying food outside the school compound, "stalking" a popular kid till his house (errr.. my friends dragged me into it. don't get me wrong. i'm not a stalker. lol.), walking back home with a friend without letting parents know, freaking them out, bonding and fighting with parents about friends, separating with friends

Junior high - Moved to a new school, unwillingly. Met new friends, went for study trip to UK

Senior high - had a blast with friends (as always), a series of "Sweet 17s", studying had, playing hard.... Choosing uni, Separations with friends...

University - meet new friends, make new best friends, studying hard, partying hard, living independently, dramas, ups and downs... aspirations, dreams, hopes, uncertainties about the future, graduations... Separations again...

1 Year Hiatus in Jakarta - seriously, I don't really know what I did... Traveling with family? "Helping" out for a bit... Being a great CEO (Chief Expenditure Officer)

China - New friends, new place, new culture, new language, new.... New... Adjustments, survival, bondings, traveling, partying, experiencing life outside of our "normal" life.... Having a blast... Separations with lots of friends... =(

Indo - short trips, road trips.... Unforgettable Lawang Sewu... Merapi.. Solo... Yogya... Bandung....

Thailand - Short get away before Citi

Indo - Working my a** off... Adjusting with new cultures, new people, colleague, creating new connections, generating new experiences, work hard, party harder... New /old friends all together... Priorities... Future... Relationships...

Hummm... My life in a glimpse... Omitting lots and lots of travelings....

Looking back at the pictures... Realized I missed out a lot. On people who I don't really keep in touch with. Realized I'm always sticking to 1 group of people... Always hanging out together with the same people every single day. It was really fun, and really sad to have to move on.... But every time we do, we actually found new pathways that crosses with ours... New memories and a new friend with different background. Interesting.

There are some occasions where I meet new people for the briefest of time. Some I wished would stay to be friends, some... Well... Nothing much we can do about. Haha.

Well, I'm glad, the friends that stayed in my life are all the friends that mattered. =D

LEESSANG (리쌍) _ Turned off the TV (feat. Tasha, Kwon Jungyeol OF 10CM)

2011-12-18T07:57:00.000-08:00

Interesting vid, catchy tunes...

Wished I didn't know the meaning of the lyrics tho. Lol.

@ Bandung

2011-12-10T23:42:00.000-08:00

Slept, ate, shopped, poop, massaged, more shops...

Ahhh...

That's the life mate...

I... Hate... Me....

2011-10-23T01:11:00.000-07:00

I think too much and too little at the same time.

I am confused...

I always envy those with personality,
those with visions,
those who knew for sure what they want, even if it's only for temporary.

I envy those who can held their head up high and walk forward with confidence and certainty.
Who are not fearless but had the courage to face what's ahead

I... Envy.... Those beautiful and strong people, women.
Who are empowering others through their words and actions.
Through their weaknesses and struggles...

I envy...

I am one complicated being.
Confused... and tricky. Mean yet trying to be compassionate. (Lol)
I am but being tossed around in the waves of the oceans... Neither here nor there....

Yet, I am unique and one of a kind.
Beautiful in my own way I guess? Or at least I would love to think that.
(See... I am confused... I hate me yet I would love to think I am beautiful. Lol.)

Sometimes I think I am wearing a mask, living a life that is not me.
Yet what is me?

I am a wreck. I am a mess.

Yet sometimes we found diamonds inside the tangle of mess.

I am waiting... Looking.. For that diamond.

Maybe I have found it but it hasn't looked beautiful yet because it hasn't been shaped?
Maybe I haven't found it at all?
We'll see...

10 years, 20 years, 30 years....

Will that diamond ever shine?

Room to breathe

2011-08-24T09:37:00.000-07:00

He is awesome! In more than ways than one.

He opened up ways when I was stuck and down and helpless.
He gives me treats even when I don't ask for it.
When I don't even dare thinking about it.
He celebrates when I feel like there's nothing to celebrate, just to please me.
Just to tell me, I'm here... I haven't forgotten about you... And I hope you haven't forgotten about me too.
Remember this? It's our sign together. It's our memories together. It's our symbol.
Just like the rainbow is to Noah....
And where would I be without Him?

Truly, He is majestic!
And my life is filled with abundance of blessings.
Loving, caring, tender, romanticists... Him...

It's like I'm being "bribed", no, that's not the word....
What is the word I'm looking for?

Loved... There is no other way to describe it.

I wish.... There is a guy like Him for me out there...
Tho it's kind of impossible. Haha. Coz there is only one Him in the whole world.
And yet He is everyone's.
And He is everywhere... Anywhere...

He is a lover to all.... With plenty to share...
Too much to contain...
That there is no room for jealousy... Or is there?

Forgive my rambling.

Work has been hectic.
And I haven't had time for myself at all lately.
Now that I finally got one.
I am overflowed and awed, without even realizing it.
It just came flooding.
Flooding...

I'm flooded.

2011-06-19T09:02:00.000-07:00

What does it mean if u thought u see someone and u goes "dheg!"?

Kuterpaku

2011-05-29T08:35:00.000-07:00

Dalam rembulan, dalam cah'ya mentari
Di gelap badai dan indahnya pelangi
Dalam tangisan dan wajah berseri
Kan kutemukan kasih terbesar bagi dunia ini

Diam, kuterpaku dan ku takjub
Akan kasihMu yang tergores indah
Dalam anug'rah, hatiku milikMu
Indah, kuterkagum dan kubawakan hidupku
Kau membuat hatiku menjadi baru
Bahagiaku mengenalMu

Coward

2011-05-29T05:56:00.000-07:00

Again, I am faced with reality, reality of me being a coward.

I am not as brave as I thought. And I always try to find the easy way out, without considering the consequences.
In the end, I am the one who regrets. Regret of the possibility of hurting other people and their trusts.
Regret of not taking the time to calm down, to be overwhelmed by the situation instead of controlling it.
To let Him be in control...

I found this stage of life is the hardest so far. Not because of other people, but because of myself.
To be face to face with your own weakness, to be responsible, to hold yourself accountable.
It is hard. It is hard...

I have learnt not to blame other people. But I still want to run away. And the worry is troublesome. It's crushing me.
Sometimes I feel like I am alone, doing everything alone, despite of many many many support surrounding me.
People who says to me, I'm not alone That they're there to help me, to support me.
And I feel useless because I feel like I failed them. I may not know what they expect from me, what they see.
But I feel like I should have done things better, should be able to use time more wisely, efficiently.
Should be in control.

But there's that balance that I have to find. I've been going from one end to the other end.
Ever clueless of where is the real balance that I should be at.

Well, again... I shout to the Lord. Help me! Guide me! I need You! I need You!
And again, without fail, He brings me peace. But I keep on worrying, for I am a coward still.
It is at this moment I remember Jesus rebukes "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?"
And again I am being reminded. This stage is hard, not because I am held accountable by men, but in front of God.
In front of God... I have failed. That's the hardest of them all. The hardest to bear...
To know that I failed You. Big times...

But He is kind. Ever merciful. He is the one who has been leading me. And He is showing me the way.
At this moment, it is my time to find my meaning in life, to find my purpose, my calling, to ask for my part.
To be readied for it.

Even though it is hard, but He is opening the ways for me. And I will march forward. Yes, I will...
I am scared still but the peace of the Lord will guard my mind and heart. As He has promised...

Yes, I will hold on to His promises. I will cling on it for my life. For You are my strength, my one and only.

Lord, in You i put all my hope. In You.... I will rely on. In You, I know everything will be perfect, just the way You want it.
And it will be for me.... And I will look forward to it. I am looking forward to it. The process is painful but I will see Your glory shines at the end of this race. And the pain will be nothing...

Thank You Lord.
When I am weak, You make me strong(er).

Love

2011-05-20T13:14:00.001-07:00

Glory

2011-05-20T13:03:00.000-07:00

"Compliments" that people said

2011-05-14T12:20:00.000-07:00

01. You're cute!
02. You're pretty!
03. You're like a Korean (?) - I'm assuming this a good thing coz Korean people are famous for their beauties right? Lol.
04. You're lika a Japanese doll
05. Dia cewe banget ya?
06. You're like Yuna (as in the chara from FFX - I know... So otaku! Lol.)
07. You're funny!
08. You're so innocent.
09. You have a baby face.
10. You've changed so much! (In a better way... Tho unsure what way. Lol.)
11. You look so much like your mom.
12. You have a "golden" hand (or something of that sort)
13. You have nice handwritings.
14. You smell nice.
15. You're so kind.

Well.... Which one do you think is the weirdest? Lol.
And which one you would like to receive?

If you are to give compliments, which one you'll say the most?

This is my time

2011-05-14T12:05:00.000-07:00

This is my moment.

Others have been trained and burnt.

Now this is my turn.

And I will not yield.

It is painful but I will not give up nor run away.

Yes. I will stand still and be proved!

That I am indeed the chosen beloved.

Sudden thought

2011-05-14T12:00:00.000-07:00

How great would it be... If when I look at "my boyfriend's" face and I remember You instead.
How awesome would it be... If when I'm with "him", I desire You even more...

I think I'm screwed....

Don't you think I'm screwed?

Falling deeper and deeper in love. Longing for more... Aching for more...

Longing to see You face to face...

(Reading at it again, I feel like I'm planning to "cheat" on my future boyfriend. If I ever get one. Lol.)

In Better Hands

2011-05-14T10:22:00.000-07:00

It's hard to stand on shifting sand
It's hard to shine in the shadows of the night
You can't be free if you don't reach for help
And you can't love if you don't love yourself
But there is hope when my faith runs out
Coz I'm in better hands now

It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down
It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground
And so take this heart of mine, there's no doubt
I'm in better hands now

I am strong all because of You
I'll stand in awe of every mountain that You moved
For I am changed, yesterday is gone
I am saved from this moment on

There's no fear when the night comes round
I'm in better hands now

It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down
It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground
And so take this heart of mine, there's no doubt
I'm in better hands now

It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down
It's like my soul is flying but my feet are on the ground
It's like the world is silent though I know it isn't true
It's like the breath of Jesus is right here in this room

And so take this heart of mine, there's no doubt
I'm in better hands now

Reflecting back....

2011-05-13T12:16:00.000-07:00

I start my job at April 11. First week was totally nothing.
April 18, I got my first real project. First week of that project is spent by reading agreements and getting to know their products while waiting for them to find me a desk and a PC to work on.
By April 25, I was making chart flows of the sales process of their current IOM and by the end of that week, I left the first part and work on the second "urgent" part.
By May 2, I was running around buildings for stupid trainings and looking for people (damn... If they didn't force me to take the trainings, It'd have been much much much better.)
By May 9, I'm already underway of planning, proposing (rejected) and doing the whole thing for product launching that were supposed to be due on May 15th.
By Today (May 13th), I have given up and proposed a two weeks time extensions while going crazy with the preparations.

By Monday (May 15th). Probably I will be killed by my other supervisors because I can't fulfill her datelines.
Oh and not to mention that everything might fail.

On a cooler notes, in one week and a lil bit of a half, I worked my ass off and managed to start preparation for product launching that should be launched in two weeks time. Meaning it took me a almost a month to launch a product.

Is that a good one? How come I get the feeling that my supervisor (the other supervisor that I haven't work with closely) is not too happy on me. -_- Damn....

Lord, the next two weeks.... I think it will all be Your miracles only. Much like the previous month actually.

Oh gosh... I'm going crazy....

Well... I survived so far....

Lord, gimme the strength to keep on running....

Mission Impossible

2011-05-12T08:33:00.000-07:00

Objective:
- To launch sales on Monday next week

Time left:
- 4 days (excluding weekends: 1 day)

Needed:
- Trained sales
- System to enroll
- System to process enrollment
- Data format

Completed:
- None

Time needed to develop:
- 7 days
- 8 days
- 14 days
- 2 days

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Comment: I love my job.

(U think?)

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Aren't we glad that there's nothing impossible for our God?

Tho I'd really need miracles for the above to happen. Hah! Yeah... Weeeeeeeee.......!

I believe He'll open up ways even though it won't be easy. And I'm willing to go for it.
With His guidance and strength and wisdom...

I am weak, yet I am strong! I'll never give up! Fightinnnngggg!!!!!
Nothing is impossible! Yosh!

"Third week"

2011-05-07T00:56:00.000-07:00

Very eventful.... Was first time spending the whole day at another building. Meeting up and chat with a lot of interesting people, getting stressed out because have to meet with people with unclear concept of questions that I have to ask. Making flow charts of the end-to-end process, making system's layout, asking for authorization, being yelled at, overcoming the situations. From very stressing because feeling so unproductive because have to be in a different building doing stuffs that I felt unimportant. To feeling very stressed because there is soo much to do with soo little time. It's been a very interesting week so far.

The one thing I'm regretting is probably my way of handling stuffs. My "I-don't-want-to-get-into-anyone's-bad-side" personality and so my "running-away-without-solving-the-problem". Sigh. After I think about it, I think I said the wrong thing. Because I don't understand my position better. I should not have done that. I should have done this.

But what's done, is done. I'm learning to learn my position, to use whatever I have in hand to achieve my mission. (Yeah! It's my project! And I'm being given the power to handle it. So need to use it, can't really be a "peace-maker" can I? It's actually generating problem for some other people. Lol.)

Ah well... But yeah... Prolly this is the most interesting week so far, coz I got to implement what I learnt so far - though still have a lot more to learn...

Still thanking God every single day for His amazing encouragements. =) Surely nothing is 'accidental' for Him. Hahaha.

Off for now.

Things that I (am learning to) love

2011-05-03T10:53:00.000-07:00

When I was unemployed:
- I love the friends that I met back in (both) Unis
- I love the simple life style outside of Indonesia
- I love the independence and carefree way of life
- I love struggling everyday with new language
- I love hanging out with my friends (when they're around. Lol.)
- I love staying by myself and having time for myself
- I love waking up late (when possible)
- I love going out with my parents
- I love driving whenever, wherever (avoiding traffic hours of course)
- I love having lunch and dinner with my family
- I love shopping with them too
- I love just being together with them (when they're not talking about me or angry at something)
- I love laying around in my room, browsing my net

When I am employed:
- I love waking up in the morning and being grateful each and everyday because I'm not late
- I love being driven to the office so that I can prepare my work in the car (or sleep, whichever I want)
- I love having an old PC and not being able to send my work outside of the office (a reason of having my work stay in the office)
- I love having to travel to different buildings with public transport (a.k.a taxi)
- I love thanking God for the ease of finding public transport just in time when I need it
- I love meeting up with new people and just talk with them, learning what they do (while learning what I have to learn too. Lol.)
- I love knowing that I have a job that I can do (i.e when I know how to do it exactly)
- I love being involved in, and considered in as part of the team
- I love being in a meeting (that doesn't involve giving me more jobs that I already has. Lol.)
- I love just to be able to do my job alone in my desk with my old PC with my earphone on
- I love having access in and out everywhere and anywhere! (Not yet though. Soon! Lol.)
- I love having the free parking thingy
- I love being able to just walk from one building to another (usually for lunch or meeting at a coffee shop, granted when my heels aren't killing me)
- I love knowing that I have friends in different buildings and different areas
- I love to get to know fellow workers around my age
- I love my kind supervisors who are helpful yet allowing me to grow with my own way and giving me chances to do stuffs (or more like it's one of our requirements? Lol.)
- I love the simple snacks and small talks while working
- I love making new friends
- I love the "Hanging-Out-Together-After-Work-Fridays"
- I love knowing that I have a lot to do (even though I'm still clueless in some parts)
- I love knowing that I'm learning a lot of stuffs and that by the end of this project, I will know the end-to-end process of the business section I'm in
- I love the occasional refreshing moments available

So I am (learning to) lov(ing) a whole lots of stuffs. Stuffs that I might not realize before and stuffs that I'm realizing now.
But the thing that I love the most is the realization (and simple gratitude feeling each day) that through everything I have Him by my side. Renewing me every single day. Giving me strength through out the day to help me do whatever I have to do. Knowing that everything that is good from me is from Him. That I'm not running the race alone. That He will provide ways for me. Opening up doors at the right moments, amazing me and make me wonder. At the same time, not only make me a survivor but someone who is able to strife and be the best that I can be.

You're the greatest! Love You!

Second week

2011-04-19T19:04:00.000-07:00

Terlantar without desk nor computer. Can't do job properly. Feeling so confused and left out and overwhelmed with the stuffs that I supposed to do.

Yesterday I was overwhelmed with all the contracts that I have to read. Bah, even when my mom handed me her contracts, I was only half reading it. And yesterday they want me to look at contracts on 6 huge huge folders???

Surprisingly, I did it.... ^^"

And today, I'm supposed to use the computer to tidy up all the datas that I have. Apparently I couldn't coz they still don't have any space/desk/phone/computer to give to me. So I'm still in my temporary space, trying to find out what else I can do without a computer. While thinking of the prospects of what I should achieve by the end of this project (which was still a dreadful because I'm so clueless still.)

But if I just stop to think about it, actually it's great... Being an MA. I can see all the details that I want and see the overview of how things works in that particular divisions (or more like I have to, that's my job. Lol. To see the overall stuffs and make recommendations to improve/get additional products/whatever they want me to do. Lol.) So after the dread, comes excitement. Maybe I'm getting it, little by little. (Very little...) This is kinda what I wanted before... Just... Before, everything was on my mind. Now it's becoming reality. Wow. Hoping I can finish this project well. (I hope I know what I'm doing... ^^")

A sense of accomplishment after finishing the first, small, unofficial project (tomorrow is the report's due date... So we have to finish up today for that one no matter we like it or not). That little project has made this second week rougher (the reason why I came back soooo late on my first official day working on my first official project - or my second project as of now and also the reason why I slept soooo late for 3 consecutive days while waking up soooo early in the morning. Average sleeping time 4-5 hours. Gonna fix that soon!)

I managed to keep my record of being in the office at 8am, even though I've been going out of the house later and later (each by 20 minutes different). i wonder how that happens? Anyway, even so, I still feel like I've been arriving in the office too early... ^^"

Been separated with my fellow MAs - the one from the same batch as me. Unable to mix well with other colleagues. That's bad of me... ^^" Need to hone my social skills. Ahhh.. This is killing me... I hope I can find new friends that I'm comfy with soon.

Oh, my spv is apparently my bro's friend. A day after we (bro and I) found out - which is today - I found out that she knew too. Funny story. Such a coincidence. Not that it'd change anything. I think... But I think she's been great to me. Like guiding me and stuffs. I wonder if it's because she knew I'm my bro's sister? Hum... But I think she's basically a nice person. Thank God!

Anw, need sleep. Bad. Ciao!

晚安！

Work

2011-04-07T08:03:00.000-07:00

Hummm... I really wonder if it's a good choice of work... Despite it was really positive in the beginning (I was kinda excited for the job) but ever since the last two huge scandal that made it through all the papers in Indo, this is kinda questionable. I just read the continuation of the scandals in the paper today and they just denied everything away... (At least they did in the one that I read in) and they still can't solve the cases.. The person I'm supposed to meet tomorrow happened to be quoted in the newspaper too, and I was wondering whether he can still meet up tomorrow, I was expecting they'll cancel it what with all the callings to attend the court and stuffs. And my guess was correct. When i checked my email after i got back, they sent another email saying they're postponing it... Hummm... And my bro said that there's a possibility that they'll take away their right to operate in Indo or something and close the bank down... (I don't know where he got the info). Possibility of me being jobless again? Even before I start doing the job. Lol.

Plus E&Y's work offer/interview with user is still standing too. At least they're going to call back on Monday to set up interview with me... i think... But Monday is my official working day... So.. Humm.... Clash clash... *Kachinggg...*

Ironic... It was supposed to be one of the best job offer that I got... Until the scandals crashed in. I wonder why the great timing? What should I do? Sigh.

Employ-ment, -ed...

2011-04-01T09:00:00.000-07:00

Great! Perfect timing! The same week I sign my contract, suddenly my place of employment has been the hot topic in the news - twice! Yeah! And not about good stuffs too. But the bad stuffs... Seriously... How can they choose a very perfect timing like this?

First one is the embezzlement of customers' accounts, worths a min of Rp. 20 billion. Second would the debt collectors who caused customer's death... Third probably is the involvement in money laundry-ing, even though this one is not exactly the bank's fault...

Wow... Huge cases right before I officially starts there. What a great welcoming news...

"Welcome to nightmare" part 2?

Realization

2011-03-27T08:04:00.000-07:00

I just realized something...

A few months before, when I was still wondering what I should do next, whether to continue in another city in China or go study abroad at another country or just simply go back, I was really considering to go to Japan.

And really, Daddy has been taking really good care of me.

Can you imagine if mom didn't object?

I would have been seriously preparing for Japan. And prolly by Feb/March this year, already am in japan.
Anddd... I would have experienced the huge earthquake, the tsunami, the no electricity... Freezing with rationed food prolly?
Wow... I'm... "Glad"?

But... It kinda made me wonder. What would my life be like, if since the beginning I chose Japan over China?
Maybe, just maybe... It'll be the other way around. i'll stay a year in Japan and then I'll be in China now. Coz obviously I don't think mom will object over me going to China at all. Even if I only take language as my course.
And maybe... Just maybe.. I'll be hating China even more than before, when I first tried to settle there.
Haha. And would be very concern for my 'friends' in Japan. But at least I would have been able to stay in my 'admired' country.
After all, out of all, except Indo and China... Or even compared to those, Japan has been the one country that has left a lot of impact in my life. What with all the comics and dramas and music and whatever else I've been exposed to since I was a kid. Lol.

The point is? I think most of the decisions I made is, once again, related to "what I really want" and "what would have been useful". "Practicality" over "Passion?". I think... If I have to make decisions again in the future for my self. The topic won't be too far away from that. Andd... I'll be wondering again...

Which one is more important? Something that "will be useful in the future but you don't really like" or something that "you really like but might not be as useful"? Can somebody tell me the answer to that?

On another note, I realized something else. I posted this entry on the wrong blog before. Lol. Ah well...

"Officially" in Citi

2011-03-23T22:22:00.000-07:00

"Where do you work?"
"At Citi in the city"
(a friend told another friend of where I work)

So I signed the contract, I did the medical check ups, I wrote my bio and now... I'm just waiting for next Tuesday to come up...
We're gonna go over the little details of all the necessary stuffs. Like opening a bank account in Citi, getting the health card, applying for credit cards, etc. And the official first day would be 11th of April.

Humm... I can't help but thinking they might still able to reject me prior to the first day because of the MCU results. Lol. Well.. Let's just hope that my result shows that I'm trully 100% healthy. Lol.

So now, I'm an employee, huh? I have "signed my life away" and been unofficially "welcomed to nightmares". Lol. I really can't help but feel the next 3 years won't be easy on me. I think I'm fated to always got everything easy (like I normally got it fast) but afterwards, it will be one hell of a journey, one that I will not forget for the rest of my life. This will be interesting. Haha. It's always like this. But life is never that easy, even though I've claimed that life indeed has been good to me. Haha.

Anyway... I wonder what will I be in the future. The terms 'employee' doesn't really sound right in my ear. I mean, for now, I feel like Citi is the right place for me. But... Maybe not to spend my whole life there. And not in banking industry too. I don't know... Let's see how things go. Everything hasn't even started yet... Lol. Thinking too far ahead?

So... Let's just wait and see...

Meanwhile... I'm hungry. I wanna eat.

Simple man

2011-03-19T10:18:00.000-07:00

Keep on keepin' on believin'
You've never given me a reason to drop my faith
and I won't leave you
just for the sake of leavin'
Cause I got every reason to stay

It's a good little time to settle down my world
But you took a hold of me
And then I told you
I promise to stand for you
But you gotta tell me what's it gonna be

Yeah yeah

I'm just a simple man
A little part of a bigger plan
everything that gives me worth, God, it's you
So take the rest of me
Cause you got the best of me
Everything good in me comes from you

God all of me hides in you
Oh God my home is your hands
Within me, into the world you send me
now I gotta tell the truth to everyone that I can
Yeah yeah

I'm just a simple man
A little part of a bigger plan
everything that gives me worth, God, it's you
You you
So take the rest of me
Cause you got the best of me
Everything good in me comes from you

I'm just a simple man
A little part of a bigger plan
everything that gives me worth, God, it's you
So take the rest of me
Cause you got the best of me
Everything good in me comes from you

I say
Anything good in me comes from You
Keep on, keepin' on believin'

Lazy

2011-03-19T09:53:00.001-07:00

"I'm lazy. I work now so that I don't have to work later and just lazying around."

Do you think s/he's a lazy person?

2011-03-19T09:28:00.000-07:00

Somehow I can't wait till I start working. Right now it all feels kind of exciting. Lol. New shoes, new clothes, new people, new experiences... Waa!

And it's sooo nice to hear people's encouragement for the job. Well, it's not gonna be easy job for sure but it's one of the best out there (soooo they said...) Well, I'm just thankful that God opened up the way for me. Even though I've made lots of mistakes during the process. (I mean I did answered all the questions of the interview. But apparently I did it 'lousyly'. Or so my HRD friend said. Lol. If their boss heard my answer at that time, they'll cross my name straight away. Wow...) So sometimes I felt like this job is not that hard to get. But then hearing people talk bout it, apparently it's not that easy too. Haha. So all I have is my thanks to our beloved Daddy...

Well, so far the work part is 'covered'. Next is still community and future partner. I guess it's time to shift my attention to that. Haha. Life's circle... Never run far away from the 'norms'. So... Looking forward what's stored next. =D Yeah!

Meanwhile... I think I need to hone my socializing skills. Again, I crashed my friend's party. I knew 5 people out of... 60? And they're alll busy with their friends. Weeee... It's hard to just join a group. And no one really to talk to. So 'garing'. Tho I'm fine if it's only one on one conversation. But having to sit at a table full of strangers are just... Overwhelming. Not to mention the strange outfit and feeling of out of place. In the end, resorts to iPhone (thank you Lord for the iPhone) and just enjoying the live music while playing. But I guess it's just me... Ahh... But they all know everyone (I think). It's just meee...

Wait, when I'm with my own school friends, I think I felt bored too. Humm.. Maybe coz I was sitting at the wrong position. Surrounded by guysss.. With their talk of games and economics/politics/whatever it is guys usually talk about. Sigh. Is it just me? I think it's me right? I need to watch the news and read the paper more often. Haha. Ah well...

Skip Beat!

2011-03-17T00:51:00.000-07:00

Omg... I just found out they already made the movie for skip beat!!!! With Siwon (the Choi Siwon), Donghae, Jerry Yan and Ariel Lin as the casts....

U've got to be kidding me!!! Waaa!!!!

Oh ralat.. They dump Jerry yan as the male lead (phew.. No offence, but I never really like the guy.. Lol. His pineapple head leave too deep of an impression in my head.. Lol.)

And it's not aired yet. Boooo! I thought they're already done making it.. Gpp deh... Hahahaha.. Llalalala..

There's always something...

2011-03-16T19:38:00.000-07:00

When I went to junior high:
"Mungkin yg ngetes salah ngeliat, hasilnya orang lain di kirain hasilnya nih anak. Jadi bisa masuk."

When I went to uni:
"Gila nih anak, udah mw bayar buat USyd tiba2 ditelpon UNSW, dpt kbr masuk. Bisa pas lagi tulis ceknya salah. Jadi dibalikin sama banknya."

When I got my first official job:
"Mungkin mereka salah persepsi kali? Sertifikat ke Cina lo dikirain S2."

Lol! Thanks a lot guys! You made my life so full of possibilities! Woohoo!!!

Jayus

2011-03-16T09:56:00.000-07:00

I was singing "Singing in the rain" and it really rained... Sigh... 上帝，你在跟我开玩笑吗？

Ah well, whatever...

"I'm singing in the rainn.. Just singing in the rainnn... What a gloriouss feelingg.. And I'm happpyyy again..."

Lol!

Results...

2011-03-16T09:43:00.001-07:00

I got a jobb!!!! I'm not jobless anymore!!! Waaaa!!! Thank you Lord!!!! And right on time too!!!
Waahahahaha..

Emang rencanaNya ga pernah terlambat atau kecepetan yah! Lol.

So the story was, my mom came to my room along with my credit card bills... Guess what? My a/c right now only has 3 something mill. And my credit card bill is 3 something mill. Wow! Perfect match! Weeeee!!! Annnnddddddd.... I'm broke...

Sigh...

So I was forced to withdraw some cash from some other accounts... Just to make sure i can pay my bills. This is crazy. This never happens to me before... I guess this is it hey? The life of a full adult. Cash to earn... Bills to pay... Things to buy... Never ending cycle. The worry... But.. At least I don't have to worry about rent. Or gas.. Yet... I wonder how I'll go about to work later. Hum..

And then.. While I was trying to confirm that they've received my fax for cash withdrawal (so hard to call them!), suddenly Citi called. I mean, i got a miss call earlier, but I wasn't sure who it was. Sooo... When I took the call (while still on call with the other people) Citi's HR were saying, "okay, we're offering you the job, are you still interested?" me: "yep." (hell yeah! i am interested!!!). And sooo.. It's decided i'm gonna go on Monday to the office to sign my contracctt.. Weeee!!!! And another 'friend' that i met during the interview got in too. And my junior from high school too (I met some people that I kinda 'know' while doing the interview. What a small world...) Waaaa!!! And my friend who's in Citi, albeit not in Indonesia - lol, promised me it's gonna be tough but it's gonna be fun... Sounds good to me! Haha.

Sooo.. I've got bills to pay... But I hope from this I can pay my bills too... And I don't have to worry and borrow money from my parents or something like that. Yayy!!! Such great timing! Thoughh.. Have to limit myself from shopping. Hahaha.

Sooo.. During this...one month? Hum.. I got back to Indonesia at the end of Jan? Two months.. Or.. One and a half.. I've been accepted by 2 banks, screwed one work appointment, and (I'm guessing) will be rejected once (or twice? Actually... I think I've been rejected by a lot of companies... They just didn't bother to contact me anymore. Lol.) Not bad hey? Actually it's kinda too smooth and too fast... No? Scary! ^^" So I wonder what's in store for me next.. Hahaha...

Next in line: Looking for community. Hummm... Where should I commit myself to??? Hum....

'Reunion'

2011-03-12T09:06:00.002-08:00

I met up with my "old" friends from Sydney. "Old" because well, they brought someone that I don't know either. Lol. But I'm glad. I met up with this girl who's in HSBC's MT program. And from her, I heard news about MTs and banking. Apparently... Citibank's MA program is one of the best there is. At least in Indonesia. And it's quite hard too. But then afterwards you'll surely get lots and lots of experiences. And the pay is decent too. Weeee!!! Now I'm excited. Well, but yeah... There's still that problem of waiting. I don't know if I do get the job or not. And whether the contract will be okay or not. Waiittinnngggg.. Waiittiinnnggg...

On another note, it's back to finally go to some 'community' here, back in Jkt. I hope I can find somewhere that's suitable and easy to reach. Then it'd be awesome! I'll be back on the 'right' track. I hope I can adjust back to the people back in Indo. Humm.. Lately I seem to have a bad mood that's kinda affecting my way of dealing with people. So not good. =( So today was actually a really nice day to take a day off from the bad mood. Hahaha. Hopefully this will continue till forever!

Let's join a choir!

God is good

2011-03-11T09:24:00.001-08:00

No matter what...

The day before...

2011-03-10T11:30:00.000-08:00

I've just finished doing my slides for the coming presentation. I don't feel like it's the best. Like, I might be able to improve on it, but I can't be bothered. Lol. Anw, i've sent the soft copy so nothing else I can do except to wait until tomorrow.

Well... What was I thinking? Oh yeah, suddenly I remembered the lines "Life's been easy on me". I think so too. Hahaha. After all, i've never really felt any such depression that I feel it's hopeless (except uni? Lol. I don't know. Somehow if I think back, probably uni was the hardest moment of my life. China comes second? Lol.)

I was just thinking back to our interviews, when I had to mention that actually, in my second year of uni my grades drop. And then they asked, why? And all I had for my answers was just "I don't know actually. I'm not quite sure why, maybe I was having a lot of pressure at that time. But I bounced back on my third year." Now that I'm thinking about it, probably those were the years that we had issues about ourselves. Our identity. Our confident with our own existence and being. The purpose. And about who we are. I mean, don't get me wrong. I still struggle with those (heck, you can see them through out my whole posts. It always relates to me finding the new me. "Chuckles*) But those moments probably were our moments of crisis, where we were still unsure of everything. Of what we've achieved, of what's haunting us in the past, of the current us at the time, of the upcoming futures that was running fast to catch us, while we're still confused of who we are individually, as a person. What was/is our capabilities? Where are our limits? Or whether we've reached our limits? What are our purpose? Those and yeah, we were on a whole different world from families who normally back us up. We have to face everything "alone". No one to really depends on. (Tho I'm lucky enough to have my friends who are very supporting and encouraging. Yeah!)

Well.. Now, after a few days, suddenly I think, maybe that's why I was so... struggling in my second year of unis. Apparently I have had "real issues" that I had to deal with without me realizing it. Lol. So random. And you know, right now, the moments where we're looking for work. I'm wondering... Usually it's another "great moments" for struggles. Lol. Will I have it easy again? (Tho I sure hope so. :P) Maybe my challenge will come when I've already found one, instead of when I'm looking for one. Humm... Kinda scary.. But hey, "in You I found courage". So whatever there is, let it comes... Let the 'fun' begins! =D

Mid-Results

2011-03-09T04:27:00.000-08:00

Was half hoping and half agonizing. Even tho I felt fine right after, but the more I think about it, the more I felt stupid. As if I've disclosed too many unimportant information, I've said too many things that I shouldn't or needn't say. Tho everything I said was true and comes from the bottom of my heart. But still, too much.. Prolly it's because of my nature to not say anything that I deemed unrelated/unimportant/unnecessary to the topic in questions. Anyway, considering all in all, it was actually quite smooth. I wasn't really nervous or anything. And I could answer all the questions asked, albeit some of the answers I just made it up on the spot. Lol. That's the first interview.

The second was the test. English test? Hum, not too hard but a little bit tricky because I think sometimes they have two answers. But hey, I'm never one that's great with grammar. So maybe I was wrong. The second part was our beloved "Principles of Accounting". Hah! I knew I couldn't do it from the start. I mean, they all look familiar, sure. I think I've learnt this before, like one of the professors in uni have mentioned it. But to remember the exact things that they said? Haha. Like I paid attention...

Well, anyway. So I was confident at first (tho gave up on EY already. Lol.) but as time goes, I feel more and more hopeless for citibank. Lol. I wonder why? Anyway, today, at 6pm, I finally got the email! And I passed! Weee!!! A presentation left to do (ugh, the thing I hate the most!) and I'm done. I just have to wait again. Lalalalala.

The whole thing felt like a miracle. I'm actually quite sure I wanna be in Citibank, I don't know why. Comparing to the other companies I've applied to. Well, all in all, I believe I owe everything up to Him. My trip to China wasn't a waste after all. Because I feel that if I didn't go there, I wouldn't be the me right now. Even though I can't really pin point what changed, but I know for sure, the me right now is different from the me before, when I was a "real" fresh graduate, two years ago. Haha... And I thank God because He's been good to me, all this time, always, forever. Undescribable... He's great, He's awesome! He's... who He is... Wonderful.. Mighty... Powerful... My strength... My deliverer... My... Mine... Forever...

Whatever is coming next, I may not know. But I do know, that I'm not alone, that I have my Saviour with me always. And That what keeps me going. Yeah.

Ugh..

2011-03-04T10:31:00.000-08:00

I'm currently sad because everyone's leaving me already... Well, lucky I still have some high school friends over here, but even then, only one of them are really close friends. And she might be leaving me soon too! =(

And I'm anxious because of all the sudden job 'offers' that come my way... I was anxious because I had none before..
Now that they're coming (granted only 2) but still... I'd like to give em my best and I don't want to fail. But after that then what?
And will I be able to survive at all?

And then I don't even know what to expect, what to do, I've noooo idea at all. Sigh. What should I dooooo???????

When Panin called, this didn't happen at all. And I was going there half heartedly.... Answering questions just from whatever comes to mind... And whatever, I don't really care attitude.. Now.... Sigh.. I guess the jobs coming my way now have more... value.. for me than Panin. Lol. I feel bad too.. Coz I still haven't reject them properly... Because I still don't know whether I'm going to reject or not. U know, worst comes to worst, it'd be nice if I still have that one job to fall back to. But how long can this be??? Hummm...

Latest news...

2011-03-04T10:09:00.000-08:00

Dear GCG MA Candidates,

Congratulations ! You are now 1 step closer from the successful pathway as Citi Indonesia GCG Management Associates. You are invited to attend the panel interviews which take place with the following details:

Date : Monday, March 7, 2011

Time : 8:30 am to 9:15 am : Dxxx, MMM, DDi, EBG, AMP, Amanda S... W.....
9:15 am to 10:00 am: xxxxx
10:00 am to 10:45 am: xxxxx

Venue : Four Seasons Hotel, Palm Court 3, mezzanine floor Jl. HR. Rasuna Said, Kuningan, Jakarta Selatan

Important Notes:
- You will meet with 3 MA Committee for a 15 minutes interview time with each Panelist
- Dress code for interviews: suit and tie for male candidates. Suit for female candidates
- Please arrive at least 15 minutes before your allocated interview time.

The Finalist Candidates will be contacted by email on Tuesday, March 8, 2011 for further advice on how to proceed with the final selection process which will take place on Friday, March 11, 2011 from 1 pm to 5 pm in Plaza Bapindo, Citibank Tower, 8th floor. Please make sure you check your email on regular basis.

Please reply to this email to xxx@citi.com and xxx@citi.com as a confirmation of attendance from you.
See you there and Good Luck !!!

Regards,

Axxxx Fxxxxx
Citibank N.A., Indonesia
Human Resources
Organizational Learning and Development

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Dear Applicant,

Thank you for your interest to join Ernst and Young Indonesia. In regards to your application, we would like to invite you for preliminary assessment to fill junior tax consultant position in our company. Please find the detail as per below:

Day/Date: Tuesday, 08 March 2011

Time: 13:15 - 15:30

Venue: Ernst & Young office
Training Room
Indonesia Stock Exchange (Bursa Efek Indonesia) Building, Tower 1, 12th floor
Jl. Jend. Sudirman Kav. 52-53
Jakarta 12190

Agenda: 13:15 - 13:30 Registration & application form
13:30 - 14:30 English Assessment
14:30 - 15:00 Accounting Principles Assessment

Requirements: Minimum GPA 3.00, Major Accounting.
Please bring your CV, transcript academic, certificate, recent photo, stationary (e.g. pen, pencil etc) and calculator.

Your confirmation by replying this email will be highly appreciated.

Thank you & best regards

Ps. Please come 15 minutes earlier, for registration.

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The questions right now would be, will I be able to make it? And if I do, which one should I choose??? Sigh... So much at such a period of time... I'm still trying to process all of this.. And Panin's still on hold too... What should I do with that? And Sinarmas... I think I blew that one off tho...

Hiu Kecil

2011-02-18T08:33:00.000-08:00

Untuk masakan Jepang, kita tahu bahwa ikan salmon akan lebih enak utk dinikmati jika ikan tsb masih dalam keadaan hidup saat hendak diolah utk disajikan.
Jauh lebih nikmat dibandingkan dgn ikan salmon yg sdh diawetkan dgn es.

Itu sebabnya para nelayan selalu mmasukkan salmon tangkapannya ke suatu kolam buatan agar dlm perjalanan menuju daratan salmon2 tsb tetap hidup.

Meski demikian pada kenyataannya byk salmon yg mati di kolam buatan tsb.

Bagaimana cara mereka menyiasatinya?
Para nelayan itu memasukkan seekor hiu kecil dikolam tsb.
Ajaib !! Hiu kecil tsb “memaksa” salmon2 itu terus bergerak agar jgn sampai dimangsa.
Akibatnya jumlah salmon yg mati justru menjadi sangat sedikit !!

Diam membuat kita mati ! Bergerak membuat kita hidup !
Barangkali kurang lebih itulah pesan moral yg dpt kita tangkap dari gambaran diatas.

Apa yg membuat kita diam?
Saat tdk ada masalah dlm hidup dan saat kita berada dlm zona nyaman.

Situasi seperti ini kerap membuat kita terlena. Begitu terlenanya sehingga kita tdk sadar bahwa kita telah mati.
Ironis, bukan?

Apa yg membuat kita bergerak?
Masalah, Pergumulan dan Tekanan Hidup.
Saat masalah datang secara otomatis naluri kita membuat kita bergerak aktif dan berusaha mengatasi semua pergumulan hidup itu

Disaat saat seperti itu biasanya kita akan ingat Tuhan dan berharap kpd Tuhan. Tdk hanya itu, kita menjadi kreatif, dan potensi diri kitapun menjadi berkembang luar biasa !!

Ingatlah bahwa kita akan bisa belajar byk dlm hidup ini bukan pada saat keadaan nyaman, tapi justru pada saat kita menghadapi badai hidup.

Itu sebabnya syukurilah “hiu kecil” yg terus memaksa kita utk bergerak dan tetap survive !

Masalah hidup adalah baik, karena itulah yg membuat kita terus bergerak…

Be blessed, keep on moving!!!

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This post has been circulating for quite a while on the net.

Emang bener, sebenenernya dari masalah, kita malah bisa belajar lebih banyak dan bisa appreciate more things in our life.
Hence aku mw bersyukur. Kalo dari semua masalah yang pernah aku hadapi, aku boleh diajarkan untuk terus bersyukur dan boleh terus ingat dan boleh terus berpikiran positive. I think this is what have kept me going so far. Kalo aku boleh liat masalah bukan sebagai masalah, tapi sebagai batu loncatan supaya aku boleh diexpose to more new things, boleh belajar lebih banyak lagi. Biarlah pada saat tertentu aku 'sedikit' :P mengeluh. Tapi jangan sampai aku stuck dalam keluhan tersebut. Namun boleh terus maju dan melihat dari perspective yang lain. Coz after all, nothing is as bad as it seems. Karena beban yang kita terima gak akan melebihi kekuatan kita. =)

Semoga boleh terus jadi reminder for the rest of my life too. =)

Mom

2011-02-18T08:03:00.000-08:00

is stressing out...

Dad.. is ironically cute.

Ahh... I hope everything goes well...

Can I complaint for a bit?

2011-02-17T09:47:00.000-08:00

The past few days I've been trying to organize a 5 days trip to Central Java.

The trip was supposed to be with a lot of people. And I wasn't even the one who suggested it in the first place, I'm just going with the flowww... As usual... And then suddenly everyone that are usually my partner in crime in organizing all of my trips bailed out on me, leaving me the only one who can organize it (with the help of friends who aren't even going for the whole trip anyway). And.... The results?

Devastating...

Underestimated budget because didn't think properly bout the long-distance transport - car rentals in particular.
Unclear itinerary still (tho know in general, but nothing can beat a detailed, hourly, complete itinerary, no?)
Saw the wrong price for the flight back which another blow up to the budget.
Am not even sure which hotel is good - still.
No one to consult to because no one's going for the whole trip with me - at least no one that stays in Jakarta anyway. And the other one who are Indonesians too, I don't even know where he went off to...
Having to use own cash/cc for down payment/booking. - Well, i'm not one that trusts net transactions. So... It's been weighing down on me a lot. Like is it safe to do it etc2. So stressful. Esp since there's no one to consult or at least to say that it's ok. If I ask my fam - which I kinda did in a way - they'll gonna say that it's not safe and that I should be careful. But really, how can I be careful with these things? Except not to do any payment to any dodgy websites of course. That much I know!

All in all? I can only say that I'm sad... Ah... Seriously. I don't think planning works for me. Back in China, we only booked flight tix to and from and nothing else. With only our plane tix in our hands, we carry our luggages, without even knowing where we're going to stay. (yeah, we were That crazy. lol.) Even tho we were worried at first but at least we know that everything will work out just fine in the end anyway coz we're gonna be together no matter wad. And we decide everything together, we'll meet up to plan, even if the plan ends up with no plan at all. In a country that is foreign to all of us... But now, I have to decide everything alone for the well-being of another people, in my own country... Granted I'm not that familiar to the places we're going to visit, but at least I'm a citizen of this country. Trying to do my best but my plan in my head's not working well... Hence I'm kinda sad right now. Sigh... I guess planning's not really the issue. It's just I'm used to rely on other people too much I guess. And i don't want my friends to be disappointed with the trip. =( Tho I know that they're the easy going type who doesn't really mind with anything I guess. Or at least every time I asked something, they'll always say: i'm fine with anything. You guys decide. Which is kinda adding to the stress level at some moments instead. Haha.

Well, I'm gonna fix this tom. (Sposed to confirm everything today... But... Well.. Apparently I'm busy today. Haha.)

Hopefully starting tom night, I can sleep well. Besides, I'm running out of time. I guess everything will be just fine if I don't set the budget too low... But I guess the cheap-o spirit won't let go easily... Hahaha. Ah well... Not when I'm with this particular group of people anyway.

On another note...

When can I know for sure what I really want to pursue over here? Sigh.... Self! What do u really want? Dying for some 'guidance'. ...

I guess this time, I'm learning to make my own decisions, to be self-confident of the decisions that I made, and to not regret whatever that happens, even if it turns out that I'm wrong or anything. And to keep on seeing things from the positive sides.

Well, I guess this is it... My journey back in Indo is starting... I'm gonna get stronger! I won't be defeated! Because I'm not alone! Yeah! Not at all.

Learning to be more independent yet not too independent that I cross out the help that others can give. Apparently this is quite hard for me. Coz I tend to be in one extreme or the other. Lol. Ah well... In the end, all of these does comes back to wisdom.

Which reminds me, sometimes I think too roughly and act too fast without really thinking thru the whole thing. Kinda similar to my dad. Hahaha. And my mom just complaint today that he always in a hurry yet nothing gets done (not so true! something did gets done. even if it's not as efficient as it can be. hahahaha.)

Anw, gonna look fwd to another 'version' of me. Maybe after some few years and then I look back to the days when we're young. I'll think 'how stupid i was' or 'what the hell was i thinking?' or 'those were the fun days'. Well, I'm gonna look for that too. And let's keep this entry as a memoir of 'the-old-good-days'. Haha.

Today...

2011-02-15T05:34:00.000-08:00

Is the first time I've hold a few months old baby with my own two hands... I was wondering, how would it feel. And somehow I was relating it to holding a puppy. I don't know why puppies came to mind. Lol. But then again I've never really held a puppy. So...

Conclusion? It's kind of weird... Holding a baby that is...

Babies... I've concluded that they can make grown ups acting weird and crazy, like retards... All of the grown ups... For just one baby.. Fun!

Artisan Portrait of the Crafter (ISTP)

2011-02-07T21:26:00.000-08:00

Your Type is: ISTP
Introverted Sensing Thinking Perceiving
Strength of the preferences %
67 62 38 56

The nature of Crafters is most clearly seen in their masterful operation of tools, equipment, machines, and instruments of all kinds. Most us use tools in some capacity, of course, but Crafters (as much as ten percent of the population) are the true masters of tool work, with an innate ability to command tools and to become expert at all the crafts requiring tool skills. Even from an early age they are drawn to tools as if to a magnet -- tools fall into their hands demanding use, and they must work with them.

Like all the Artisans, Crafters are people who love action, and who know instinctively that their activities are more enjoyable, and more effective, if done impulsively, spontaneously, subject to no schedules or standards but their own. In a sense, Crafters do not work with their tools, but play with them when the urge strikes them. Crafters also seek fun and games on impulse, looking for any opportunity, and just because they feel like it, to play with their various toys: cars, motorcycles, boats, dune-buggies, hunting rifles, fishing tackle, scuba gear, and on and on. They thrive on excitement, particularly the rush of speed-racing, water-skiing, surfing. And Crafters are fearless in their play, exposing themselves to danger again and again, even despite frequent injury. Of all the types, Crafters are most likely to be risk takers, pitting themselves, or their technique, against chance or odds.

Crafters are hard to get to know. Perhaps this is because they tend to communicate through action, and show little interest in developing language skills. Their lack of expressiveness can isolate them at school and on the job, and even though they hang around with their own kind in play, they let their actions speak for them, and their actual conversation is sparse and brief.

Crafters can be wonderfully generous and loyal to their friends, teammates, and sidekicks, often giving up their evenings or weekends to help with building projects or mechanical repairs-house remodeling, for example, or working on cars or boats. On the other hand, they can be fiercely insubordinate to those in authority, seeing rules and regulations as unnecessarily confining. Crafters will not usually go against regulations openly, but will simply ignore them. More than anything, Crafters want to be free to do their own thing, and they are proud of their ability to do it with an artist's skill.

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I think this is new? I don't remember ever having this results before. Lol.

Back home

2011-02-07T10:04:00.000-08:00

Wah, I think i really only start posting in here whenever I'm out of China! Lol. They really did a great job blocking me from these sites...

Anw, China has been great - even though I remembered I did complain a lot in the beginning of the first semester. Lol. Second semester has been real fun with more people and friends from all over the world. I'm glad I went. Actually this might be my first time truly being friends with someone outside Indo and hanging out with them often. It has been a blessing and a whole other journey in China. It's a different kind of 'fun' comparing to my life in Sydney, both life help shaped the me now. Yeah... ^^ I'm so blessed... ^^

Ah... Now that I'm back... So, what's been going on so far?

Dad was hospitalized for a day - so I spent a whole day a day after I got back to Jkt at the hospital with dad. Interesting exp. A glimpse of my mom's life before. Can't imagine her feelings spending all those nights with dad at the hospital, with so much worst of a condition. I'm proud of 'em. They are strong people. Even if they can be pessimistic and sarcastic. I guess that's their way of handling life.. Trying to stay close to reality. And I realized now, it is a culture in our family.

Went out with old friends - high school friends and old friends from my home stay to UK. Amazing to see how people change/don't change at all. Hahaha. It's very interesting to see how you feel they change so much yet not at all.

And while in the midst of all that, I got a surprising phone call from Panin Bank. Surprising because I was in the middle of 'reunion' with friends when they called. And because I applied for the job waayyyy back when I was in Beijing. Those days of "well, I kinda already start applying but I gave them my Indo's phone number but I'm still here in Beijing? So I don't know how it'll turn out." Lol. So the call was for a psycho test today at their office at Petojo at 9am.

Results? Hum. I passed the pyschotest (took them 3 hours to complete the whole thing - as in the test). Then I passed the first interview with the HR manager (took them another 50 min to analyze the results of the tests then announcing the results and then another hour for me until I finished being interviewed). So I went there at 9am and get out of there at 3pm (another hour waiting to be picked up by mom n dad).

5pm got back home. 5.30ish pm got another phone call, saying I'm being called for another interview with their chairman of the division next monday 9am on the main branch of Panin Bank.

So I guess everything went well.... Except... I'm still at a dilemma of whether to continue with this job or not. Maybe I will if they raise the pay. Hummm.. I guess that's another consideration left for next week. Meanwhile, let's apply for another job. (And I still want to travel around too! Java, Japan, Europe... Lol. Ah.. I want too much, don't I?)

Anw, I thank God for this opportunity. I thank God I came back to Indo. I thank God for friends who've crossed path with me - some who will be coming soon! I thank God just because there are never ending stuffs to thank for...

New year, new path, new challenges, new knowledge, new experiences, new meetings, everything new... With the same old, never changing, keep renewing God. Awesome!

Indo...

2010-11-14T00:38:00.000-08:00

Ahh.. I'm in China... Yet I learn more about my country more than ever... (or at least after finishing high school back in Indo. Lol.)

Do you know that Indo has 4 national flowers? Melati, Rafflesia Arnoldi, Anggrek Bulan, and I forgot what's the last one. Lol.

Do you know that Indo's economy's the biggest in Southeast Asia Region?

Do you know that we ranked 18 in the top 32 economies as measured in GDP at nomial prices?

Do you know that we didn't really take the toll during economic crisis coz our country can supply for all the things that we need so that we don't need to rely on imports from other country to survive?

Do you know that we actually have more than 300 ethnic groups in our small, lots of islands, country?

Do you know that we actually got everything, from the sea to the mountains, from the really polluted, civilized area to the really clean, amazingly beautiful, uncivilized area? And amazing weather... No sand storms, no snow, no huge scary windy day....

Ahhh...

Here I am in China...

Yet, the focus is back to Indo...

The grass is indeed always greener on the other side.

A while...

2010-11-11T08:29:00.000-08:00

It's really been awhile since I go online and do whatever stuffs.
Well, usually I do go online, but it's just to check the mails...

Wow, looking back, i've really missed a lot of stuffs hey?
It's like I've been living in a whole different world, secluded, locked.
Great to finally be able to see some updates today.

So, what' been happening lately?

Hum...

From celebrating moon cake festivals, halloween festivals (all festivals for the first time... and upcoming ones too. woohoo!), learning kenpo, studying calligraphy, outings with friends, new friends, old friends, loosing my wallet, going to the police station, buying polaroid camera's, joining competitions...

Let's just say not everything's good and beautiful and fun. But everything's interesting. And if we keep on looking from the 'right' point of view, all of them are precious moments and experiences that I will never get if things weren't to happen that way.

(Talking bout point of view, let me share one of China's greatest poet's: 横看成岭侧成峰，远近高低各不同。不识庐山真面目，只缘身在此山中。Basically it's saying that you when you look on a mountain from far away, it will look different than when you look from the top of the mountain or the side of the mountain or even below it. Depending on where you are, the mountain will look different, cause it all depends on your own perspective, your point of view. So you don't actually know for sure what's the real shape of the mountain. But aren't we glad that no matter how big the mountain is, we always have Him who will help us and guide us thru. Woohoo! =) I like this poem the most - we studied 3 poems at the first chapter - coz I think it's really true . Hehe.)

So, life is still good to me... God's still as good as ever, no change in that. Never was, and never will. (Thank You!)

And the next? Well, I guess, next steps comes job and where I'm supposed to be.

Ah, and I thank God for my dad. Good to hear his voice ever so often now that he's back to 'normal'.Lol.

Well, so far all the good things outweighs all the bad things. I'm still so blessed. And I really can't thank Him enough for everything He's done for me.

Well, it's way past midnight. Cinderella has disappeared an hour ago. So should I. Lol. Ciao!

Time

2010-08-29T11:00:00.000-07:00

Oh no!!! Time flew soooo fasssttt...Suddenly I got another wedding invitations from a friend long long time ago yg duluuu sempet ngejer temen bae gw. (Sempet deketin gw biar deket sama tmn gw, sempet dpt image buruk di kepala gw tho at the end biasa aja and sempet ilang kontak dll). It feels like it's so weird. It's like kayanya baru kemaren dia ngebet ngejerin tmn gw. Then I just realized, that happend like 4 and a half years ago? Lol. Sooooo faaassssstttttt.. ^^"

Ah well...

???

2010-08-29T10:09:00.000-07:00

Somehow this song has been rewinding and replaying itself on my mind... It's been a while...

Hidupmu berharga bagi Allah
Tiada yang tak berkenan di hadapanNya
Dia ciptakan kau s'turut gambarNya
Sungguh terlalu indah kau bagi Dia

Dia berikan kasihNya bagi kita
Dia t'lah relakan segala-galanya
Dia disalib 'tuk tebus dosa kita
Kar'na hidupmu sangatlah berharga

Buluh yang terkulai
Tak kan dipatahkanNya
Ia kan jadikan indah
Sungguh lebih berharga
Sumbu yang t'lah pudar
Tak kan dipadamkanNya
Dia 'kan jadikan terang
Untuk kemuliaanNya

Nothin on You!

2010-08-21T18:33:00.000-07:00

Beautiful girls [handsome guys? lol], all over the worldd
I could be chasing but my time would be wastedd... [not that I want to chase anyone]
They got nothing on youuu babyyy.
Nothing on youuuuu babbbyyyyy...

They might say "hi", and I might say "hey"
But you shouldn't worry about what they say
Coz they got nothing on you baby (Not not not nothing on you baby, not nothing on you)
Nothing on youuu baby.... (Not not not nothing on you baby, not nothing on you)

Lalalala....

Bonamana

2010-08-21T18:14:00.000-07:00

Bounce to you, Bounce to you nae gaseumeun neol
hyanghae jabhil sudo eobseul mankeum dwigeo ittneungeol.
Break it Down to you, Down to you nae gaseumi neo,
neol gatji mothandamyeon meomchul georanda (nal bara bwara)

Dang...

Found the song by chance...

Din't like it through the first minute of the song.

But somehow lovin it when it nears the ending.

And now it just "bouncing" in my mind...

Aaaarrrggghhhh!!!!

Too catchy!

On the side note, I kinda like No Other better... ^^"

Aaaarrrggghhhhh!!!

How could I fall through this road againnn... Boooooo.....

I love Mini...

2010-08-20T10:46:00.000-07:00

Whilst browsing through Mini sites and comparing models at http://www.mini.com/com/en/model_comparison/index.jsp
I had a very good laugh... How you asked? Well, you can try it yourself...

Go to the site, compare all the models but don't forget to see the last model which they call "Spike". It's a very interesting one. Lol.

They sure got humor, those Mini peeps. Lol.

Memories...

2010-08-17T02:31:00.001-07:00

Waaahhhh!!!!

I'm looking at the videos my friend took for us at the singing competition two months ago.
I wasss.... Dreaded by it..
Now, after a couple of months and I look back.
I feel like it was all like a dreaammm..
And I don't feel the dread anymore. Hahahaha.
I guess it's true, I have my classmate to thank for the wonderful memories.
Stuffs that I won't participate in if not for her.

So I guess, we should just take the chances for things that we can do.
Don't refuse but just do it.
And later on, we can look back and smile (laugh in my case, and a bit of screaming because of embarassment. Lol.)

And apparently after looking back at the video, it really wasn't that bad after all.
Not as bad as what I thought/imagined it'd be.
So yea, our mind/imagination sometimes can go waaayyyy overboard. Hahahaha.

Woohooooo.....

Looking forward to next sem, last fun moments before jumping to the reaaaalll world =D

Why?

2010-07-26T11:21:00.000-07:00

I've learnt that asking the simple question "Why?" can sound like we're judging or blaming someone...

But sometimes... I just can't help it.

I simply had to ask, "Why?"

How are you?

2010-07-26T04:27:00.001-07:00

I'm just wondering lately...

Whether there's anyone who'd say directly: "Oh, I'm not good."

I think I'd love to converse with that person.

It'd be interesting...

Today

2010-07-24T09:55:00.000-07:00

Has been both eventful and un/noneventful...

I finally have to let go another one of my beloved family member =(

It's been sad. But he lived a long life already. And at least I got to see him for the last time too just the night before.
So, it's... Alright I guess... He's now in a better place... Hopefully...

Aside from that, I still got to go to a salon, had quite a nice Korean BBQ dinner, and then go back to the funeral home.

It was... Boring...

And this will continue till Wednesday...

I wonder what will happen in the next few days?

I hope the whole family can really be united.

Another late update... ^^

2010-06-30T03:18:00.000-07:00

Well, let's see...

I've been seeing weird places, meeting cool people, weird people, eating weird food...

Anything I haven't told you yet? Nope. Basically that's it. Lol.

Well, for what I can tell you of what my opinion bout China.... I love the details of their artworks - wether it's in their painting, their ceilings, their architectures, their songs, or even each weird letters/characters that create meaning. I'm fond of their martial arts. I'm still amazed by the Great Wall, I wonder at their long dynasty histories (not only the '3 kingdoms' mind you... The kecoak prince... Lol.)
But... I still don't really like the habits of the people - some anyways. It's so funny how when you study the culture and history, you can find them so... Revined and cultured, well-mannered... Yet one step to the "outside world" you see or rather you feel none of it. Maybe it's because what they put in writings is always more beautiful than the fact itself (or more like my imagination is way off reality? lol.)

And sometimes, I wonder.... "What about us?" We... Have well over 300 tribes with amazing nature as well. What about our culture? What made us, "us"? Besides the unknown language to the outside world... Besides the delicious food... Besides the geographical locations... I guess that would be the people... And i sincerely wish, that there won't be a day where some foreigners will think the same way as I did, that the "history" is more "beautiful" than the reality.... I wish that our people will forever be known as polite and kind. Haha...

我回来了！

2010-05-27T06:27:00.000-07:00

Yuuhuuuuu!!! I'm back to the blogging world! Lol.

I guess I've been missing for "quite" a while. Lol. Last entry was packing? lol. So funny...

Soooo... My life here... First month: hellish. Second month: adapting. Third month: enjoying! Wohooo!!
I guess all of that doesn't really go too far from who you are with.
I'm really blessed and I'm happy because I can found friends that I know I can trust and depend on.
Tho sometimes it's still a bit lonely... After all, we can't stick with people all the time.
And anyway, they come to your life, and before you know it, they're gone.

I can't believe it's almost time to go back home to Indo (at least for a bit. Lol.)
I can see that I don't really change much here. Tho sometimes I think maybe I changed too much.
Lol. I dunno. It's all confusing. Sometimes I wonder, why did I come here again?
And then I found that I still haven't really find the answer to that yet. (At least one that is satisfying enough for me.)
But yeah, I learned quite a few things over here, besides the language of course.

1. You can see why people act a certain way from the environment they live in. Like basically you can understand more why they're like that, why they have certain 'cultural behavior'.
2. Chances come and go. It's either you grab it when you see it. Or you just simply lose it at all.
3. Something that you thought rude might not be the case for other people. And something that you thought it's ok might be considered rude...
4.With careful planning, you might have all you want. But sometimes, you simply just can't. And simply has to give up some.
5.Thinking is good. Thinking too much without action is no good. So start acting to achieve what you think. Sometimes you just don't have to think so much. And you'll be surprised at what you can find. (actually thinking too much might be the cause of why you can't grab your chances... Sometimes you just have to 'jump' at it.... Sigh...)

So... Latest update: I'm still enjoying my wushu practice, my calligraphy totally sucks, I'm joining the singing competition - somewhat involuntarily, and my singing sucks!, and I'm planning to tour all over China...

Ah, iI'm still wondering, should I move to another uni or just stay in this uni... All in all, now I believe more that I can enjoy my life in here. Lol. I survived so far! Yay! =P

Where do you guys think I'll head to next? :P

Pack, Pack, Pack...

2010-02-16T00:43:00.000-08:00

Whoa, I've never felt sooo tired of packing... (Pdhl baru 30 min? Lol.)

Hum... Even the first time I packed to Oz wasn't as tiring... I guess... (That time I packed all those weird stuffs... Let's see.. Rice cooker, speaker, setrikaan... Lolzz...) Now, I'm busy packing winter clothes... (Seriously.. For 2 months of winter or so, less maybe? Why should I bring all my winter clothes over? Too muchhh!!!)

Will I be okay? - the questions that have been hanging around my mind even if it's like a submarine that keep on diving and re-surfacing and diving again... And today mom (well, actually since before she already) started to ask all these sort of questions... Oh, how touching! Lol. Was she like this that time too? Probably... But this time feels like she's more concerned... Hum... Well.. China... Dangerous... I get it... Don't worry, I can take care of myself... Ahh... Too touching... Something that she doesn't normally do... I wonder, will it be harder? I bet. Will I survive? I... will! Because I'm not alone =D

What else do I need? (Lol. I only packed my jeans and jackets and stuffs so far. Lol. Haven't even bring shirts and toiletries lalala.) Anything I might have forgotten? I don't know... What did I forget? What do I usually forget? Hum... (Well, I know i could always buy stuffs over there... Should refrain myself from buying winter clothes tho. Lol.) Ahhh.... Why do we have to pack again? =P

Oh yeah, this might be the first time I packed from a week before. Lol. Even when I was going back for good, I packed the night before! Lolz. Was it the night before? And we managed to go out first too right? lol. Crazy...

Forever

2010-02-16T00:36:00.000-08:00

Why can't she live forever?
Why can't he live forever?
Why can't it be forever theirs?
Why should there be any successors?
Why should there be any changes?
Why?

Change....

Something that's dreaded...
Something that's embraced...
Something that's anticipated...
Something that's totally avoided...

Change....

It's forever there...

And forever, I'm gonna have a mixed feelings bout changes....

Cheesy...

2010-02-14T11:19:00.000-08:00

Choayooo, saranghae, saranghaeyo..

Ahhhh!!! So cheeesssyyyy!!!!!! Grrr...

Listening too much of these words... Too cheeesyy!! Don't want! Don't like! Booo!!!

(Ironic... I dislike the word on a Valentine's day... But then again maybe coz I've been listening to them non-stop lately... Ahhh... No moreeeeee.... Not even in another language... No morreeeee!!!)

Converting Nokia phone book to iPhone's

2010-02-12T23:04:00.000-08:00

Whoaaaahhhhhh.... Thank God there are soooo manyy good people out there who are willing to share infos... Wooohoooo... Go, go net!!!! Lolll...

I was dreading the day I had to re-type every single contact entry to iPhone manually... Then I found a forum that actually discuss it and apparently, it's only a matter of downloading, connecting, syncing, syncing, and we're done! Woohoooo...

So, just for the record (and those out there who found this entry by chance while looking for ways to do so)... You only need to download iSync for your Nokia phone (http://www.nokia-asia.com/support/download-software/isync) and then install, connect to your phone, follow the given procedure, sync your Nokia with Mac, and then sync your iPhone via iTunes... It beautifully syncs your contacts and calendars... (Though only works for Nokia with Mac. lol.)
(Info thanks to: http://www.everythingicafe.com/forum/archive/index.php/t-39184.html - they posted all possible ways to transfer phone books to iPhone's)

Wahahahahahahahahahha... So happpyyy... =D

Now I don't have to guess who the sms-es are from anymore (even if my guess are usually correct. Lol.) Yeah...
(Doing lil dances across the room)

Break...

2010-02-07T12:11:00.001-08:00

From K-Pop, C-Pop, whatever Asian Pop that has been ruling my iTunes lately...

Random

2010-02-07T11:51:00.000-08:00

2 days and 1 night... It's been fun watching it. Last episode, the athlete guy (can't seem to remember their names for long) asked everyone to jump into the ravine at -8 degree Celsius (the water was frozen and the ice was like around 10cm think probably?). At first they promised him they would go in together so that he would stay in the show with them but the next morning everyone regretted their promises. Lol...Two guys (Jiwon? and Mong) were particularly against it, complaining non-stop till the end. But at the end, they were the first guys who went into the ravine. Lol. So admirable... I can imagine the K-athlete's proud feelings and happiness and sense of joy and fulfillment. Lol. Even just watching them from a tv, i clapped my hands for them. At the end I guess they all felt really good (even if they were frozen a lil bit)... Lol. Was really fun watching them....

You're Beautiful. Jang Gae Suk? surely took me by surprise. Didn't recognize him there. Well, the last time I was watching him as EunHo in Hwang Jini.. Totally different (he looked really young over there). Prolly just coz of the make up. HongKi? looked like a fool. Lol. And the other guy's just... charming I guess? In his own way (he's that C.N.Blue member no?) Ahhh... Feels like I'm too old for this kind of movie... Damn... I would have never imagined, the day that I finally say "I'm too old for this" come so sooonnnn..... Sigh... (Nooo.. I'm still younggg.... Lol.)

Ah well...

Being a lil child is good no? You can totally believe in something without even a lil doubt. You can confidently say the things in your mind out loud. I just realized, as you get older (and supposedly wiser), you get more careful of a lots of things and you started to doubt a lot of stuffs that you can't even confidently say that you truly believe something. Because your mind will always be there to contradicts it (or maybe not your mind... Just your surroundings. Lol.) I think being like a kid is good... It's a privilege... Something that we loose lil by lil as we grow older... The privileges that we lost became something that we had to work hard for...

Yahh.. Today's topic is random... So I just went on and on and on bout whatever that came across my mind... I guess something like this is good to once in a while? Hahaha.. Ah well...

Flip phones

2010-02-05T07:09:00.000-08:00

Damn... What's with the sudden interest in flip phoness??? -_-

YAAAHH!!!

2010-02-05T06:46:00.001-08:00

What's with the all saddd love sonnggg?????

Catching up...

2010-01-15T08:02:00.001-08:00

Is good and lovely.... Don't you think?

Weddings

2010-01-04T22:01:00.001-08:00

Sooo.. Lately (well, last year and this year I guess) there has been lotttsss of weddinggsssss... (Well, not really...) But anyway... It's of those who are close to me and not just some random people from mom and dad's circle of friends... (You know, how you always stand around do nothing, knows no one, only has your eyes on food instead of standing with people around chatting? Lol.)

Anyway, suddenly I have a baddddd mooooddddd..... A friend from childhood is gonna be having her 3rd? wedding celebration in Yogya (seriously, niat bener... lol.) which caused me to be out of town till 9th Jan. But, but, but, i forgot that I'm gonna have another friend from school celebrate her wedding at 8th of Jan... Boooohooooooooo... How stupid of meeee!!!! And they bought the ticket already. Huhuhuhu.... I really wanna go to both parties but, given that i've been to my childhood's friend wedding once, I prolly prefer going to the other one (even if she's not that close to me or anything.) Ahhh.. What should I dooo??? Mom suggested to ask bro going instead of me... That might work.. Buttt.. that's beside the point! I really wanted to see her wedding and her husband...

I guess it can't be helped? Sigh...

Happpyyyy Neeewwwww Yeeeeaaaarrrrrr 2010!!!!

2009-12-31T09:23:00.000-08:00

Lol... I'm wishing you guys a happy and cheerful year ahead!!! Huahahahaaha....

You know, this year our family doesn't plan anything, we didn't go anywhere, nor did we go to any restaurant to enjoy New Year's eve together... So, you could understand why I have actually let go of any hope of seeing any fireworks display... So as we wait for new year's at home, I suddenly heard bom-bom-bom sound outside beginning since 10.30pm probably? Didn't really notice it... At around 11pm, I actually went out of my room to look outside our balcony and there it was, fireworks being set off right outside our house. But then again it wasn't really that grand or anything. Just normal fireworks... And only occasional ones... (I was actually puzzled coz it was still 11pm right? So it's either they're practicing/preparing for the real thing in 1 hour times or I got my watch wrong - which is kinda impossible. Lol.) And so I went back to my room, browsing the net as usual and watching the TV (actually found KBS channel showing the usual Korean show with the glasses wearing ojiisan with that comedian who gathers inside some kind of steam room... You know, the funny show? I forgot the name. Lol.) So I actually watched that while waiting for 00.00 lol. (it was pretty funny... lol... so at least it lifted my mood a bit. Hahaha.)

Then at around 10 min before 12 (my room's clock), my dad suddenly opened the door and kinda told me to go out. So I went out, back to the balcony on our 2nd floor and there it was!!! Gorgeous displays of fireworks all around our house... Right across our house, from beside our house, at the far back left, at the far right, basically everywhere we look, there were fireworks! Huahahahaha... And the most beautiful ones are the one right across our house (dasar orang kaya, susah. hahaha.).. My bro came with a vid camera with no battery. Lol. so we couldn't actually taped them. And mom finally came out and she was the most excited out of all us (she actually shouted "hahaha" and clapped her hands. Lol. Even my bro said she's acting like a kid. Lol!) And so we stood there for 10 min or more probably? Watching the fireworks together....

Sigh... You know, it wasn't really a given that I have to watch fireworks during new years... But somehow I always get to watch them every year I guess, no matter where I am, there were always fireworks... So, today's actually a special one for me. Because I didn't expect it but it's like He's saying happy new year to me and that it's my present =) That's the second time He did it for me... With fireworks I mean. Lol. Sooo happy....

And with this, it opens up a new chapter, a new beginning... A whole new year is waiting ahead. And I believe, whatever out there waiting, we'll be able to conquer them! Because He'll never leave us alone. Amin! Lol....

I trully look forward to the year ahead...

PS: My mom said someone said that 2010 is a year of hope. I guess that's true ne? Lol. At least for me.... Really excited! Hahaha....

Rin-Sama

2009-12-26T09:50:00.000-08:00

Kyowa, Rin-sama wa... Rin-sama... He got angry at mee.. Booohhhoooohhhooooo.... I left him on for 3 hours straight (I thought I was gonna leave him for just a bit, that he could handle it... Huhuhu...)

I admit, I haven't been good to him this past month... I let him up while I fell asleep, forcing him to hibernate each time... And so today... He got really, really hot... And when I woke him up, he just freezeedddd.... Bohohohoho.... I don't know what to dooo... And so I did what I usually did to Ba-chan... Goooommmeeeennnaaaasssaaaiiiiiiiiii.... T_T

Has any of yours freezed like that before? Or is it just... Rin-sama's way of protesting to me?? T_T Gooomeeennnn... Huhuhu...

Too Painful!

2009-12-16T08:18:00.000-08:00

Checklist:

1. Sit: Ok.
2. Stand: Ok.
3. Walk: Ok.
4. Bow: Barely ok.
5. Trying to sit: Painful.
6. Trying to stand: Painful.
7. Trying to walk: Not as much painful anymore.
8. Trying to do anything else (moving to certain position): Too painful!

Boohooo...

Ponyo ponyo ponyooo sakana no koo...

2009-12-13T10:24:00.001-08:00

Today

2009-12-13T08:15:00.000-08:00

I spent most of it at home, watching youtube.... Browsing old movies... BGT, Gaki no tsukai (I know, sounds pathetic ^^") and somehow came across star king ep. 120. So cool! I wonder how he did that? The hand flute thingy... Hummm... Lupin 3 OST is sooo cool in here... Lol..

The wish upon a star song's also sooo sweeettttt... :P

FireFly

2009-12-02T23:54:00.000-08:00

Cute!

Something's wrong...

2009-11-30T22:14:00.000-08:00

I can't open up my own blog page (even if I can blog in it ^^") as well as the others. It says that "Safari can’t find the server". Weird!

Home Sweet Home

2009-11-29T21:58:00.001-08:00

Finally! After, I don't know how long it was anymore, all the busy-ness and the arguments and the craziness and the crowds! It's alllll done... Woohooo.. Well, not all. Never all. Lol. But at least the really big stuffs yesterday has passed. Now, I can get my family, my house, my room(s) all back to me and me alone. Lol. No more intruders, no more weird funky language going on around the house, no more annoying acts (hang on, the annoying part.. humm.. I don't think that'll EVER go away... Lol.), no more SMOKES! (how I dislike the smokes! Sigh...), no more being forced to follow orders from someone who I think unkindly of. More importantly, no more unkindly thoughts! (Wait, wait, wait... At least it's lesser now... ^^") Ahhh... My burdens felt lifted out... A bit... ^^" Now I can focus on my own things.. Or can I? =p

Hahahahahahahaa...

2009-11-08T07:26:00.000-08:00

Hahahahahaha... I just wanna laugh out loud right now. Hahahahaha... You know, my bro doesn't want any "religious" music to be in his computer. But he got Lifehouse in there. And now I'm pretty sure that Lifehouse songs are about our great and mighty JC. Lolz!!!

Why I'm so sure you asked? Oh, well, you know, remembering the famous "Everything" skit that was made from Lifehouse's song. And another song called "You Can Shake The Mountains" which goes:

Freedom comes in the morning time
As the sun begins to shine
On my face
And even in the dark I'm not alone
You guide me by the hand
You won't let go
And I know you'll carry me when I can't walk

And you can
Shake the mountains with a whisper
And you, you speak
And I fall at your feet again

You burned the chains off of my feet
That held me to the ground
You let me rise
Don't ever let me come back down
Or even live a day apart from you
'Cause you lifted me
Higher than my doubts and fears

And you can
Shake the mountains with a whisper
And you, you speak
And I fall at your feet
And you are so beautiful
And I am so in love with you
You, you lead
And I will follow close behind

And even their latest, common song that we heard playing in the radio, Hanging by a Moment... I think it pretty much relates too. So, wow... We actually have a band that's praising God without much people noticing. Lol. And my bro... Lolz! Yo, bro. You can't run far far away.. There's no escaping Him! Lolz...

Apple

2009-11-08T06:44:00.000-08:00

I just found out Apple's ads line... The one with "Hello, I am a Mac." and usually continued with "And I am a PC." Lolz.. Funny, funny ads... Lol. They make PC guy to be really really childish with all these fancy stuffs (like cheerleaders and podium stands for speech and bla bla bla) while Mac just stood there with his hands in his pockets. Lol. And everytime, it ended up backfired on PC and Mac got praised instead. Lol... Clever ads....

Really, what's good with Apple is their ads. Very clever and funny. (Though I'm not complaining bout my lovely Mac. Lol..)

Time stood still...

2009-11-04T07:26:00.000-08:00

My time has stood still...

When I'm in my room, I slept at 1.47, I woke up at 1.47, I went out at 1.47, I came back in at 1.47, I take a bath at 1.47. I am forever at 1.47.

Now, when I go out, and look at my watch, my time would stop at Day 4, 7 o'clock. (It was at 4 something. But I changed it in hope it would work again...) Lol...

So from now on, wherever I go, I'll always go at Day 4, 7 o'clock, my time. Haha...

Whether it's going out with mom, for lunch/dinner, for tuitions, whatever. It'll forever be: Day 4, 7 o'clock.

So... In conclusion... My time has really stood still...

That is unless I finally changed my battery. Lol...

Random thoughts

2009-10-29T09:56:00.000-07:00

By this time, I'm starting to miss the old good days in Sydney. Can't wait to get out there and start doing my own thing, by my own timing and my own efforts. To do what I wanna do instead of doing what I don't wanna do every single day. And the one time I wanna do my own thing? Yeah, people start commenting. Like I ask it every single day.

But hey, who knows this is actually what I need right now? Someone to just "ngoyok2" and telling me stuffs. Bet I'll miss it by the time I won't be able to hear them anymore. But I just wished they'd tell me stuffs when I really, really need it. Instead of being "whatever, it's up to you" when I'm truly confused and then against me when I am actually firm on what I wanna do. ^^" Ah well...

Enjoying life even more... This is how it started. This is the process. Through this "unwanted" phase, we grow. Yeah, I'd like to "nyap, nyap, nyap, nyap" and complaint all the way. But then again, why should I? I should enjoy this to the max. To re-learn how to respond in a positive way... No, I think I should re-phrase that. To finally starting to learn, how to respond to things when we (supposedly) are in our "comfort-est" place. Lol.

I wonder if it'd feel like this too? When we finally start our own family? Hum....

Between 2 (two)

2009-10-27T06:20:00.000-07:00

Back to choices...

No matter how much time has passed, it's always between two choices...

- One city vs the other city

- One uni vs the other uni

- That one uni vs another uni

And so on, and so on, and so on...

Would you prefer more class times or more life experience?

Would you prefer ease and practicality or challenge and individualism?

Would you prefer one with help or the risk of getting lost all by yourself?

Would you go to the uni u wanted so much, just because u want to, or go to the other uni, because it'd help you adapt and might help you with more class times?

When you weigh out the two... One offers more... More class time, more help, more attention, more....

The other one? Not so much... Ada juga you might get yourself in really big... trouble? inconvenience?

Now, it's easy to put it into: don't get stuck in your own comfort zone... Take the risks....

But is it really just about that? Or is it just my own ego? My sense of "adventure" that goes "bling bling bling"...

Coz really, I still don't understand why I wanted to take that other one so much...

Yet if you think about it, why do I re-consider it that much?

Why every time I set my path to go down that way, there's always other paths coming my way, as if to say "No, don't go that way... just go this way, it's better..."

But than again, that one path always calling back "come... come... walk this way..."

Which one should I follow?

The excitement that smells 'adventure'? or the other safer, easier, more convenient way?

If it's only between that two though, I'd go straight for adventure. Lol.

Now, it goes back to more class time... One choice makes you spend more money yet less class time, the other one? granted you have to pay a lil bit more but you get double the class time...

Should I just disregard the cost I will make going to one place and just go straight for the long awaited adventure?

Well, one thing for sure, after I've done setting the course I really wanna take, I'll definitely go all out, and max out whatever I can get.... Hohohoho....

Bad Timing

2009-10-22T09:37:00.001-07:00

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"Aaaaarrrrrrrrrrrhgggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Sigh...

I think I literally screamed the last time I read it. Though it was more like a frustration scream.

This time I screamed again... -_-" Though for totally different reasons...

Bad timing in reading Skip Beat ^^"

"What're u doin?"s

2009-10-01T11:03:00.000-07:00

(Inspired by recent events and certain blog style)

So I was fb-ng at around 12.45am when I heard a knock on my door...

2nd bro: What're u doing?
Me: What are U doing?
(Then we stood there on my door... I went out to his room. He followed.)
Me: So, what are you doing?
2nd bro: ... (forgot what he said)
(He went to our parent's room, the lights were still on and I could still see the TV's lights in mom's side of the room)
Me: What's dad doing?
2nd bro: Walking around (pacing around the room)
Me: What's mom doing?
2nd bro: Sleeping... Wait (he looked back and check the TV light), watching TV?
(I went to 1st bro door and tried the door knob, which was locked. 2nd bro right behind me)
Me: What's he doing?
2nd bro: Sleeping.
Me: Hum...
(Walked back to my room. Heard footsteps on my older bro's room and the door opened)
1st bro: What?
Me: What are you doing?
1st bro: I was sleeping.
Me: Hum...
(All three stood inside my room and stood beside the door)
(2nd bro started to rub his belly - a habit that he picked up since his belly started to show, and also 1st bro's round belly - since his belly has grown really round lately... I followed his example - and rub THEIR bellies. Wakakaka...)
...
(A few seconds of standing, doing nothing beside my door)
Me: What are you guys doing??? Go back to your own room! XD
(All went back to their own room and closed the door at the same time while smiling)

Really weird... It's like a comedy episode or something. That wasn't an everyday thing mind you... Though the "what are you doing" phrase has become quite a habit lately, not unlike Joey's "how u doin?" phrase. Lol. I guess me and my bro watched too many Friends. (There were time when I re-watched Friends in my room, and 2nd bro saw, and in the end, he re-watched Friends as well. So that time the memory were still fresh in our mind and we'd laugh them off together.) So I think the "what're u doin"s started at that time. And lately it's becoming an everyday thing... It's like a greeting... Everytime we visited each other's room... Opening his/my door and it's "What are you doing?" Though usually I'd prefer not to answer the question. Lol.

So, What are you doing?

Very eventful 2-3 weeks

2009-10-01T08:03:00.001-07:00

So, if I look back, starting with the huge 7,8 ritcher earthquake that hits Indonesia (largest ever in Jakarta in my whole life probably?), to the flood in the desert area that makes a dry land looks like a vast, huge lake and event caused accidents in the mountain area that ultimately canceled our 4-wheelers trip to the oasis on the mountain area because it's too dangerous (apparently the last update I've heard was that around 14 people found dead and more than 30 people were still missing. So the whole area was blocked. And apparently, there hasn't been as much rain for the past, what... 70-80 years??? Then we came, and it suddenly rained the whole night, non-stop, and flooding the area... Ckckckck... I heard that usually it rained there hard, like storm rain that we had back in GC but usually it's only 30 min to 1 hour and then it stopped and usually it's very rare... Usually...), to the worst dDesert storm that covered south-east Australia (I heard that it hasn't happened since 1940s too, at least it doesn't reach populated areas), to the second earthquake in Indonesia that wrecked Padang city.... And who knows what else is happening out there at this very moment.. (I think Samoa in US was strucked with tsunami as well recently and NZ... NZ was hit with tsunami too, just hours ago... If I'm not mistaken...)

Wow.... What's happening to our mother earth? It's like nature's finally took action and starts 'revenging' on how humans behave for the past couple hundreds of years, neglecting the well-being of nature itself.

As for me, I'm just thankful that I still live as usual, happily healthy (enough)... Without any major crisis going on. So much blessings and protections in my whole life... What bout those people who are affected then? How I wished that nothing bad would happen... Which is kinda impossible hey? Haha... Which in turn, is kinda scary in itself. I think no one could go through life so "safely" like I did... I mean, something must have been there, stored for me, waiting for the right moment and timing to come through bursting on my door... Waiting to see, how I'll react to the sudden devastating circumstances... Right?

Well, whatever happen, will happen.. And so far I still believe I'll be alright, because I know that I have a great "backing up" who'll always be with me, (us,) no matter what... So... Fingers-crossed...

Burj Al Arab (Dubai) - Special Report

2009-09-29T05:48:00.000-07:00

Okay... So I was in Southern Europe and Northern Africa...

Now, I'm in Dubai, in one of the most luxurious hotel in the world... So they said... But I have to agree... We've basically got a apartment just for ourselves (without kitchen of course, but we can order... Hohoho...) With 24 hours butler waiting outside and personalized reception desk and Hermes grooming kit (lotions, perfume), our own jacuzzi, business area (with laptop, fax-printer-scanner, HP laptop, iPod deck, working space, free internet - wifi in the whole building) and yeah.. Those doorbell with cameras and speaker so you can look at your guest on the TV (Oh yeah, did I mention that you can open the door with the TV remote controls and basically any phone you got that's closest to you... so you don't have to personally come to the door yourself).

(Oooo.. And the butlers came with new water bottles and fruits and food and changed the ice cubes, and offering us sparkling juice? did he say sparkling juice? humm.. I wonder if we have to pay for this? Didn't ask. Hahahaha.. Should ask later...)

They've got underwater restaurant with all the fishes and restaurant above with the view overlooking the whole Dubai city and the sea... They've got indoor swimming pool and spas and saloon, and even ones that's private for women only. They got shops nearby that we can just go to with a Caddy (those golf-carts), they've got some sort of water boom that I won't get to play with (leaving tomorow morning so I'm planning to go to the indoor women swimming pool.. Now actually...)

Whatelse? The interiors sure are very luxurious...

(Ooo.. The snacks are delicious! Oh yeah, they've got 40% Indians here. So, they've got lots of, everything I guess?, great Indian food... I just had one myself. And I have to say, that was the best Indian food so far (you know I don't really prefer Indian food.. But to say that I enjoyed that one, then it must be something, no? Hehe..))

So, okay... Stop boasting... Oh, I heard before the recessions the rooms here are always full. They booked it for a month at least.. No wonder. For those too-rich-people, this is really comfy... I guess.. At least it's kinda too much for me. Haha.. (Beda kelas nih... Ketauan deh. Hahaha..)

Muahaha... Huahaha... oink.. oink... Thunder Piggy.. Strikes Again...

(Note: The last previous line was made by my brother while I was away, enjoying the swimming pool facility..)

Anyway, so it was great! (Oh on this whole trip, I swam twice! Woohooo.. It's been a reaallll long time... At least on my three years in Oz, I don't think I've ever swim? Lol.) What else can I say? This place is wayyyy beyong my reach... At least for now... Haha. I guess I'm really lucky that the economy actually is in recession (the price is wayyy cheaper now compared to before) so I can actually try staying a night in a 7 star hotel...) Might be a once in a lifetime experience...

(Jadi begini toh rasanya jadi orang kaya... Ckckckckck... I really could get used to this...) I took lots of pics and record lots of vids... Though illegally sometimes. Haha. (Too expensive not to try recording..) Anw, yeah... Sepertinya gw lumayan norak.. Huahahahha.... (Keliatan bgt nih org kampung nyasar.. Lol.) Even the butlers and the employees are way cooler (clothing and behaviour) compared to us (esp. me I guess? Lol...)

Anw, 1.21am.. Got to wake up in less than 4 hours =( Boooo....
Well, I guess a night is enough.. Too long's no good.. Hahaha... Nyasar ke dunia yg berbeda sehari gpp lah ya... Kalo kelamaan, tar bisa stuck di alam mimpi, mending jangan. Hahahaha...

Well, the rest of the trip will be updated later...

~ Signing off from another world

A new member's coming =D

2009-09-16T12:36:00.000-07:00

It's here! It's here! Well, not quite here, here... But it's coming!! Soon!! Like soon, soon!!! ~~Wooohoooo...

Can't wait to get my hands on it.. So excited. Hahaha...

So.. October... Come here soon! Yay! v(^0^)v

>(^-^)v Let's do some happy dancing ^^

<(^-^<)(>^-^)> <(^-^<)Yippey yipeey yayy..
(>^-^)> <(^-^<)(>^-^)> Yippey yippey Horray...

(>^0^<) Aahh.. Feeling so content...

...

2009-09-12T07:29:00.001-07:00

Taking a reaallllyy deep breath....

~~~Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Taking another deep breath....

(Note: Random outburst because suddenly a shinning light seems to shine so brightly ahead but as time passes, the shine seems to diminish little by little...)

It's almost dark again now... But still crossing-fingers... Hoping... Praying...
(At least I'm feeling a bit better now. Huhuhu...)

Life in Indo

2009-09-07T22:54:00.000-07:00

So here I am, in the midst of all confusions, laid-back-ness, full-support, lazyness, totally in my comfort zone with nothing to worry about (well, almost nothing).

I think even in this place I dreaded and feared so long ago, I found myself to be 'living'. Yes, maybe (just maybe) I was more positive (always surrounded by positive thinking people, thank God) but being surrounded in a negative environment (really hard at first, really heart-breaking, not to mention mental-state and mind breaking. Lol.) I learnt little by little, to grasp what "little" hope and positiveness I had left. I noticed I start to think more in a positive way lately. Always trying to see things in a different light. Even if someone said something that take hopes away (nooo.. don't left me!!!). Sometimes it does get really tiring and so tempting to just go "whatever..." but I refused to do so! *clinging to that lil-bit ray of hope* So I guess hard-headedness is good in that way? Lol.

I think my response to those around me is still not good. But starting with my own mind, it's a start isn't it?

Hoping my progress won't stop here... Fingers-crossed.

崖の上のポニョ, Gake no Ue no Ponyo?, "Ponyo on the Cliff"

2009-09-05T23:29:00.000-07:00

Another work from Ghibli's studio Hayao Miyazaki.

I read the back cover of the DVD before watching it and assumed it may be somekind of Mermaid thingy, Hayao's version. I watched it. Surprisingly, it is! It is a mermaid story, Hayao Miyazaki's version. Lol. And the theme of the movie is still Hayao's "normal" theme: magical, sweet, full-of-hope, with you can achieve anything, even those beyond your wildest dreams. =)

And apparently, from Wiki, his inspiration was really "The Little Mermaid" from Christian Hans Anderson. Lol. And he did most of the waves thingy himself, manually (hand-drawn). And he received quite a lot of awards for the movie.

So, I think, I'd agree with those who said "Not Miyazaki's best film" but still enjoyable to watch. The scenary is back to old times. Comparing to Spirited Away with all the great details and 3D buildings - really... Too beautiful for animation, Ponyo's more like old animation - with round edges on buildings and cliffs and roads that moved up and down, and of course, exaggeration of the waves. (Hayao never failed to exaggerate on things does he? Either it's a tear drop, fire, or waves).

The ending of the story's really abrupt and it's like "What? Is that it? Really?" I think through out the movie I'm more like, "hum... ok... humm.. then? humm... what's that? humm.. who's that sposed to be? oooo.. that's cute! huh? is that all?" And at the end there's nothing much to talk about (well, I was speechless for sure. Haha...)

So... Should I go for a second watch on the movie??? Humm... Certainly would like to watch it again... Someday... Hahaha... Maybe I'd appreciate it more then?

Ooo.. The soundtrack's certainly catchy - stuck in my head for a while after watching it. Lol.

Finished!!!

2009-09-03T23:24:00.001-07:00

Wooohhhhooooooo.... I just did my last test for the current mandarin lessons. It's all done, finished, 完成的 (wan cheng de), 完成した (kansei shita), selesai, voir finish, c'est fini, finitto, 완성된 (whatever this is. lol), ausgespielt, מחוסל , bitmiş, etc etc.. (You got the idea... Lol..)

Hahhh... Lega... (Well, still have to practice regularly or else I'd forget everything I've learnt so far -_-" (They even have an idiom for this in Chinese. I forgot what though. Something along the line of Hanzi zhen bu qing (Meaning: Chinese characters doesn't know how to repay kindness - tidak tahu budi) or something like that. They seem to have idioms for every single thing -_-. It'd be nice to know (quite cool actually) but... Begitulah...

Next???

HSK Level 6! Amin... (I don't know how hard it's gonna be but I bet it's gonna be quite hard, especially with one month or so to go and I still have not gotten any textbook materials to study for it -_-. Zhen caogao! (Sangat gawat! - Inggrisnya apa ya? Hummm..) - I just know that I can't get HSK lvl 6 cause I'm still in the basic level... Apparently level 6 is intermediate... Sigh... Ah well...

S2 @ China??? -_- Well, kalo bisa masuk BeiDa sih bagus, gw mau2 aja. Kalo ga? Huhuhu... S2 mending di tmpt lain kali?? =/

~ Walking towards the future one step at a time ~

Kan Guo Lai - Richie Ren

2009-09-03T23:01:00.000-07:00

Lately there's this one old song from good old school days that came back... I just realized how fun (and easy!) it is to play the guitar. No wonder they always played this song at schoool that time. Hahahaha! (The meaning's funny too. Lol...)

I wanna download this... Do you know how?
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Dui Mian De Nu Hai Kan Guo Lai (Girl at the opposite, look over here)
Kan Guo Lai, Kan Guo Lai (Look over here, look over here)
Zhi Li De Biao Yian Hen Jing Cai (The performance over here is very wonderful)
Qing Bu Yao Jia Zhuang Bu Li Bu Cai (Please don't pretend, don't ignore)

Dui Mian De Nu Hai Kan Guo Lai (Girl at the opposite, look over here)
Kan Guo Lai, Kan Guo Lai (Look over here, look over here)
Bu Yao Bei Wo De Yang Zi Xia Huai (Please don't be frightened by my appearance)
Qi Shi Wo Hen Ke Ai (Really, I'm very cute!)

Ji Mo Nan Hai De Bei Ai (The sorrow of a lonely boy)
Shuo Chu Lai, Shei Ming Bai (Say it aloud, who'll understand?)
Qiu Qiu Ni Pao Ge Mei Yan Guo Lai (Please send over a charming glance)
Hong Hong Wo Dou Wo Le Kai Huai (Humor me, flirt until my heart is ecstatic)

(He..He..he, Mei Li Wo, heh!) (Hehehe, won't respond to me, hey!)

Chorus:

C G Em Am
Wo Zuo Kan You Kan, Shang Kan Xia Kan (I look left, look right, look up, look down)
F G
Yuan Lai Mei Ge Nu Hai Dou Bu Jian Dan (Actually every girl is very complex)
C G Em Am
Wo Xiang Le You Xiang, Wo Cai Le You Cai (I think and think, I guess and guess)
F G
Nu Hai Men De Xin Shi Hai Zhen Qi Guai (Girls' hearts are very strange!)

Ji Mo Nan Hai De Cang Ying Pai (Lonely boy's flyswatter)
Zuo Pai Pai, You Pai Pai (Swat swat left, swat swat right)
Wei Shen Me Hai Shi Mei Ren Lai Ai (Why no one has come to love me?)
Wu Ren Wen Jin Ah, Zhen Wu Nai (No one shows interest, how boring!)

Dui Mian De Nu Hai Kan Guo Lai (The girl at the opposite look over here)
Kan Guo Lai, Kan Guo Lai (Look over here, look over here)
Ji Mo Nan Hai Qing Dou Chu Kai (Lonely boy's heart is opening)
Xu Yao Ni Gei Wo Yi Dian Ai Hi Hi (Need you to give me a little love)

Wo Zuo Kan You Kan, Shang Kan Xia Kan (I look left, look right, look up, look down)
Yuan Lai Mei Ge Nu Hai Dou Bu Jian Dan (Actually every girl is very complex)
Wo Xiang Le You Xiang, Wo Cai Le You Cai (I think and think, I guess and guess)
Nu Hai Men De Xin Shi Hai Zhen Qi Guai (Girls' hearts are very strange!)

Hai Zhen Qi Quai Lai lai lai ... (Hai! Really strange! Come, come, come...)

Fade Out

(Ah.. Suan Le, Hui Jia Ba) (*Sigh* Forget it, let's go home...)

Happy Mood!!! =DD

2009-09-02T08:04:00.000-07:00

Somehow today, with all of its own excitement and worries and whatever, I ended up feeling happy and content at the end of the day. There is no particular reason to why I'm feeling happy and content, it's just that I am happy and content. Hahaha.

I think the atmosphere of where you are helps though. Somewhere that makes you feel secure and content and can freely be who you are trully maybe? All of your crazyness, lazyness, whatever badness and goodness you have, the place where you can pull all of them out at once. As for me, that's my room! Hohoho.. Cozy and comfortable. I guess it's my comfortable zone (though too much inside it isn't good too).

My room's like my hiding place, a place where I can come back to and release whatever worries and stresses I have outside of it. A home isn't My home if it doesn't have My room. A place to be able to calm yourself, be alone and just look back and take your own time to analyze things or just forget your worries for the moment. Lol.

I guess everyone has different things that represent that 'comfy place'. Some might refer it as their spouses, some other maybe their 'workshop/garage' or maybe their reading room or in their activities or in other people's acknowledgements.

What's yours?

Being Me

2009-08-24T12:04:00.000-07:00

I may not be a perfect person.
I may not be the best there is.
I may not even wholly like what I see (in me).
But I realized...
I am the only one.

Even if I am not perfect,
Even if I am not as good as you want me to be,
Even if I am still lacking in most areas (if not all)
But still...
If I am not me, then there is no point of my being.
There is no point of my existence.

I am here,
I exists,
Because I am me.

Maybe I won't satisfy you by being me.
Maybe I would be a disappointment by being me.
(There's still a long way to go afterall)
But I am here because I am me.
I am with you, because I am me.
I am remembered as me.

So let me be...
Let me be me.
The me who I am.
The me who I treasured.
The me who I cherished.

Maybe the me in the next few years won't be the same as the me I am now.
But for the time being, let me just be me like the me now.
And let me slowly enjoy the changes that is, that will, soon occur.
Let me learn things and grow through my own set of pace...

Let me be myself as I am..

Let's treasure each stages and moments in our life =)

Indonesia Raya ^^

2009-08-17T01:30:00.000-07:00

Dalam semangat kemerdekaan... "HUT RI Dirgahayu ke 64"

Gw baru tau Indonesia Raya itu ada bait 2nya.. Hahahaha....

Hello Love =)

2009-08-05T06:51:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I have this sudden urge of listening to Chris Tomlin's songs. And so I went to youtube and found his song "I Will Rise" and also found out that he just released a new album on September last year (meaning it's like almost a year ago?) lol... Yeah, but I only found out recently (I used to search for it but couldn't find his latest album... So...)

Yappari, I still love his songs ^^

I've listened to the whole thing (kinda) and I love it ^^

Kinda typical of his songs I guess but some songs are kinda different. One of which is the one titled "Love" cause it's a collaboration with Watoto Children choir.. ^^ So it's really beautiful... Khekhekhekhe....

The story behind it was funny too. Cause when he first created it, he showed it to this guy and he said he likes it but he wanted to try something different and so they tampered with the songs and add some 'African' style into it. And he was saying, "how cool it is to have the Watoto children choir" cause you know, of course he'd met them at Hillsong conference. Khekhekhe.... Then like somehow someone mentioned that the Watoto choir's actually there for some national competition or something? And they're free on Thursday for their schedule, and you know what? They were recording this song "Love" on Thursday too... So finally they called and the Watoto children agreed to record together (and Chris still didn't believe it until their bus is actually parked across the streets and the children crossed it and entered the studio...) Huehehehe... Praise the Lord... ^^ Very interesting... Of course nothing's a coincident right? Hehehehe..

Ahhh..... It's been a while...

Anyway, he got some really good worship songs too... I think Exalted (Yahweh) is a nice song for personal worship time? But of course the song's too short. Hehehehe... Ah well...

Gonna enjoy his songs for the rest of the day... Yay...

I Will Rise by Chris Tomlin

2009-08-04T11:20:00.000-07:00

There's a peace I've come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There's an anchor for my soul
I can say, "It is well"

Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise
When He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

There's a day that's drawing near
When this darkness breaks to light
And the shadows disappear
And my faith shall be my eyes

Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise
When He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

And I hear the voice of many angels sing
Worthy is the Lamb
And I hear the cry of every longing heart
Worthy is the Lamb
(You are worthy)

"But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint." ~ Isaiah 40:31

Another one?

2009-07-16T19:48:00.000-07:00

It was pass 09.00am, the alarm had went off once (and a snooze or two... three? can't remember..) when suddenly a knock came. Didn't bother to open the door, just continued lying on the bed, enjoying the cold, cold temperature, I looked at my phone again and check the time.

What? It's still early....

Hustles bustles, people talking outside the room. Heard mom's voice though didn't know what she was talking about... A few minutes before 09.30am... Another knock came...

"Whatt???????" Lazily shoutted to ask why they're so noisy out there. No answer. Just another knock on the door.
"Kenapaaa????" Heard the voice of my two brothers outside the room.
"Bomb."
"What bomb????" Then one of them knock harder on the door...

So I forced myself to wake up and opened the door, where I was suddenly yanked to walk to our parent's room...

There it was, on TV.... A place so familiar to eyes being shown on TV...
Ooooo.. There was another bomb! So glad I mostly refused to go there, though it ended me up in Senayan/Sudirman most of the time.

"Tuh Da... Bomb Da, bomb... Satu keluarga bangun, masa lo kaga bangun???"
"What? It's another one at J.W. Marriot?" Eyes widen...
"Yep."
"Iseng banget seh orang2..."

Then my brother went back to his computer to check the stock price, which not surprisingly all goes redddddddd.... Whooohooooooo.....

And we continued our daily life. I've got a mandarin lesson waiting downstairs...

Well, well... There goes my few minutes of sleeping time.. It succeeded to woke me up completely though...

Sigh...

What a stupidity... What's the point of setting another bomb? So useless... They're not builing our country to a better place but just ruining it.

Sigh... What would this beloved country become? Isn't hundreds of disappointment and stupidity enough already? How long are they gonna keep this up? -__-

Man and Woman

2009-07-12T06:05:00.000-07:00

As time passes, parents worry bout our so-called 'soul-mate' even more. Sometimes they just speak out 'ridiculous' ideas to get us 'moving'.

Well, that's not really the point I wanted to bring up here. Lol...

Anw, as I got involved with more activities with other people (which somehow involved too many boys with too little girls -__-), I'm exposed more to the dillemmas and problems related to those kind of activities...

Well, more specifically is - cash problem and transport problem...

Of course this is an on-going issue that each of us surely has commonly dealt with in the past. (Heck, I've always called people up and asked them - cassually and a bit 'non-characteristically' or what we know as 'dengan ga sopannya' Lol... - to pick me up... And of course bring me back home (we agree it's a set no? Lol...)

And in the western communities, it is a common occurence for all of us to just hop on to the bus and go together (yeah, of course.. it's usually our main transportation gt loh. Lol...) and just pay by ourselves...

But what about in asian communities? Is it so wrong for woman to drive alone? (well, yes it was past mid-nite... But...) So do we have to made those who live just the exact opposite direction from our house to pick us up and bring us back??? (The travelling time going to the destination place to home is the same for him and for us... Meaning doubling his travelling distance... Plus the destination's not just 15 min drive... It's moorrreeee... Esp in the crowd of the traffic jam in big cities like Jkt. Lol... Yesss.. Manthap!)

And what about the issue of "Of course the man has to pay for the girl! He's the man afterall..."

Sigh... What's wrong with paying by ourselves?

Sure I appreciate the gesture of man paying for woman, but not all the time, no?

So confusing...

So if there's no one to pick us up (paying is another matter... I believe we could just safely assume right now it's not as big an issue), can't we go?

Should we just be a good girl and stay at home???

So confusing!!! >_<

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2009-07-12T05:49:00.001-07:00

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-- Tenggelammm... Makin lama makin dalammm.... --

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